EPI-75: Ya Load 16 Tons And Whattaya Get?
Why is it, again, that you defend employment so strongly?
Ok, ok, ok. We all need to eat. I get it.
My point is, if you’re complaining about work but keep going to work, and never truly begin thinking of how you might actually be able to get out of work, then what, exactly, are you doing with your life?
We all work until we don’t need to.
But how do you get into the rarefied air that is “don’t need to”?
How do you stop digging that coal?
You start pondering who else might need either what you already provide or something else you’d rather provide, for far more than you make now.
Then you start researching ways to start that plan.
I hit on this topic because I work even harder on my own shit than I do my work shit.
I give what I can at work. And it matters to me that my output is high quality.
But I ultimately don’t care and don’t want to be there.
This unhappiness and its impending absence from my life drives me to work even harder on my own material.
And it keeps me going when all goes to shit, as it’s been doing the last two days as I attempted to produce a large amount of videos for my site.
I don’t even want to work this hard on my own shit!
But I’m willing.
Because this is what’s going to draw the people to me who both value what I offer and better my life for being in it.
Then I become free from a life that forces me to give up what I don’t want to lose, for a cause I do not care about, for not enough money.
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Hey, this is Ken Jensen. I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2 thousands. And believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.
What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process, was mind blowing to say the least.
Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve shown up in my life so you can do the same. Welcome to the bipolar Excellence podcast episode 75. You load 16 tons, and what do you get?
That’s a song by Tennessee Ernie Ford, 2 of you younger folks. That’s a million years ago that was made. I’ll put I’m gonna put the I’m gonna put a link to the to the YouTube. I’ll put the actual the actual video from YouTube.
On episode 70 five’s page in bipolar excellence dot com. It’s all about a man load and call. Men used to dig whole by hand. Couple generations back, 3, 4 generations back, men worked. Too damn hard, and it was, like, all all men.
It was life was harder, more brutal, more physical. And that song was about loading 16 tons of coal a day and what do you get? Another day older and deeper in debt. Say Peter, don’t you call me because I can’t go.
I owe my soul to the company, stove. What’s the message Tennessee Ernie Ford was telling us? It’s that job suck. Being a wage slave sucks. Now this this episode isn’t gonna be me ranting about how fucked up being an employee is.
I think I made that pretty clear throughout. But it it ties a few concepts together nicely. Just because you build your own company, you’re not gonna work less.
You’re probably gonna work more. I’m in the middle of that right now. The difference being there’s no ceiling on what you can turn it into and how well you can earn from it and and how it might change your life for the better.
Jobs are very static, very stationary. Very limited. There are parameters you’re not allowed to break. You can’t cross. There’s nothing you can do about it.
Are all jobs bad? No. I was just talking to 1 of my youngest cousins today. He seems to be frighteningly intelligent when compared to the vast majority of the entire human race. I said, so when are you gonna start your new company?
He’s 15? He answered me dead serious. I don’t know. I don’t know if I wanna start a company. I was like, what what do you wanna do then? He goes, I wanna be an astrophysicist. Dead serious, lighthearted.
Very positive in delivery, but dead serious. I was like, holy shit. Unfortunately, I don’t know a whole lot about this kid, but I know his parents and I know I got an idea what he’s about and I and I love it when I get to see him.
I don’t get to talk to him enough, but He’s fascinating the more I come to know him.
Now if that’s what your job’s gonna be, that’s different. I know I want somebody who’s gone all the right schools if they’re operating on my brain aneurysm or my heart or, you know, these things.
Yeah. You want some school involved. Even there, there’s a bunch of fuckery when it comes to a job.
Because there’s a lot of courses that even doctors and lawyers and astrophysicists have to take just to appease a college so it can make money to sell courses that you don’t fucking need to be a good astrophysicist doctor or lawyer.
It’s it it’s a scam from top to bottom no matter what level of income you’re at to a degree.
The lower your income, it’s it’s it’s just more slave wage. The higher income you live a better life, but in most cases you’re still only 1 paycheck paycheck away from losing it all.
You’re just living a nicer looking life with some nicer experiences at the same time. So I got thinking of having the job and how much I hate it as I was as always in a massive tech battle.
Over the last few days. My god. How many times have you guys heard me talking about me and tech? I’m capable, but things just go sideways. And I lose track of where I’m at in the production process sometimes out of impatience.
And things go sideways lately, things have been going sideways with my phone and my video recording apps that I can’t even explain even when I dig deep and focus hard.
