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EPI-70: The Terrifying Reality Of Life Within The Circle

EPI-70: The Terrifying Reality Of Life Within The Circle

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May 28, 2023

EPI-70: The Terrifying Reality Of Life Within The Circle

The search for true focus might take you a minute.

And by a minute, I mean…years. Maybe.

But that’s not quite what I mean to say.

You start with a focus on what it is you want to do, and with who, as best as you can figure it at the time.

Then it gets refined as you get feedback from both the world and your own experiences, inner and outer.

I recently had a talk with a close, dear friend and in it, I blasted out my utter lack of desire to continue working with traumatized people.

Too negative. Too draining. Too pointless per my lifestyle requirements.

I want to only work with people who wish to soar, to climb, to leap and excel!

My friend felt the same but didn’t realize that I’d just had an epiphany.

But up until earlier today, my marketing machine has been aimed specifically at traumatized people and their stories.

Now, I AM fascinated by any great story.

But hanging around the grievously wounded and usually, actively still hurting from said wounding, has been grinding away at my spirit.

And here I was ensuring that I continue to get nothing but more of the same!

Insanity!

I couldn’t see it until I saw it.

Let me make clear: I am NOT against the traumatized!

I just don’t want to build a business around them anymore.

The reason I was even doing so was due to all the marketing training I’d had, up until this point.

  • “Focus on a target market.”
  • “Focus on what you know.”
  • “Focus on your best skill set.”

Etc.

But my newest coaches have been patiently teaching me that, in this day and age, the time of “the person is the brand” has arrived.

It simply means, I market…ME!

I then talk about what matters to me most, while sharing what it is I do best and how I can help others with this knowledge.

Then hire clients accordingly.

(I hope you caught what I just did there.)

So, that’s where I’m at. Revamping a bunch of my imagery and text to reflect this new understanding of who I work with and why.

A place I’ve been more times than I care to admit across the past 10 or 15 years.

But it takes what it takes.

And because I’m me and you’re not, you might just reach a stronger position much faster than I have.

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Hey, this is Ken Jensen. I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2 thousands. And believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process, was mind blowing to say the least.

Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve show up in my life so you can do the same.

Welcome to episode 70, the terrifying reality of life within the circle. This is sort of related to it was an an episode I did some time back called hurting satellites. I think this is is related.

It’s not exactly the same. But I I guess in this case, I had talked about how ideas and facts and resources and and just anything to be considered when trying to figure out a plan from moving forward on anything.

Within my head, it it it’s all it it’s I see it as satellites orbiting the planet that is my mind. And there’s a bunch of them. Some get flung off into space as I pick and choose and then the the the remainder.

The remaining group gets closer, gets tighter, together, and more close to the orbit that is my mind, and eventually it crashes into my head as AAA meteorite of awareness.

That felt ridiculous. That was too I didn’t think deep enough into that, and that was the best I come up with metaphorically right there, and then I have my answer.

And then After a while, let’s just keep with that. The the extra mass I don’t even know. This is the the metaphor is disintegrating.

Help me shit gets flung back out in into space for me to have to sort through all over again and pick and choose and tighten up the orbit there there of and get it all to come back as the next coherent plan to my head.

I’m in 1 of those right now, and that’s how it relates to the terrifying life. The terrifying reality of life within a circle, everything comes full circle. A little while back, I had a website called outsider’s Journey.

For a few different reasons, I I stopped producing on that site. And yet it was right where I wanted to be. I’m realizing that now. Some of the changes that got made since then had to take place.

But but I was on the right track. I had a conversation other day with a friend who who his friendship, I I value mightily. He’s he’s probably the best friend I got right now, and I’m I’m quite happy with that.

And we we rarely get to see each other. But in talking to him, I told him, I said, you know, he’s always wondering what’s going on with my show and and the coaching business.

And I said right now for marketing purposes, more than anything in a way to use the things I’ve been trained in the most and in reality, I’m going after trauma survivors and helping them tell a story and build a small business around their story.

And this is rational, and it’s correct for how the Internet works for marketing purposes. And a lot of coaches would tell you, you know, you gotta focus on such things. You gotta make a clear statement as to what it is you’re all about.

And yeah, you you do but there’s a few things. I’m finding that 1 of my longtime coaches Jason Leister and 2 of my newer coaches, which is Dan Co and Justin c Scott and a few others. They don’t pin down shit.

They talk about their philosophies and how they wanna live their life. And then within their their podcasts and their websites, and their posts on LinkedIn, they may clear what it is they’re they help people do.

And really, it’s just they have their own way of helping people market themselves to the world and create a business off the back of that.

A brand you’re the brand. And I’ve been absorbing that thought, rehashing it, and kicking it around. You’re the brand. This is not my idea. I got this in particular from Dan Co and Justin c Scott.

III don’t know if Justin says it like that, but they’re buddies in real life and I think they became buddies after finding each other through their marketing efforts They just realized they resonated and they they teamed up.

This is a thing I want to have happen out of my podcast in my marketing. I wanna find other people that just wanna partner with me in some kind of way. Even if it’s just what do you call it? You know, like a mentors group.

I’m blanking on the word brain brain something storm something brainstorming You all sit around and help each other figure out problems to your to to your business and life needs because you, in general, agree with how each other things, even if you’re not doing the same exact thing.

Master Mind Group. Thank you. Master Mind Group. So I had to finish that. I wouldn’t have been able to sleep well tonight.

Part of what I’m doing is to just find my mastermind group. Now I found it quasi so by by talking about the guys I just did and what I learned from and how, but I’m not with these guys in real life.

1 day I might be. Who knows That’s not why I’m saying this. I’m just saying I want 1 of these groups even if it’s just a couple of people. I have something like it in at a lower level in my real life.

But it’s it’s not used for anything other than friendship which is great. But I, you know, I’m talking about going going at at scale building business and back to my friend. I told him because he’s fascinated by what I’m doing online.

He’s fascinated. And I said, you know, dude, I’m getting fucking sick and talking about trauma. I have to deal with it all day in my day job, and I’m I’m I’m fucking sick and tired of it.

I I want a a lighter day. I I know things won’t be trouble free. That’s life. Nothing’s fucking trouble free but I’m directly asking for traumatized people to be in my life, and dead is the opposite of who I want in my life.

I have nothing against traumatized people, and I’m they’re gonna come my way anyway. Particularly, I think, because my shows called bipolar Excellence. This draws a lot of bipolar flavored people my way. Now that’s fine.

And I and I don’t think I can at least not anytime soon get away from bipolar and my title because it is the it is the nexus point of my entire life. It it helps I prove all my other points within context of pre during and post bipolar.

I I don’t think I can get rid of it. And as bipolar people come my way, 1 of the cool things I am finding. This this this is new. I I know some of them know, but I don’t know if all of them do.

But, you know, I don’t I don’t talk about bipolar much anymore at at least as far as like fighting it and dealing with it because I don’t want to. I learned the hard way you draw unwell people who also have no money looking for help.

You can’t build a business off. It has nothing to do with me or them. It’s just not a good business model. And it’s not how I wanna live. I I don’t. I wanna be with champions who are trying to climb the mountain of success ever higher.

I don’t know how high III plan on taking this, but haven’t reached the point where it’s exhausted me yet. And it’s not even like to measure piles of money or anything.

It’s just the excitement of being on large extensive projects that are heading somewhere cool. With groups of fascinating people who just will will not cannot settle for an ordinary life.

That’s what I’m after. I have to have it. So just the other day, talking to my friend, I’m like, III think something just happened and talking to you. I I’m fucking done with with drawing trauma to me.

All they ever talk about is quitting a job I’m on so I can get the fuck away from it. And he actually said, yeah. Me too, man. I’m I’m tired of it. He goes, I want I wanna do something more positive with my life.

I’ll say 1 more time. This has nothing to do with the people who are feeling traumatized. Nothing. It’s just not how I wanna live and I need to make that clear in my marketing.

So recently, I just recently about 20 minutes ago, I finished the beginning of this this latest pivot and all I really did is on LinkedIn, I changed trauma survivors to the word outsiders.

That’s it. Outsideers, the world needs your story, create an online business to share it with others. And then in my about page on LinkedIn, which is linkedin dot com slash I n slash Ken Jensen.

My about page, I only had to change the top of it. I’m not gonna I’m not gonna bore you with a reading that. And change just change the the the the the opening and the and the list that fought follows right under that.

And looking at it, I really love it. It’s it’s what I’ve been doing even as I say I do other things. This list really nails who I’m looking to talk to and why, because I I’ve been doing it.

I just never fully focused on I didn’t focus correctly on this. And I’ve been trying to I’ve been trying to square peg into a round hole the the situation into this podcast.

And I I think I’ve done that well enough. People have responded well to that. They get it. But until just now I didn’t realize how how far off the mark I still was and it was really just by a demographic, a title, 1 word, trauma.

Not doing trauma anymore. If somebody comes my way that fits all the rest of my my needs as a coach and a business person and and it’s it’s based in trauma that’s different If it fits, let’s run with it.

It’s still interesting to me. But I’m not going to draw just that to me any longer.

I refuse And I gotta tell you, look at Anvil fell off my my back when I made this decision, and I thought hard about it. The the intro to the beginning of this podcast, it doesn’t change anything.

I had bipolar and I beat it, which is mind blowing enough for a lot for for, you know, a number of reasons. It’s the the biggest 1 being it’s technically impossible according to the powers that be. But then I say right after it.

That’s not even as part of my story because it’s not. There have been a lot of things happening to me in my my day to day life, my non coaching life where I’ve been picking up on how people respond to me and why.

And also how these people reference my bipolar past in relation to how I am now.

There’s something different going on that I dig. I’m I’m I’m getting perceived the way I want. Just in regular life when I’m not talking to anyone who might be a potential client or or who is an actual client.

And now it’s helping me reshape what I say online so that I can get the correct clients for how I wanna live my life This is all in an effort to make clear to you you need to do the same.

And if any of you have been awesome enough to follow along on this journey with me for any number of months or years.

You’ll know that this is something I’ve been fighting with forever. It’s it’s it’s like an eternal It’s an eternal and eternal battle that I’ve always been struggling with, but getting ever closer to the truth.

What it is in my heart that I wanna do with my life. And now with respect, to the nexus point that is bipolar for me.

Now I’m feeling comfortable. Another lesson to be pulled from this is so many coaches are gonna tell you so many things. And they’re all actually, they’re correct if they work for you. I’ve said that before.

There’s a lot of good coaches that say completely opposite things. I’ve had coaches that were in opposition to each other and I trusted both sides equally, powerfully. This is a thing you’re gonna run into. You probably already have.

And when I found the when I found Dan Co and and Justin c Scott and saw how they pitched their information and themselves and and how they made clear, I am the business, which is I I’ve known this and could not fucking clarify it to my satisfaction online.

Particularly because at my age, I’ve been trying to beat the internet so to speak for decades.

I’ve got too much training in me and, you know, it’s an old dog new tricks kind of thing except I am capable of learning new tricks just not easily if you’re younger.

If you’re listening to someone like me, be like, well, I haven’t lived as long as him and been through all the things and solved all the problems and learned all the shit he’s learned, You’re right, but you also have less to unlearn.

If you if you pay attention to what I’m doing as I go forward, if you follow the whole thing and see how it changes.

If you follow the people I mentioned, they’re all younger than me. This is something that’s been blowing my mind lately.

My my my longest running coach Jason Leister, he I always blank on a website name because he’s pivoted a number of times to growing ever larger and getting ever cooler and ever more purified in his message as well, which which is what I’m doing and in part have learned from him.

He’s at damn it. What do you call himself now?

Sovereign business dot org. I followed him from all the way back when his website was client sucked dot com. He was complaining about how I have all these shitty clients. And and over and and that’s where I felt I was at at that time.

I was sick of what was happening to me with the people I was drawing my way. What they were paying me to do. How little they were paying me how hard I was working and not getting appreciated for it and all this shit.

Eventually, Jason and I both evolved into something more more adult more mature. I’m more aware of your clients like all the life around you is a mirror of your thoughts.

You’re drawing things to you. You’re literally making the world come true the way you believe it ought to be. If you have shitty clients, it’s because you wanted that to be so.

You need to unknit within your heart and mind and soul why that is. So as I started saying, Jason’s like, I don’t know. He’s somewhere around, I think, 15 years younger than me.

10:10 at least. I think it’s a little more in 10. And he’s been helping me for years. I paid him more than anyone else for for actual coaching and his free his free newsletter on sovereign business dot org is something.

If you like me, you need to get him into your head. But again, he’s much younger than me and then I find these other guys on LinkedIn.

They’re far younger than me. I’ve already lived twice as long as them. And and of course, I do know shit as as much money as they’re making and as cool as the things they’ve done in their life.

I’ve done mind blowing shit and succeeded in areas they haven’t even experienced yet. That’s just living. That’s not a I’m better than them or they’re better than me.

But they are better than me in in that. They’ve arrived at some very powerful conclusions a whole lot quicker than I did. That is not something that I need to defend nor should you if you are in this same boat.

These things take what they take. If you should you work with me, it’s mandatory that you get your Colby index a index a, I think they call it report and also your human design chart red.

Those 2 things will explain clear, crystal clear. Why anything in your life has been hard for you as it’s been, and it’s different for everyone’s.

You cannot judge I can’t I can’t see myself as a failure for taking just living 50 years 54 years and and not making anywhere near the money.

These guys dead, I’m I’m coming to value so highly made. Back 1II was still fresh out of the marines decades ago.

It’s but I’m just saying it’s I am shocked. III kinda I can’t get around. I’m I’m shocked that there’s people out there far younger than me that that just they just figure shit out quicker.

But again, I I don’t berate myself. I’m I’m just I’m grateful that I found them. Those 2 guys in particular Dan and Justin because they have a way of speaking that resonates with me mightily. And again, they I’ve come full circle.

What do I wanna be when I grow up? And and it it just it just dawned on between that talk with my friend about being sick and drawn, traumatized people to me, which I was doing up until hours ago, on purpose.

And what these 2 gentlemen talk about with the brand is you. Just be you because no 1 else can be you. No 1 else has the skills and experiences that you have, not in the combination that you do.

Nor had the life that you had that leads to the leads that has led you to the conclusions you now have that help you peep help you to help people the way that you do or will.

I guess another lesson in there is just don’t don’t be down on wherever you’re at in this.

If you’re new based and and you’re you’re you’re thinking your age, you’re thinking lack of money, you’re thinking lack of of technical know how, Software know how. Every nothing matters, man.

You’re where you’re at. And if I’m in your ears, Hopefully for you, that’s the first step of it getting better. Maybe you’re or or I’m bolstering something that someone else that you’ve known for years has told you.

I put my spin on it, and it helps helps you make better sense of it. Dan and Justin, this just to stay with them. They don’t talk anything like I do.

Now I talk a certain way, and depending on the setting, my vocabulary can can get quite extreme. It runs very high. And Dan, at least, like, I’m I just read more of him so I and listened to more of him, but probably Justin too.

Yeah. Justin definitely. Yeah. I’m I’m I’m soaking in it now. Just just on the regular, they operated a much higher level vocabulary used than I do, but I understand it.

I just don’t use it the way they do. And and because they say things the way they do, They’re not even saying particularly except for the brand as you.

They’re not even saying a whole lot of shit I haven’t been saying for years, but they have a completely different way of saying it.

Any much more intricate and detailed way than I ever could, that helps me understand the shit I’ve already been saying. That’s kinda crazy. And I’m nothing but grateful that I found them.

I I hope that I’m that for some of you guys. That would be a nice thing to know. Right? What a nice way to wake up and not and I’ll live your day knowing that that’s happening in someone’s head.

Alright, guys. That’s long enough for been a long day, an interesting day. I did. I worked my brains out and moved my entire podcast over onto YouTube.

It’s it’s in a certain format now. You can go on YouTube and look up bipolar excellence. And eventually you’ll find it. And somebody’s been listening already. I don’t know who haven’t even until just now.

Haven’t even told anybody I’m over there. But there’s a lot more I have to do over there to make the the videos look nice and, you know, marketing and blah blah blah blah. I’m not gonna bother with right now.

I’m I’m focused now on getting into the Justin Welsh LinkedIn to 2 LinkedIn programs that I bought from him and and just doing what he says to do. But I established my presence in YouTube in a way that makes me very happy.

I understand how it works in a way I didn’t until a couple of days ago. I paid first software to get the ball rolling that I’m no longer gonna need now that I know what has to happen.

It’s it’s it’s not a big deal, but I had so much on my plate recently. I I needed something to help me get there. Now I’m there. I get that money back, and I’ll do a better job on what the software was doing for me anyway.

How funny is that? There was something else I did. 0II juiced up all the episode pages on bipolar excellence dot com. I I had I had to clean up a lot of shit.

And make some things clear to every single episode page, and it took multiple attempts as you get doing these things you get a part way in and realize something else then you gotta go back and redo the ones you just did and keep going, etcetera, etcetera.

So over the last 3 days, I had to work on the same 69 pages on my website a few hundred times. And I just sat and banged it out. It’s just drone work. It it’s not it’s not complicated at all.

You fall into a rhythm and you just do it and I I’ve so I’ve been soaking online in my website and YouTube and to a certain degree LinkedIn for the past, I don’t know, 4 days. And I am positively spent Pretty soon here no.

I lied. The podcast that I was a a guest on isn’t gonna be ready till about July. I was scheduled to be on another 1, but that gentleman had problems with something with his with his family and we had a postponed.

That’s common. And then there was very interesting woman I was supposed to interview today and somehow that didn’t come together either. I I got a bad feeling that might have been my fault because this part of my business.

It went fowlow. I was interviewing people around the time my dad died, and then I dismantled everything in that that very trying time. I had to rebuild it all, relearn it, add some new shit, and relearn that.

And I I got a bad feeling. I might have lost I’m gonna lost contact in the middle it at that in a way that might have been my fault. I have no idea, but and I’m not worried about it.

I don’t hang my hopes on any 1 thing happening. I just keep moving. I know that That person will get back to me. I’m not even worried about it. And I I’m very excited to share what she’s all about.

It’s it’s rather huge. That’s rather huge with a capital r. So I hope she still likes me and comes back. And whatever. Even if she doesn’t, like I said, I’m not holding still for any 1 person or event.

I’m just keeping moving and something’s been happening just very recent with my self solidity and my confidence and my clarity on all of this and it starting to feel really good long before the results, the things I’m doing are designed to bring are even here yet.

I’m starting to feel like a fucking I’m starting to feel like an active marine again doing the mission trained me to do in in which I am motherfucking unstoppable in true marine corps fashion.

I am feeling that way before the results I’m striving for are even anywhere close, and it feels fucking good.

Let me tell you. Alright. That’s an awesome note to end on. I appreciate each and every 1 of you that listens to these things and talks to me about it in real life.

If you love me back, go to apple podcast and give me a nice 5 star review, and go to bipolar excellence dot com, and get on my newsletter, and get that free wellness guide while that’s still a thing because I am gonna have to swap that out for something else that makes sense with my my new slightly alter path.

So grab that while it’s there. It’s very very powerful. It’s what saved my life. Alright. Be well, guys.


EPI 69: UFOs and Family Time

EPI-69: UFOs and Family Time

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May 22, 2023
My son Christian and I doing a bad impression of “The Thing With Two Heads” while at the Pine Bush UFO Museum in NY.

Christian and I did our best with our impression of “The Thing With Two Heads“, a classic 1972 schlock horror film.

We were trapped inside the alien abduction teleporter at the Pine Bush UFO Museum in Pine Bush, NY.