So I told my wife, I was like, listen, the brand new iPhone, it it they’re making movies with it.
It has the features I need without having to have a separate app. There’s 1 button I click and I have what I need to give my videos depth, and then a whole bunch of other shit.
They do it. It’s absolutely stunning that my current iPhone can’t do. And I’m getting tired of having to trust these apps that just fight me out of the clear blue sky.
I’m trying to streamline. All the time streamline I don’t always have the budget to do it the way I want but that’s growing. That’s slowly repairing itself and I’m having options of the kind I’ve never had before.
So that’s getting exciting. Right now I’m adding all these new videos to bipolar excellence dot com in preparation from my big marketing push on LinkedIn.
There’s 1 of my coaches, Jason Leister of I always get this wrong. Well, I am I never remember because he keeps changing the name of his site. I’m telling you, he’s awesome. But he he keeps changing his domain name and it screws me up.
Sovereign business dot org. He used to be incom incomparable expert dot org before that before that was clients suck dot com, and I think there might have been 1 other before that or in between those 2.
Anyway, I love Jason. He knows so. I’ve told him so frequently. I just struggle. I’ve I’ve I’ve talked about him for so much over the years. I have the wrong website name, website names burned into my memory. Sovereign business dot org.
Jason’s teaching teachings dictate a lot of how I think and act and how I want my life to be. So the last time I ever paid him a small pile of money, he told me not not only to start a podcast because I need to be heard.
I’m 1 of these people that need to be heard. He said put a video on every page that anything important happens in your sight. People need to experience you as if they saw you in real life.
So I had done that a little bit but I had never gotten deep into it because just whatever, life. And then as you guys know, this last year, Nothing has been small about this last year. Absolutely nothing.
I’ve never been hit with so many large scale issues with such complexity and depth over and over and over as I have this last year. Handling it all, managing it all, not going crazy. Not fucking anything up really too bad at all.
But wearing me down, but I got this, and I’m almost due the other side of the rabbit hole. It’s it’s it’s about it’s just about done and me and my family and a bunch of things are in a real nice place.
For my efforts. I’m pretty proud of myself if I don’t if I say so do say so myself. So anyway, putting up all these videos on the website, fighting with tech, realizing I need to evolve my my systems.
I have more plans for What I’m gonna do for making videos, they’re gonna be more movie like. I need a few more pieces of equipment, and But, yeah, it’s a lot of work. And right now, I got 6 days off in a row from my day job.
And I am beating that opportunity to death. These movies, they’ve been on an index card staring at me like a plague, ready to pour into every opening in my body and destroy me if I don’t scratch them off that list.
I knew there were gonna be headaches, making videos as as labor intensive as is the podcast, but I do the podcast a lot. I’ve done videos a lot too, but but I do them in a sporadic fashion.
So I knew there was gonna be a review curve. And I’ve been hanging. I’m getting better. I’m cracking out videos like crazy. I work a day job which I hate because I’m a night guy.
And with this many days off, I’m able to get back onto my night schedule and I flourish at night. My energy goes super high at night and I’m calm. I’m my own speedball just by being able to sleep when I want and be awake when I want.
So I’m cracking up these videos. I wanted to keep going, but I I had to stop and do the podcast because I can’t be in my podcast studio talking loud like I do for too much longer.
Everybody’s gotta go to bed. It’s it’s almost midnight. And I’m too easy to hear no matter how much insulation is around me. So That was it. I just just I just I started thinking more about jobs and how so many people are trapped.
And they’re miserable and they won’t do something to start the ball rolling towards freedom and they don’t believe they can or that doesn’t seem feasible.
Or as I found out, There’s things I used to teach people about fitness and wellness and such.
And as I’m closing in on 55, I realized there can be a point where you are just spent. You’re spent and to do anything extra, it it almost causes literal pain or at best, and I’ve had this happen many times.
You just sit and stare at the computer screen and already opened notebook and nothing happens because there’s nothing to give, nothing. I’m going through a period of that right now as it pertains to my physical training.
I haven’t really trained in a year. Not really. And this is hard on me. It’s not good for my health for 1, and it’s not good for my psychological health because When I’m in the gym, it’s meditative.
I go to the gym like other people go to church. It’s a very aggressive but I’m very much in the moment. I’m a hundred percent in the moment. And when you’re in the moment, you can’t worry about the past or think about the the future.
Now I should say, out of caveat out of caveat, I do think about the past when I’m training. I think about How open do I wanna be here? It’s all aggression, aggression based.