Just so you’re clear.

It was a much needed, long time coming, family day for my wife, son and I.

But first, just so you understand the importance of the abduction thing:

Building a project such as mine means sacrificing things like family time and a whole lot of other things, across years.

Nothing worth having comes easy.

I didn’t discuss this in the episode but “work/life balance” means one thing in the beginning and something else entirely as you near the next level.

You don’t want to perpetually remain in this sacrifice mode. You’re losing more than you gain if you do.

My goal is to create a life where I can’t tell if I’m playing or working.

THAT is my definition of “work/life balance”.

Someone who’s committed to living the same way was waiting for me where the abduction pic took place.

And we had a great talk after the tour that led to this:

The Pine Bush UFO Museum owner, Lance Hallowell has tentatively agreed to be on the podcast soon!

He intrigued the hell out of me!

He’s going to bring a nice “out of left field” touch to the podcast and site.

I have many thoughts on why I want to interview him. But I’ll hold off until we actually do it.

Lance is someone who’s chased down a truly unique dream, with substantial hurdles the likes of which, most of us never even have to consider.

And he’s a showman.

It’s gonna be a fun talk.

And people like him are a huge part of why I created Bipolar Excellence!

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Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve up in my life so you can do the same. Hey, this is Ken and you’re listening to episode 69 UFOs and family time.

I wasn’t sure how far how much I wanted to say about what took place this weekend. It was very cool. But I ended up at the Pine Bush UFO Museum in Upstate, New York.

I have a friend who works with me at my day job who’s getting she’s worked there for I don’t know how long and she’s getting ready to quit that job to put a little little hair into her life.

She’s been working 7 days a week for quite some time and She wanted my family to see her, come see the museum and see her while she was still an employee.

She’s really cool. How you doing, Anna? And the museum was a trip. And and the guy Lance Hollowell, who gave the tour to museum owner.

He was a trip. Lance has at least agreed tentatively to be a guest on the show. He’s interested. I have his number. There’s a huge UFO event coming up, then Pinebush here just in a couple of weeks.

In June 20 23, it’s gonna be a thing like they do out at, what do you call it, Roswell. People will come up dressed as aliens and all kinds stuff and I think it spreads out through the town.

It looks pretty cool. I’m gonna try and go catch that event as well. I’m not at a an enthusiast in a direct sense, but it’s an interesting topic. I’ve watched a lot of videos. I’ve watched a lot of documentaries.

I caught the what do you call it? When Bob Lazar, I think his name was his was on Joe Hogan. That was pretty fascinating. And I remember I remember a couple years back that there was some guy that was writing a book about Bob Lazar.

That Joe Hogan interviewed, and that was an incredible talk as well. I’m not saying anything either way. I am willing to stay going on now going on out in the world that we can’t we can’t understand.

We can’t make sense of. And I don’t think it’s good to just dismiss things out of hand. But this episode you know, stay loose. Keep your mind open.

This episode is more about as cool as that was. I got a chance to spend some time with my family. In this case, it was my son and my wife. We’ve all we all work. We work different shifts. Everybody’s embedded at a different time.

Everybody’s awake at a different time. We’re all pushing hard to push my dream forward, and my son does pretty cool stuff all all on his own. And it’s been a joy to watch him just become a young man.

He’s he’s 21 now. He hate that I’m even saying these words, but He’s a good kid. I could carry on quite a bit about him because he’s also a cool person. That had been my 1 requirement of him since he was in the womb.

I used to scream into my wife’s belly, you better come out interesting. And damn, Danny, exactly what he did. I got fortunate. I worked at it. I worked at it. I shaped him, obviously.

But I let my kid become whatever he wanted, and put my most important principles in them which which was to be to be a great conversationalist, to be kind to people, to to work hard intelligently to always grow and to 1 day build something that is yours where you don’t answer to anybody.

You direct your own destiny because you’re in charge of all of it. I’ve been teaching him all that stuff which is all, you know, things that I talk about on this show to you guys.

And he so far has embodied all of them, and I know he’s quietly working on that last thing. I I don’t know what he’s going to come 1 day as an owner.

I don’t know what he’ll create, but he blows my mind with his capabilities, his maturity, his wisdom beyond years. And he’s also a young guy and he screws around me in that fashion, and I just have a really good time talking with him.

I know a lot of parents don’t don’t always get that They don’t always get that with their kids and I feel bad for them.

My kid, I I just like hearing what he has to say as a person and he can make me laugh. For that matter, I do the same to my mom, and she has COPD, and I have to be careful because I’ll get her laughing so hard.

She’s my best audience. And we’re we’re adults now. I’m I’m almost 55. She’s, I think, 75. So we’re free to curse and talk about sex and all kinds of things now.

We we have some pretty good laugh fest together. So there you go, more family. The reason I’m bringing this up is I’ve been working so hard on all of this because I have to.

I it’s it’s the only way I can completely free my wife and I from employment, my kid’s on his own doing whatever he wants, and that’s great. But I want to free us. I am I am freeing us from the yoke of being waged slaves.

I’ve I’ve loathed it my entire working life since, like, probably 11 And I although I’ve learned valuable lessons and you gotta work until you don’t have to, I’ve hated it with a passion my entire adult life, it’s for many reasons, but basically I feel like a slave.

I feel trapped. There’s never enough money.

There’s there’s limitations. Across the board, just limitations and lack. Now that has been turning around for me because everything I teach on this show, I’ve been doing and the situation is improving rapidly.

And I realized a couple of years ago that that was gonna be the case. And I stopped worrying about it even though I was frustrated that the tangible results weren’t appearing just yet.

But I learned enough about everything I share that I my confidence came way up my clarity came way up. My certainty that I was on the right path has has cemented. And I know what I’m doing and why and how it’s gonna go.

And I have I am about to turn on the the greatest part of the marketing machine that will bring more of the people to me that I need to come my way so I can both build what I want.

And help them build what they want because I also want to live vicariously through their projects, meaning your projects.

It thrills me to no end to be behind the scenes as somebody takes something pro that means the world to them and they’ve overcome all kinds of hurdles and self doubt and and lack and through ingenuity and grit and a network of good people and on and on they they make their baby become something that the world 1 day finds out about.

That is the that’s my most favorite story to tell. My own and and those the stories of those who have helped do the same. The it’s it’s a rather selfish part of why I built bipolar excellence dot com.

I I need need to be in the lives of people living as such. Another cool thing happened, I was talking to another young guy, and in this case, like, probably like 30.

And I’m I’m not gonna get in all the details. Another co worker who really caught my interest, and I’ve been trying to to get into an in-depth conversation with him.

And I found a way to do it because we’re all busy. We just we pass, you know, we pass and keep pass each other in the hallways and keep running because we’re very busy helping helping these people that need us badly.

And I finally got a chance to talk to him. We were good, but I just couldn’t get any in-depth talk because Well now I’m repeating myself.

So I finally got a chance to talk to him and I wanna say too much about what God said, but 1 cool thing was I told him, this is the best job I’ve ever had in my life for every reason possible.

Hands down and I hate coming to it every single fucking day and he yells at me. Thank you. We love what we do, but it’s not the thing we love most, and it doesn’t pay what we need. That’s simple. We’re good at it. He’s good at it.

I’m good at it. And I’m just glad I crossed paths with him, and we got talking about some more some more serious issues and aligned with in alignment with what this show is about, what my life is about, We didn’t make any plans.

He just helped me he just helped me he helped confirm confirm some things I already knew about my self and 1 of which and this is very critical critically important to me, and it will be to some some of you out there.

I a quick backstory, some of you, if if you’re listening along, you’ve heard about the young man I helped turned into a professional documentary filmmaker.

That is a really fascinating story how that came to being at work even better than I realized somebody had to tell me years later just how well that plan worked.

I didn’t know. I was just glad the kid was making it. And we we’ve been friends for, I don’t know now. I don’t know, 15 years, something like that.

And I was just really happy for him and we’ve crossed paths a few times since, but other than that not not much. Well, because he was in the movies, I realized some time ago, I I love movies more deeply than I even knew.

Meaning, 1 1 of the 1 of the things that made me realize it was I started falling in love with reading the credits at the end of the movie.

I was blown away when it really dawned on me how many people it takes to bring you like a 2 hour blockbuster or even an hour and 20 minute film. It’s it’s sometimes thousands of people and it’s tens and tens of thousands of man hours.

And the project itself could have taken many years to complete from start to finish. Multiple companies are involved. It’s it’s things are global. It’s it’s impressive.

When we sit and blow through movies like pringles potato chips on Netflix or Amazon or HBO, you you really have no concept of what just got handed to you. I mean, in 1 way you shouldn’t, you just wanna watch the movie and whatnot.

Only us only us what do they call us? Video files or something that would really get into this like I’m saying. But for any of you out there building something, you know, it takes a lot of effort, it takes a lot of money sometimes.

And it takes a lot of help, takes a lot of people, takes a lot of planning, takes a lot of patience, and nothing sows up that reality quite quite as well as reading the credits at the end of a movie.

So 1 day it dawned on me. I would really like to know exactly what the hell those credits mean. There’s some crazy terms in there. And I wanted to know officially how a movie got made.

I used to be part of a media facility where I got to see commercials being made. Music videos being made and I was I was privy to various parts of the process but never an entire movie.

I even had a producer friend who was crazy. He man he was nuts. He was fun. Holy shit was he fun. This guy just made small movies for a living, and that was it. And I was like, how the fuck do you get to wear it at your life?

I didn’t realize how that pertains to what I’m saying until just now. So I actually put on a mini film festival with that guy. He co hosted it with me and we showed some of the films he’d produced and some other things that came on.

Came out at that time and and we had a we had a theater full of people and it was a blast. I’d never done something like that before or since. It was just fun.

And So I bought a book that that described, defined, all the things that are in a movie, the the the titles, how the creation of a movie takes place, what the day sheet looks like, what the dailies are, you know, the business of making a movie, not just the artistic side, not even just the technical side, but the business of it and the administrative side of it.

And then I got excited. It was so many things to pick from.

And at that time that I bought that book, which was, I don’t know, I don’t know, 6 years ago, something like that. I was hoping to find my my next career path in the movies. I knew I didn’t wanna act. I’m funny in the right situation.

I’ll give you a heart attack with laughter. But I’m situational. I’m not a stand up comic. I didn’t wanna do that anyway. And so here I am looking through this book about things you can be in a movie. I didn’t wanna be the crew.

I didn’t wanna build anything and I didn’t wanna run cable. I’d I’d done that on some of the video things I’d been part of running cable and unpacking and packing crew or, you know, you’re like a roadie in that respect.

Interesting and fun, but not, you know, not a career that I wanted to develop.

And I read the whole book and by the time it was done, I had gotten almost completely finished with it and there was nothing in there that I wanted to do forever or the things that were close to what I might wanna do, they were just regular jobs and weren’t gonna pay me what I to live the life I wanted, and I started getting depressed before I even finished the book because I felt so strongly about being part of a movie.

Then came the section on what a producer does. Now I don’t remember the details, but it became clear that there are being a producer can mean many things.

You get the plan together, you get the people together, you find the funding, you can help motivate the crew or, you know, you’re you’re you’re kind of swimming between it all, keeping the thing going.

And and you you might have just 1 part to play. You might have many. You either find the money or you have the money in which in which case you are, like, completely in charge, really, it’s your money. That really spoke to me.

All of that. This brings us back around to my talk to my young friend at my job. And when I told him I said he’s into music but he also used to help make student films in college if I under if if I understand him.

And he knew a lot about making movies as well, and he wanted to get back to that even though music, I believe, is his true passion. And I told him just just the basic.

I wanna be a producer and he blew up. He’s like, yes, fuck, gosh. That is exactly what you are, and he named some famous producer names from the music world that I’m familiar with only because they’re famous.

I’m I’m I’m not that deep into music in in that way. When I am into the stories of people who have done interesting things like some of the producers he mentioned, and he’s rattled out all these names.

He’s like, you’re exactly like them. You’re that kind of a person. It’s what you do with this job, just just just floating around in your day.

He’s like, holy shit. Yes. You’re a producer. I was like fuck. Alright? That’s the kind of confirmation a guy wants to hear about when he’s pitching his his life slash career plan.

I knew it anyway, but it was really cool to hear this guy explode over the fact that that’s what I was pretty sure I need to be.

So there’s this podcast. There’s bipolar excellence dot com. There’s courses I sell. On on the on the website there’s coaching I offer. These things will stay in place because you need multiple streams of income.

That’s something I’ve never talked about on this show. You don’t want all your eggs in 1 basket. You wanna you want a few different things cooking along in case 1 of them takes a hit unexpectedly.

You still got 2 or 3 motor and along in the back and while you repair the 1 it just blew up or or maybe you gotta build something completely new for whatever reason. You want multiple streams of income.

So everything I have running now is going to stay running or it will run I have some version of it running, but ultimately what I’m looking to to become is a producer where And and I would I would imagine at this point it it can fit into so many different careers, but movies really do sing to my soul.

Speak to my soul, make my soul sing. There you go. And I don’t know what this is gonna look like. But I know I’m gonna make it happen.

And I feel even I feel even more more confident it can happen that it can happen because when you look at the credits, my god. There’s so many producers producers, executive producers, co executive assistant.

They just goes on and on and on. There are so many ways you can take part in a project. And as I’ve been saying, the biggest thing that drives me through all of this is being part of a project.

So I don’t know how big I can take that. I know I wanna take it as big as I can. If I’m enjoying myself, I will just continue if if there’s a limit that I don’t wanna cross because it cuts in how I wanna live my life.

We’ll deal with that when it comes, but I want in at that level and that’s where that’s what everything I’m doing with you guys and on the website, that’s what’s leading to.

Even these things are just stepping stones to something something larger.

If you’re out there trying to put a dream together and you haven’t even gotten to point of of creating what I’ve created, take heart because because now with AI and in other technology that was already happening on the Internet, it just keeps evolving so fast.

You already can make things like what I’ve made this this this digital empire of mine.

You can make them easier than I made At this point, I I run everything on WordPress, and WordPress works with I don’t even know blocks and shit where you can just, like, pick and and click and a thing happens, and I couldn’t get used to it and it frustrated the shit out of me because I got like 15 years of of using WordPress the way it was initially designed.

And thank God they made a plug in that allows you to keep your your website in the background running in the old fashioned way.

I’m not even bothering to learn the new way. The the other 2 websites I run which is family network chiropractic dot com. And what do we call that?

Peace work outreach dot com. Those are for 2 dear friends of mine and I run their stuff on website the same exact way because I told him I will take care of you guys until Well, period. I’ll take care of you guys period.

No matter what happens, your sites are gonna running. If you don’t need them 1 day, great. It’s over. But as long as you need them, I’ll keep them running. And I help them in in different ways with that.

But I’m not going to build any more websites and if I do it’s gonna be with the new technology like I used with a with another a client actually where we fed in some keywords and hit a button and AI crapped out on 1 page website in 30 seconds while we watched.

Then I spent the next 20 minutes or 30 minutes tweaking it and it basically was a 1 sheeter that had everything he needed on it to do business.

Like that. Things change, things improve, you don’t know how to you don’t need to know all the stuff I’ve been forced to learn.

And if you’re into the coding and the tech, you can still take it to the level I’ve taken it where you’ll have granular control over absolutely everything.

A piece of me needed to know I can have granular control. So that I can rest at night. Having things just the way I want them. A little bit of a perfectionism there but it is what it is.

So having said all that I’ve said, this has been my life and my mind for many years and and finding ways to just spend time with the family has always been hard and we usually couldn’t even afford it.

If we did spend time together, that just meant a movie at home. That’s all we had.

Or we might go out for a meal because we had a lot of lean years. So let that give you heart as well. Things have gotten remarkably better for me in that area and in all areas of my life, everything I’m trying to build and building.

Everything I am building There’s activity happening the lights of which I only used to dream about. It’s happening before my eyes. You’re hearing some of it. That’s not easy to even share all of it, but I’ll find ways to do it as I go.

And Just hang in there and keep going, guys. Don’t give up because if you give up, you give up. The only common denominator between all successful people is they kept going. They never quit.

You don’t have a choice. What are you gonna do? Go back to a life of quiet desperation. You can’t. If you’re listening to me, there’s already a piece of you. I’m sure that can’t accept that. You’re you’re gonna at least die trying.

And that in itself is even admirable because at least at least your you’re not living in ignorance and and you haven’t killed your spirit by giving up because I believe although it would be much better to finally succeed Even if you just keep trying, it means something.

Even if it doesn’t bring you happiness, it means something to somebody who’s watching It’s a form of motivation for people around you.

You never know who cares who who you never know who you care about, who’s watching you and just so proud that you keep going.

It could easily go the other way I know. And I wonder why you don’t just give up on a thing that doesn’t work. But then that’s where you find someone like me or the people the other coaches I talk about.

There is such a thing as trying too hard on something for too long when you shoulda you shoulda pivoted somewhere. That is a tricky dance to figure out when that moment hits. I’ve spoken about it in 1 of these episodes before.

It is very frustrating. But you’ll know when you know, you’ll see something somewhere as long as you as long as you maintain an open state of mind then try to stay loose, not too rigid in your views.

And when you hear something that sort of bumps into like maybe I need to change, you’ll know it when you hear it and that is That is 1 of the shittiest pieces of of advice that is absolutely correct, and there’s nothing you can do about it.

You’re gonna know what you need to know whenever it hits, And in some cases, it’s gonna be way longer than you would like for it to be because that’s what it takes for you to grow into the person to make use of the notification when it finally does arrive.

It takes how long it takes however long. Just don’t quit Alright, guys. Go to bipolar excellence dot com. Sign up for my newsletter. Get that free wellness course while that’s still a thing.

This ain’t some marketing shit. The only reason I put that there was it was the only well formed product I had to give away, and I I didn’t have the patience or the time to build something new.

And it fits with what I’m offering. So at some point, that’s gonna that’s gonna go away. It’ll just go for sale with everything else. And when I got a when I got a minute to address it.

So right now just go grab the thing. It’s a whole damn course. I use it to beat bipolar without drugs. After using drugs for 8 years and getting nothing but destroyed for the effort. It’s powerful shit. It saved my life.

It’s changed other people’s lives and saved lives. I don’t know if it will for you. I can’t make that statement. I just know everything in it is good and helpful. And if you do something in it, your life will get some kind of better.

Go grab that by getting onto my newsletter list. And then we’ll be in touch and you’ll be able to follow my journey a little closer and at some point I’ll have because I will.

I’m gonna offer people on the newsletter, things that I’m I’m not gonna offer to people that have not signed up.

That’s a thing in business that you do. As a way of rewarding those that take, you know, that little bit of extra step with you.

And I’m really looking forward to seeing what I’ll build to meet that need and find the people that really resonate with me because that’s the other reason you do it.

You’re looking for the people that exactly resonate with you so that you can 1 day work together and have a good time and make a pile of cash doing so.

You sometimes can become lifelong friends if if nothing else Everything is just better and the way you always wished it could have been.

That’s all that everything I’m doing is built to do. I will teach you how to do the same. Alright, guys. Be well.


EPI 65: Salt’s Not Working, Try Pepper

EPI-65: Salt’s Not Working, Try Pepper

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April 23, 2023


So, my first attempt at recording today’s episode went somewhere far too dark for most people’s taste, I feared.

Scrapped that and began anew.

Too bad. Hilarious story. To me. And the people involved that night.

Anyway, I was just giving context to the experience of overwhelm

You’ll find as you go down this entrepreneurial, entertainment-focused, story-based, business building road, that overwhelm will be your almost constant unwanted companion.