So I think about all all the fights I was ever in. I think about the insane shit I did as AAA marine routinely. I think about sex I’ve had that was just over the top, particularly since I’m older now. And these are just memories.
I think about all that shit, the caveman, and he comes out I train, and it’s the only place I get to be that guy without interruption, without judgment, without hurting someone’s feelings, or fucking scaring them.
I live in a small neighborhood now and I found out even if I trained during the day, the way I am.
I’ve already gotten feedback I scare people. They don’t they don’t wanna even come near to garage gym. And I do not look friendly when I’m training.
I look the opposite of friendly. And I don’t wanna be bothered because I’m in that zone. When you’re in a little community, you’ve gotta, like, you know, you’ve gotta adjust somehow. I won’t always be in this little community.
My next move is gonna put me somewhere back where I’m private like I had it not long ago. And I can be me with unfettered. So I wish I had something more interesting to share right now, and I really don’t.
And I don’t wanna just phone this in. But that was about all I had to say. If you go to bipolar excellence dot com, you’ll see videos galore on all the pages.
Oh, 0, what the fuck? There is something interesting to share. I got finally finally. I got my first video to appear on YouTube, an actual video, not a placeholder with an audio playing under it.
That was my third temp my third attempt across as many weeks. Everything that needed to happen happened, and I got a video live.
Episode 74 is live on YouTube. Go to YouTube and punch in Ken Jensen. I I guess. I don’t even know enough about it to properly direct you or punch in bipolar excellence. Can’t be 2 of them. They’re better not be.
You’ll find my channel and you’ll see the difference a live video presentation looks compared to the the placeholder images, which which pulls it pulls the pictures from my my episode posts on the website and it’s better than nothing but it looks like shit, you know, comparatively.
And again, as I get doing all of this and buy more equipment and learn learn this part of the production process better, it they’re gonna look better they’re gonna look like like how to pros make theirs look.
I’m getting there. Again, I share all this, you know, to brace you Some of you are gonna go down this same path and it’s gonna be new to you.
If I’m coaching you, I’ve learned enough that I can help you get over various speed bumps and issues and hurdles quicker than I did because I can and I’ll make it a little more palatable for you a little easier to digest.
Less fearful. And that is it and that is it. My head honestly is in making those videos, and I have much more to say than this because I’ve been saying it on all all the videos, but I will say this.
If you go to my site and look at what I’ve been doing with the videos, I’m really liking what I’m saying in those videos.
They’re on all the major pages in my site. I cleaned up the footer. I added a bright image It it looks like text and there’s a LinkedIn logo on 1 side and people talking on the other and and it’s an image I made in Canva.
You click it, you go right to LinkedIn. The important reason why I’m mentioning this is it’s a free way you get to interact with me to get an idea of what I’m about and possibly get some help with something that I’m willing to do.
You just need a LinkedIn account. Because I need to spread the word about my presence on LinkedIn.
And 1 of the best ways to do that is if we’re having a public conversation. If public freaks you out a little, get your stroke or your anus a little drawn up too tight, just DM me.
I’m happy with that too. I just wanna be of value in a way that I can fit into my schedule and just get the word out about myself. Through your positive experiences with me, but also just that’s how I wanna live.
I wanna be there for you guys in this way because it’s how I wanna do things. So I’m I’m more than happy to do it, but you’re gonna need a LinkedIn account to do it with me.
I I’m not on any other platforms. I will be on Twitter. Far as I can see because I’m about to do the Justin Welsh based LinkedIn slash Twitter content production marketing process, and he uses Twitter.
I’ve never had an interest in Twitter. So I know nothing about it. I’m focusing primarily on LinkedIn right now.
Twitter will follow up right behind it soon. I got an account there, but I I think it ends in buy packs, BIPEX. There’s nothing there right now though, so I’m big on LinkedIn already. I got a lot going on over there and more is to come.
And I’ll be glad to talk to you there. So check that out too. Go to LinkedIn and I actually scored my own name, Ken Jensen for my my profile. There’s a million friggin Ken Jensen. I don’t know how I got that lucky.
So anyway, alright. That’s it, guys. III wish this could’ve been a more a more fun amusing and entertaining episode than that, but There were some nuggets for training purposes in there and the the YouTube thing.
It was huge for me. YouTube, the whole YouTube thing between my technology was just fucking with me hideously, and I beat it.
I always beat everything. I simply do. If I’m working with you, I’ll beat whatever it is you I are working on to help make your world go forward too. That’s it, guys. Be well.