The quicker you realize this, recognize it and adapt to it, the quicker you’ll start living the life of your dreams.

Seems that even though we’re all here, trying to do right by the world, the world is going to make us earn our piece, nonetheless.

And because we’ve stepped outside the bounds of normalcy, we’re going to pay a higher price than the rest who play along, according to societal rules.

We pay that price because:

  • We’re soup stirrers.
  • We’re agitators.
  • We can’t keep quiet.
  • We can’t always “go along to get along.”
  • We have to honor the part of us that will never fit in.
  • We have to honor the value that came from surviving the thing that brought us all here.
  • We have to give the help we so fiercely wished someone would have given us.
  • We have to be cool with a sometimes inordinate amount of suffering, as we build the thing no one else can.

But we will not suffer constantly

And when we win, our wins will be vastly larger than the wins of the common man; the one who’s content to toe the line, do the minimal, never stray from the safety of the herd, never let his light shine, for fear of making others uncomfortable.

We are going to be overwhelmed. And we will like it.

Because overwhelm can sometimes be the sign of a life well lived.

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Hey, this is Ken Jensen.

I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion, back in the mid 2 thousands.

And believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of process, was mind blowing to say the least.

Bipolar has hidden within it strengths.

I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve shown up in my life so you can do the same.

This is episode 65 : “Salt’s not working. Try pepper.”

Funny backstory to the story, I was just telling 10 minutes ago before I erased it.

There is a story of supreme violence that took place in my past on a job where I was essentially a bouncer.

They called me a security guard but I was essentially a bouncer in an emergency room and sometimes their lockdown psych ward.

As I got telling a story which cracks me up to no end, I realized I don’t know where to store share a lot of my stories.

It’s too much. It’s it was too hyper violent and it it proved a point I was trying to make and and there was some very dark comedy mixed in with it.

but it as I got deeper into it, I was like, I don’t I don’t know if this is gonna fly.

I think my more stalwart fans would get a kick out of it, but jeez.

We did some things on that job to protect people that were just they were just out of hand and the fights I got in were out of hand and my life was threatened routinely.

And I didn’t care because that’s where I was at when I had that job and I was better at it than I ever realized I could be.

When I took it I didn’t know if I could do well and I was kind of freaked out and it turned out I was really good at it. I was really good at the violence part.

And damn it, that was a great story and it tied together a lot of the rest of the shit I was gonna talk about, but it just, I don’t know that this would have been the the place to share it.

Anyway, the theme for this whole episode was was one of overwhelm, both good and bad. And even though I can’t tell that story it was an overwhelming amount of violence. It was…everything about that night was overwhelming.

I’ll just say this much. 5 state troopers, each of them larger than me, brought in 1 guy, and it was clear they’d been working quote, unquote, working a while with this guy.

And when they left him with me, I’d been doing a job quite a while at that point. I was I was good at it. There was there wasn’t there wasn’t anything I couldn’t handle.

They were afraid to leave him alone with just me because it was just me. I had a team but they worked the whole rest of the hospital. I worked by myself in the emergency room.

And I was like, no, I got him. And then I did, but we got into it about an hour later, and it was it was epic.

It was epic, and he hurt me. He hurt me real bad. But I won.

And and there was a beautiful segue into the point of what happened that night to what I wanted to say next, and it’s just…the details of the fight and some other things that happened. It it’s just too much.

I don’t feel comfortable sharing in public even though I love telling the story.

So overwhelm.

The latest, overwhelm.

Why am I bringing this up?

My god. That’s that’s gonna be more likely. That’s gonna be your flavor du jour, as you do any of this stuff that I will help you develop and build and grow.

Overall is gonna be a constant companion.

Now let me tie that into my very recent past and why you haven’t heard from me for 2 episodes, 2 weeks.

I didn’t think I’d ever crap out and and not…and miss an episode and I I missed 2 in a row on purpose because I I’ve been spent

I’ve been spent because there’s a

Most of it’s good.

Right now, we found out my mom cashed in her nest egg to pay for her her bathroom rebuild and and and another part of the house needed to be rebuilt and they had to be.

And then in the process, we find out the entire roof is shot and needs to be replaced and she got a massive what do you call it?

A quote. It was it was it was too high to begin with. But she she told me the the next day, it put her in shock.

And the next day, she told me she felt as bad as she did the day Dad died. Just getting this quote after spending

all the thousands tens of thousands she just spent that were supposed to protect her for her future.

So I was trying to tell her I’ll come up with something because that’s what I do. Come up with something. I only get better at it the older I get. I might not get everything I want out of life yet.

Yet.

But I do know how to keep the show moving for myself and others when it’s critical.

And now it was critical.

I knew the roof the roof wasn’t gonna drop in at any time. It wasn’t that bad. It ain’t a shanty. It looks fine from the outside.

It’s just…it’s hurting to a high degree and weeds you don’t see all over the place. It’s a rather large roof and so, anyway, what ended up happening and and and this will take really too long to share all the details.

There’s so many points to be made in what I’m about to say next that I could just keep doing more episodes just just out of pieces of this story but…

I wasn’t sure quite where to go just yet. But I thought maybe we’d need… maybe there’d be a government program for widows.

My my dad did 21 years in army reserves and I figured, you know, there might be something for family of a retired veteran.

I actually knew there wasn’t, because in my past in my effort to survive as a veteran as a Marine Corps, Gulf War veteran, I have ripped apart the VA system, ad nauseam just looking for anything to help me going back to 20 plus years, probably 30.

And I made the call anyway because I’m like, well, vets are vets. Maybe they know something. I know they got no program for me, which they confirmed. They were they had nothing through the government through their official capacity as this agency, they had nothing.

But they said we have a list of private business owners and others who like to help vets. They’re all local and we’ll put the word out to that to that list, see what happens.

Well, everything happened.

Within 24 hours, my phone exploded, my email exploded, and it’s continued on like that. And what’s what’s tapping now is

The roofs the roof is gonna get done by a contractor who slashed price in half and is working at cost and this this gentleman’s actually even donating cash to his own cause. I don’t even know how that works.

A lot of good people stepped up. My all all off the back of not just helping my mom, but my dad left a legacy

My dad was 1 of the most helpingest people

and kindest

that you could ever possibly have met.

He helped as we learned at his funeral hundreds and hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of people I am not exaggerating

I’m not trying to fluff out the point. It was staggering how many people

how many lives we found out he changed, how many families he saved from the brink of whatever.

And he just did all this stuff in the background. We knew he was doing it. We just didn’t know he was doing it as much as he was doing it. Nor do I know when he even had time to do it.

All these people

wanted to help wanted to help my dad because all these people

like me and my immediate family

are crushed

that my dad is gone.

I said before back in last August when he died. He left a hole in the world.

So

these people all wanna help and so they are. I got agencies calling me and and charities. I’m I’m meeting heads of government agencies and veteran agencies.

I never even heard of.

It’s been quite incredible.

We set up a go fund me page, and I’m gonna tell you right now, Go to go fund me dot com and just punch in Kenneth Jensen.

You’ll see me with my baby beard

arm an arm around my dad’s shoulder. You’ll know it when you see Do what you can. I appreciate you at least poking your nose in and looking.

Nothing’s mandatory. You’re still all my people.

And

the the go fund me is taken off nicely and a lot of other things are growing in the in the background to to help fund the roof.

And there’s other things the house needs. We just picked the roof because it had to be done.

There’s more.

And

it’s looking like

if this goes well,

I think pretty much everything’s gonna get taken care of. We’re not there yet, but it it’s looking really good. My mom

is overwhelmed

by this kind of love and attention.

She she’s fighting hard to accept it.

We all are to a degree but it’s really hard for her. My mom’s a caregiver. She she doesn’t receive it well. And and she just doesn’t know to do it all the emotion and the energy even though it’s all positive.

And she doesn’t feel like she deserves it and we keep telling her it not only does she deserve it because on her end,

she kept me and my dad going. My dad was not always a saint.

There was a growth period in his twenties and probably bit into his thirties

where he needed to do better in life and she she, you know, lived through that and

and then supported all these really cool things he did for decades later. She she did a lot of things at his side

where

he needed to represent.

And then there’s me.

My dad didn’t even come close even though he did a good job.

He did a good job with the fuckery in the lunacy when he was younger.

But he didn’t take it to the Heights

in the poignancy

that I did,

mom helped, you know, she had to deal with that and then save me from it.

And and she also was a big support

for the whole veteran aspect of my life and still is.

There’s things as a vet

that affect you forever.

And I don’t just mean like PTSD and stuff. Just it’s just

I don’t know. You’re not you anymore.

You’re a veteran you and

it matters.

And my mom’s always back that fully.

So we’ve been helping,

mom, myself, in particular, helping her really

really hard to just accept the kindness and the love from the world and she’s getting better at it.

Then there’s the work on her home that was already going on and the work that’s gonna happen is just, you know, you can’t sleep right and there’s always something going on and, you know, our

her world got turned turned upside down for a while. Again, all for good reasons, but you break the routine. She’s 75.

Any of us will get fatigued from that but she’s you know she needs her routine.

We’re getting back to it even as we do all this stuff

then for then for me in my personal life, I got things going on that that turned a little sideways that I wasn’t sure how it handled. I’ve I’ve handled them as well as I could up to this point. Things look good.

But

It’s it’s it’s stressful.

It’s stressful. And if I didn’t know everything I knew that I can help

know that I can share with you guys and help you you know, maneuver and navigate your issues. If I’d had learned all I’d learned, I wouldn’t be dealing with this thing even as well as I have. My my my training, particularly in the last few years, has definitely come to come into play.

My work life has

at my day job,

which directly impacts how well I do this with you guys for the better.

That has gone kind of wild and I have some of my clients that are in the middle of explosive growth

all directed by me

I’ve I’ve I’ve created some things to where they’ve gotta keep up with me, and I gotta keep up with them.

And the odd thing about the job I do is even when it’s going great which it usually is either okay or great. There’s not too too much really hairy negative although it can hit.

It’s draining because you got to be present and I mean fully present and to be fully present all day long is exhausting.

I didn’t know that until I had to do it like this. And it’s not exactly where I belong. It it there’s a therapeutic

angle to it, whereas I’m a coach.

I can be fully ex fully focused, fully present with someone. But if I’m rallying them on to get them up the rest of the way that hill,

that’s exciting to me. That fuels me.

This even though I enjoy it and I’m more than happy to help these people and I like all my people,

it drains me

because it’s just not it’s not It’s not a correct fit. It’s a similar.

It’s similar but it’s not a correct fit.

But anyway, as you all know, I’m bringing out to a closed as soon as possible anyway and it’s it’s gonna be fairly soon. Things are working out well.

So I’m dealing with that.

There are people I don’t wanna I don’t wanna get too close to the truth and, like, put anybody out. There’s other people in my life that are going through stuff.

And I’m trying to help them too personally

and they’re up against some pretty solid problems and I care about them deeply

and I’m doing everything I can to help them and of course I would.

But you know,

I’ve been piled upon lately. This is not a bitch or grip a complaint of moaning what was me. It’s just not it’s just life

Lot of shit all came at me at once and then that’s why I disappeared for the last 2 episodes.

Going forward, I’d always thought of this. I just never got around to it.

I’ll have some

I’ll have some evergreen content that no matter when you hear it, it’s not it’s not bound to current events in any way. It’ll just be helped stuff. I’m gonna record a pilot o’s

and preset them to when I know that I’m not gonna make an episode.

I’ll be able to slide those in by just editing in the episode number, and then you guys won’t be left hanging, and it’ll be good shit.

I do my best to make sure I keep giving you good shit.

And then I had in my notes here.

I’ve been learning a lot lately.

I’ve been learning a lot.

I’m tearing through a lot of what Dan Cole creates.

There’s a a man named Justin c got that just released a long form newsletter. He just sent it to me. He’s a friend of Danko’s. They’re very similar people.

And Justin wrote something that like sung to me at on every paragraph

and he said things that were so important to me And it’s all stuff I say to you, but we’re different people.

It his stuff was

more highly detailed, more formatted,

more clearly laid out and it was massive in scope, all in 1 newsletter and I just felt like my life changed reading it. So if you find Justin c Scott,

that’s 1 of the guys that shaped how I’m moving forward.

There’s there’s Jason Leister

Jason’s my oldest mentor.

He’s younger than me by more than 10 years,

but I’ve been following him the longest and he

he has changed my life more than once. I’m spitting these names out because

all of them are doing things lately that are

I’m getting pretty revved up just seeing what my guys are doing and figuring out how to put it into what I’m doing.

And

I hope you’ll do the same with me. What I’m about to say next, you soak in somebody’s words

their messages in whatever fashion long enough

you eventually start putting together putting the pieces together in a way, you will not even if you’re really good at it. It it keeps the same information

as you grow, takes on new meaning.

And and I’ve been in a sort of a

like a a learning

patch. That’s that’s just

I can almost taste it. It’s like I feel myself getting

smarter,

more knowledgeable.

It’s exciting.

So again, a lot going on in my head. In connection with that,

there is a woman named Amanda Horvath.

She does YouTube videos.

I have a YouTube channel fully built with no no videos in it yet. I plan on releasing like short

short material in there. Who the hell knows? It’ll start short just like it start filling it up and then I’m gonna go long form at some point and then podcast, there will be a video component in there.

That’s totally gonna happen. Whenever how I can grow 2 heads and 4 more sets of arms and pull it all off in the midst of else I’m trying to do but it’s gonna happen.

Reason to bring up Amanda,

she just went through something recently and I only found her recently But I dig her energy and what she’s all about.

She’s focused massively on

creating videos properly for for YouTube for for business purposes and for life fulfillment purposes.

And another cool thing is she’s big on human design which I’m gonna make mandatory

and and what I’m doing. Now that I heard her say it, I’m like, yeah, I’m doing that because I I wanna do anyway, but I was I was I

was leading I was I was what’s the word?

I was putting it fourth as an option. It’s gonna be mandatory. Now if you work with me, you’re gonna have to do your human design report as well as your Colby a index a

Those 2 things will clarify who you are to you like no other 2 things in the world ever can, and that would do the same for me so I can help you properly.

They changed my life. And Amanda’s big on human design and she makes all her clients even though they’re coming to her for video production help. They use it as well.

It matters once we know why we are like we are and how we’re gonna operate,

that will change the advice

we coaches give because of course

this way we don’t have to fight upstream.

This way we don’t pick things that we know at work but are impossible for you.

And we need to know more about you to do it right. So Amanda does that which I found cool and also she very recently went to a thing where

If I got this right, she she kinda burned out on just talking about YouTube and wanted to dress more her life.

And she felt like maybe she’d be doing her audience a disservice

and, you know, because they’re coming to her for YouTube stuff.

Now I’ve had these thoughts in the past with what I do. Not exactly that. Not exactly the same as that. But I didn’t struggle with it like she just is now. I’ve just ran with it. I’ve been doing that for years

on any podcast I have just being the third.

And

I just go. She’s just reached that point where she’s gonna just go and just say whatever her guts telling her to say however the spirit moves her sort of thing wherever the muse takes her

I do that anyway because I can’t take structure.

I put it in play where necessary

as as a, you know, I don’t know, guidelines, but after that I I just I just I just run whatever whatever my gut tells me from there.

So she just hit that point and she’s like, she was terrified and then a whole bunch of us wrote in nice things to tell her, no, this is cool. Go for it. And now she’s decided to go for it.

She said

maybe 1 day she and I do a video together, which I’m I told her I’d be more willing too, and I I hope 1 day she reaches out and we do that.

But

it was nice to see somebody

go through that. Something I struggled with some time ago and at different times I struggle with it and and just getting clear on what it is I wanna share, sort of like what I open this episode with Dean Sandity of my former violent life.

It would have proved a good point but it might have been a bit bit overkill in the proving

So

I think that was about all I had. I just want to share those things and then just just

reiterate.

You’re gonna fit you’re gonna get faced with overwhelm.

If you

slowly, carefully, sanely build the right systems eventually your systems will take care of quite a bit of that overwhelm. You’re gonna be overwhelmed while you’re building the systems.

But as you get through them in whatever way it makes sense, they will start pulling their own load. And then at least for a while, you won’t have the over overwhelm.

The funny thing is is once they do well enough,

more work’s gonna happen, more ideas are gonna occur to you and you’re gonna you’re gonna jump into some overwhelm again anyway, because now you can.

You wanna experiment, you wanna split away from things, you wanna do other things in in

in conjunction

with the current things and, you know,

it’s a roller coaster. It’s on and off but

get get yourself ready

for it.

Be ready to deal with it and know that you can manage it that you will get through it, and you must because it’s the only way people like us eventually get our story in front of the right people.

And get rewarded with the kind of life we actually wanna have.

And as I say on my home page on bipolar excellence dot com,

Right now something is happening in the world where

it’s it’s it’s the easiest it’s ever gonna get I think to put your message out into the world

and the world is the most receptive to messages like ours than ever before.

I feel what’s gonna happen is not that opportunities

go away, but at some point,

Some opportunities might go away but I I think in other ways it’s gonna be so easy to do. The market might get

might get flooded

It might thin out a bit because more and more people are gonna end up doing what I’m doing right here and what you might eventually do as well

by default.

World’s going that way anyway.

You If you act now, you’re catching

you’re catching the wave.

I think you’ll be able to do quite well with this for a couple 2 or 3 more years easily

before it gets diluted in some way. The way anything does online, Things are hot and then they’re normal.

You don’t make so much money when they’re normal and you gotta fight harder to get heard when everything’s normal.

Do it now while it’s unique,

and also while the world is

is the most receptive,

We all know the world’s

it’s doing what it’s doing.

That is the key time for people like us with a message, with a unique story,

to be heard because people are getting burned out and they want they want a way out.

For your particular batch of people with your story behind you, your you’re their way out. You just gotta have something online so they can find you. And then they’ll win and you’ll win.

And I’ll win because I need to live half my life through you because all you guys with what you’re doing excite the shit out of me. I guess I’m saying you need to help me win

Alright, guys. That’s good enough as any. I will talk to you next week.

Be well.


EPI 44: People Love What I Do But I Can’t Ever Profit From It

EPI 44: Bipolar: People Love What I Do But I Can’t Ever Profit From It

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May 15, 2022

Show Notes:

When you can see and even viscerally feel the positive impact you have on people, yet earn too little from doing it? Well…this is the height of frustration!

But if you’re clearly aware of the positives, you’re at least on the right path to attaining greatness.

I feel this is a thing bipolar people can land in easier than most. After all we’ve endured, many of us are quite empathetic. We need to give.

And the illness tends to lend itself to a higher level of intellect.

So we both know what we’re made of and know it can be put to best use by us, better than anyone else.

But how? Where? And for whom?

And how do we not suffer needlessly due to unrealistic, altruistic perspectives?

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Welcome to the Bipolar Excellence Podcast. I’m your host, Ken Jensen. I’m someone who overcame bipolar disorder, in an organic fashion, back in 2004. That process taught me a couple of things about bipolar.

I was living life so incorrectly, in relation to what the better part of me wanted and needed me to do, that it took bipolar disorder to shock me into seeing I should go another way.

The fact that it was bipolar that was the change agent meant I’m more creative than most. I have a certain, slightly higher amount of intelligence than the average bear.

And I have a way of seeing life and expressing myself that most around me do not, in such a way that I can have great impact on those who need me most.

You might be the same. I want to help you understand this about yourself. And I want to help unlock your greatness and then unleash it on the world in the best and coolest way possible!

Hello, bipolar prone folk! Welcome to Episode 44. People Love What I Do, But I Can’t Ever Profit From It.

This is the ever so exciting moment where I finally finish the series Life Of an Outsider, which you will find a link to in the website, bipolarexcellence.com. You’ll find it in the footer.

Oh, this is fun. I did like a, this’ll be the ninth episode I did in one sitting. You don’t, you don’t, nor probably should you, do this this way, but I’ve had it with this series! I need it done and out of the way. I have very cool people waiting to be interviewed who’ve for the podcast, who’ve done incredible stuff in alignment with their bipolar characteristics. I can’t wait to bring them to you.

Let’s see. Well, now, now I’m fully winded. People will love what I do, but can never profit from it. The funny thing I’ve realized is.. These titles? Part of why I came up with them was because they were all individual ways I listed my own problems becoming more with bipolar, with a bipolar background.

And I figured out, or I figured people… I wanted to have episodes, even though so many of these topics in this series are very similar, sometimes damn near the same, people are going to ask the same question with different words. So I tried to address that. It made it very confusing at times for me, to make my points and keep them tight, tightly focused.

But I think I did a pretty good job. And moving forward, I have other series planned and they’re not going to be this. They’re not going to be as closely, the topics, as closely related as these are. And I’m just going to handle them a little different.

There was, there was a whole technical thing I set up in a certain way that I couldn’t undo without breakin’ a bunch of things. And it has pissed me off that I couldn’t finish this series because then life, life got in the way. It’s it’s been a wild ride. It’s going to do the same to you. When you’re getting ready to launch your big project, it’s it’s life.

Shit’s going to get in the way. You’re going to get tripped. You’re going to do something wrong in a way you can’t fix. As I always say, keep moving anyway. Just keep moving. Don’t stop. Don’t stop until something becomes nightmarishly incorrect. Then you might want to look at it and be like, geez, I don’t know.

But take everything to its full extent, before you make a decision on whether to quit it entirely. And even then hang on to everything you create. And I mean, for a handful of years. Hard won experience talking to you right now. This list? I wrote it in 2011. I never did anything with it.

It was going to be a bunch of blog posts on the last website, I think it was? Yeah. Two websites ago? Anyway, which I easily could have done. But it became these podcast episodes 11 years later.

So hang on if you’re a content creator, keep track of everything somewhere. Maybe 4, 5, 6, 7 years, just to be sure. You have no idea of knowing when something you created way back when will find a home years down the road.

Because, particularly, I believe ,with bipolar people, we’re always trying to sort ourselves out. I don’t know. I think we’re always trying to do that. We get better at it with age and experience. But I think it always happens to a degree.

And if nothing else, even when you create something and it doesn’t go the way you want, or you can’t use it the way you want, it was your, it was yours. It meant something. And the person you become later will be able to find a way to make use of it.

Because it’s a piece of your past that proves a point. Even if you don’t talk about it in, in the, the context or tone that it was originally designed for, it still proves a point that you can now address in a completely different context and tone of voice.

I just did that with this list. So this last episode, people love what I do, but I can’t ever profit from it. I believe, looking at the little picture you might’ve heard me mentioned a handful of episodes back, I picked pictures off of various free image databases. Like Unsplash. What does it, what’s that one? Pixabay. There’s been a few, but that’s the two I was using latest.

I try to get a picture that metaphorically matches the, the, either the topic directly or the tone of it to just try to give the story on the web page some context. So I, so, and I remember this picture here, these guys running an ice cream stand or something. I think it’s like in Italy or something, something like that.

I remember trying to figure out, why is this different than a couple other episodes I said? I believe what it is is it’s about, like in my case, you, you get onto a project. It makes sense. That’s one of the trickiest things. A thing makes sense. There’s a certain amount of standardization standardization to it.

There’s a business plan that is, that is understood and widely accepted to be sane and proper. And you’re capable of pursuing it and you do so. And it goes nowhere for any number of reasons.

I believe that was my, my perspective on, on what I wanted to say about this topic. You might be in the wrong thing still. You might be on to something that you’re just capable of doing, but that doesn’t, that doesn’t mean you should do it.

Particularly, if you can’t ever profit from it, you’re ah, I’m still struggling a little as you hear. I’m trying to make sure that I hit on really what it was, why, why I made this topic distinct from the rest. But

I do know there comes a point. If you’re not profiting, you need to profit or you can’t eat. They’ll come a point when you’ve got to look hard at something and let your baby die, clip it out and start over. I’ve done that dozens of times. I’ve had, I think, four major website revisions with completely different names and, and everything.

I worked on my very first website. I hired a company that had a program you followed that they told you right up front, it’s going to take months. It was big on search engine optimization. There was a whole plan. And they’re like, their symbol was the turtle. Don’t be the hare, be the turtle. And they’re like, if you do what we say, it’ll, it’ll pay off.

It’ll do it. What it, what we say it’ll do. And I kept the faith and I worked on that site, something like four months. Many hours every day. I was on disability at the time and didn’t have a job. So I had all day to work on this and I put in all day, every day for four months straight.

When I turned the website on the way they told me to, it exploded. I was finding myself on page one for various keywords in Google all over the place.

That’s all grand and good. In the middle of that, somebody found the website and a film crew came up from New York City. I’m a couple hours north of New York City. They filmed me, in relation to my bipolar story. That never went anywhere, but it was awful fun. I learned from it.

But there comes a point when you, you you’ve got to know that a thing needs to, it has to have profit. Or it’s either a hobby, might be perfectly fine, but just back down your expectations and just treat it as a hobby. Don’t expect anything bigger than that to come from it.

Or if you really needed it to feed you, you got to go a different way. And that is, my God. Is that a hard conclusion to arrive at. And it’s hard to kill your little darling. But it has to be done. I’ve done it many times. And I remember writing to a coach I had at the time, how do I know when it’s time to stop on a thing?

How do I know when it’s, when it’s time to give up? Particularly in reference to bipolar? Because in my case I was more manic than not for many years. Even after I beat the bulk of the disease mania lingered. You can hear it in my voice on and off throughout this podcast. It’s a thing. It’s just not constant.

It just has moments now. But in the early years it was quite, quite present. And I had the energy to keep going, even if I shouldn’t. And I also had an aspect of bipolar where I call four dimensional thinking.

I could see forwards and backwards in time, for planning purposes. And I could see like, on all three planes of reality up, down, back and forth side to side, connected with the time aspect.

And I had an ability to link resources and ideas and experiences all together to create a thing that existed in real life. I don’t have that anymore. I have a remnant of that in me, but not like back then. It was, it was wild back then. I, I, I couldn’t believe the things I used to build. The constructs that could become like a literal business.

And none of that led anywhere, as awesome as it was, other than, as a learning experience. Made few dollars here and there, but not nothing to brag about. But you do have to profit.

One of the things that has annoyed me about, even sometimes now, like when you talk about profit people have a, they got these condescending notions of money.

You shouldn’t be doing something, you know, for money and like w… you fucking go to work for money! Me doing this? This is me going to work! As it will be for you on your podcast, your website, whatever it is you’re creating.

Hell yeah, you should profit. You should get paid for your time and effort. And you need to, so that you can reach more people and do more good in this life.

Look at a nonprofit. Nonprofits are some of the most profitable companies on the planet. They need to bring in money, wildly so, so they can help more and more people.

I know in my case, just to give an example, the more people that hire me for higher level coaching, I reach a point, because I’ve done this before, I reach a point where some of the smaller things I used to sell, I just give them away.

Because I can afford to. Now I’m helping even more people get their foot in the door and better their lives. And in a way that doesn’t take food off my dinner plate. Money is just a tool. It’s just a tool. It enables you to do things. That’s all.

Anything other than that, that you feel about money is your belief system working on money. It’s what you believe about money. It’s a. That’s that’s always annoyed me. It bothers me whenever I want to talk about it on the show. Because you definitely don’t want to talk about it all the time, but since this one’s about profit, it’s, it’s a, you don’t carry on about it, but I get paranoid when I, whenever I talk about it, even now!

I’m like, is this too much? But no, man. It’s you go to work, your pissed if they pay you, like, if they, if you’re short an hour or something, or the paycheck’s late, you’re losing your mind. Anything you do on your own is no different. Just, you’re the boss. So get good with profit. If you’re not already.

That’s a load of shit that’s, in a large sense, that when people, you care about money too much, that’s people who have no money. I’d say that in general. I don’t intend to be one of those people. I’m not one of those people.

That’s a, that’s an ignorant way of looking at life, point blank. More money you have, the more people’s lives you can affect and change for the better. You get that money when you realize the thing you’re doing sucks. Or it’s incorrect. It doesn’t match somehow to what it is you’re trying to achieve. And you’re just, you’re either not the one to do it, because sometimes the idea is solid. It’s just not for you. Or the idea is not solid or the area it’s in isn’t right.

You’re not marketing right. Whatever. But if you’ve been trying for long enough and it ain’t going, it’s time to let it go. You can park it. You can keep it alive off to the side and just not add to it anymore. That’s a thing. I’ve done that with other stuff. There’s stuff in Bipolar Excellence, I’ve done that with.

But the pruning is hard.

I didn’t get a lot of direct help from the people that coached me in the past. They’ll just say, you’ll know when you know. And they’re right. I hate to share that with you, but you’ll know when you know .

It’s going to take too long with some. You’re going to embarrass yourself because, sometimes, cause you’ll have shared with everybody about this great thing you’re doing. And then it does not a great thing.

And if you’re a, you know, a dreamer and bipolar prone, like I am, there’ll be so many of those things, you lose a lot of credibility. So off the back of that statement, the longer you go with this, the more you keep it to yourself. Unless you’re talking to your people or your potential people. It’s how you’ll save yourself a lot of effort.

Talk about it indirectly. You don’t remain, you know, you don’t stay negative about it. You don’t say negative things about it or, or denigrate it. You just, there comes a point when you do have to protect your own sense of well-being, by not oversharing on a thing. That’s not really real yet. It’s not. It’s not real until it’s real.

Real means you’re you got dollars going into your bank account, then it’s real. And even then, make sure that they’re coming in consistently and enough that you’re earning a respectable, a respectable income.

People I got, before you share. People like us, the creative types? We get ourselves into a lot of trouble in, in the realm of being socially comfortable with our peers.

We’re just not normal .And it can, it, it causes us grief until it doesn’t. There’s a chain of events, it’s only like four steps long, when somebody comes up with a new idea. It’s heresy and then the second step S people then attack it. They attack you, directly. Then there’s like a begrudging respect, as the thing that you’re doing well proves to be useful.

And then there’s a point reached where everybody just thinks this thing’s always been around. And when they read the history of your struggles, they can’t believe anybody ever would have said no to this.

That’s where you and I, more than likely, find ourselves. Gauge you’re sharing accordingly to protect yourself socially, which will directly affect your mental wellbeing.

And as far as clipping, clipping things out, when they got to go? You will know when you got to know. I wish I could be clear than that, but it’ll make itself clear when the time is right.

Now childrens! I leave you with this: please go over to bipolarexcellence.com. Sign up for my free newsletter. Get the guide that comes with it that can answer some of your largest problems immediately and get the ball rolling on some of the bigger issues.

Because there’s no time to waste. World’s burning all around us, quite literally in a lot of areas. They’re waiting for you to show up and help, in some brand new fashion that nobody else can see.

And I want to launch that thing with you. Good God. We’re going to do interviews next. All right, guys. See, in the next episode.


EPI 43: I’m Always Outside Looking In. Is This Wrong?

EPI 43: Bipolar: I’m Always Outside Looking In. Is This Wrong?

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April 30, 2022

Show Notes:

There’s loneliness.

Then there’s being alone.

Top? No bueno. Bottom? Goldilocks levels of “just right”!

You want to be on the outside as much as possible. It’s where all the cool kids hang out.

Funny thing is, once you’ve become known for whatever it is we might work on together, you’ll actually be inside a very special club:

Those who did not bend to the status quo!

My friends and I can’t wait to meet that version of you!

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Welcome to the Bipolar Excellence Podcast. I’m your host, Ken Jensen. I’m someone who overcame bipolar disorder in an organic fashion back in 2004. That process taught me a couple of things about bipolar.

I was living life so incorrectly, in relation to what the better part of me wanted and needed me to do, that it took bipolar disorder to shock me into seeing I should go another way.

The fact that it was bipolar that was the change agent meant I’m more creative than most. I have a certain, slightly higher amount of intelligence than the average bear.

And I have a way of seeing life and expressing myself that most around me do not, in such a way that I can have great impact on those who need me most. You might be the same.

I want to help you understand this about yourself and I want to help unlock your greatness and then unleash it on the world in the best and coolest way possible.

Hello, bipolar prone folk! Exciting times! Episode 43. I’m Always Outside Looking In: Is This Wrong? This is the second to last in a series of episodes entitled Life Of An Outsider.

You’ll find a link to that series in the footer of the website BipolarExcellence.com.

I am upset that I ever came up with this plan, but there’s only one left and it’s important. God help me. I came up with this plan sometime ago. I have other series planned, but they will be built differently than this.

And I had more time on my hands. A lot in my personal life changed that robbed me of that time. Technical difficulties abounded. It came out of nowhere. Just you name it. Hurdles got thrown up in my way. But, here’s one of the cool things. When it comes to a podcast, most people don’t even get to do this, this amount of episodes.

It’s something like 10 episodes and they crap out. I made it to what. I made it to 35 and I didn’t crap out. I just got stopped. I fully intended to keep going. And that’s why I’m here now. But most people get to 10 and quit. I ain’t quitting. I just kinda hit a snag. So the other thing is, a lot of people tend to do one episode a week or, or one every bi-weekly or one a month.

I’m way ahead of that. I got, I got in a minute here I’ll have 44 and I believe I started this, in reality, in November of last year. So we got December, January, February, March, April, May. So that’s six months, 44 episodes. That’s a that’s seven a month. So I’m ahead. And then some. I’m seven ahead… of or not seven. I’m seven a month.

So it’s like, Three. If I did ’em one per week, that’s three a month, more than, than the average person podcasts. So I’m trying to teach you. Even if it doesn’t look like an immediate win, it can eventually be a win. Some of you, if you’ve been following along, you’ve seen the big pause. He didn’t, you couldn’t make sense of it.

If you look on the podcast platform, these things are even dated back in December and January of last year. It’s 2022 May. I had a reason for that. Cause I was going to stack a bunch of series and get them all preloaded. So I had this huge, hugely populated podcast with episodes and, and look more impressive when you came there.

I still think that’s a good idea. I don’t think a lot of people bother with that. They just go ahead and start doing an episode in organic fashion. They make a plan for that week. They do that episode and move on.

That would probably be less stressful for most of you. If you’re bipolar prone, you might not be able to help yourself, but to do it the way I did it with this stacks of episodes preplan. Then I did things with the technology that made me have to stick to this initial plan.

To try to undo them, to get to the next part of what happens in this podcast would have screwed everything up. So anyway, oh my God, I’m tired. I’ve done. Not tired winded. I’m actually quite pumped. I started on Episode 36 tonight. I think that was about two or three hours ago. I’m on episode 43. I’m excited.

I’m always on the outside looking in. Is this wrong?

No. I’ll tell you what. You should be greatly relieved you’re on the outside lookin’ in. When you’re trying to fit in, that’s coming from a position of weakness. Now, depending on what your, what your situation is, particularly as an adult, I don’t know. I don’t know how this would even work as an adult so much.

It works more when you’re you’re a kid or a teen, or even in your twenties, you’re, you’re more insecure. You, you can be, and you don’t want to stand out. Cause that’s just too uncomfortable to bear. You need to just be accepted in the group.

I did that well, I did that, I don’t know, well into my twenties. And then when I started not worrying about it, I not worried about it in an unhealthy way. I of just went crazy and just lived crazy and didn’t give a shit what anybody thought.

Now I have that like like an echo of that in what I do now, but now it’s healthier. It’s I’m quite happy, not belonging to anything that doesn’t greatly matter to me. And that list is mighty short. I’m comfortable in my own skin.

I was not, when I was younger. Probably bipolar had a piece to do with something like that. I don’t know. Cause bipolar didn’t actually nail me until my late twenties. But when you’re on the outside, looking in, I think it would behoove you to question why you want in so bad. Is that a thing you even really want to be a part of?

If it is, why? And be honest, be open with yourself. Why are you looking for acceptance in such a way? Maybe it is that important. If I sat here long enough, I could make a list of areas that might be a sensible concern. I just don’t have them in my life. I’m way cool. With being the lone Wolf.

But I’m not really. I am, I don’t hang with a crew. I don’t try to fit into anything. I try to be the best version of myself with the people that I help the most. And the people that I help the most, at least on the, on the paycheck side of things, are people with addictions and mental illnesses. And I find them fascinating.

I find every single one of them has something really positive to be discovered and explored, even if they’ve done some terrible things, which they have, as have I back in the day. Don’t judge. I’m not naive. I get lied to a lot, but I don’t care because it has nothing to do with me. It’s how they’re just surviving.

And I know a lot of people that I deal with that I deal with, if I knew what they really did in certain areas, or sometimes I do, I wouldn’t want them living near me. I wouldn’t really associate with them. But because professionally that’s not what I’m there to do. It doesn’t phase me in the slightest and I just find it that makes them even more interesting.

I, I. I’m fascinated by flawed people. I’m fascinated by suffering people. I don’t wish it on them. It’s not like that. It’s not, and they’re not my entertainment. I’m just really fascinated in what makes a mind go sideways.

What makes a mind get warped? Like that. And then I find the good in that, that I can, and I help the people that it’s my responsibility to help. And I do it wholeheartedly.

On the, on the private coaching side, if you’re working with me, you’ll probably got a pile of all of that in you at some point, but you’ve moved well beyond it. Same as me. And now you’re on some kind of mission. You’re trying to take all of those experiences, good and bad, and turn them into something good and something powerful.

You got something to say, you got a group of people you want to help, and you got a one person you want to help. And you knew that you know the version of you is not the guy to get it done. I want to help you do that.

And the only way you and I I can work together, is if you’ve always been on the outside, looking in, or, or you got there eventually, because you realize you just can’t mesh with the status quo.

And I don’t believe anybody. Life’s going to hand you certain situations where it’s it’s… you’d do well to be part of the status quo. I mean, you would. But for living, for getting out of life what you really want? And for doing in life what you’re here to do, you need to divorce yourself from the status quo as quickly as possible. Or change the definition of what you call status quo.

There’s there’s another sweet spot I like to live in. Status quo is just whatever one else is doing. Well, what if everyone else encompassed a group of people not doing what the herd does? People like us that have fought bipolar and come out with unbelievable awakenings and ideas and passions and skills and visions. And we want to share them with the world.

There’s a lot of us like that. There’s a lot of famous people that you know, right now, you’ve read their books. You’ve listened to their music. You’ve seen their paintings. It’s artists, it’s musicians, it’s it’s actors and actresses, it’s poets. It’s it’s even architects, people, people that do stuff with their hands. There’s there’s people out there that have to be by themselves to do what they do, because it’s the only way they can pull it off.

But if you’re lucky enough to sit and talk them, your life would be changed. A quick example. I, I did that with Brad Douriff, Brad Douriff. He was, he’s an actor and he’s the voice of Chucky the doll. Now he’s been in a million movies, hundreds, hundreds. He was a, when I met him, he was 72. Was handful of years ago.

I got pulled into a music video. And I was like, yeah, I’ll jump. I’d like to be in that. I knew the, I knew the the movie director. And I had a chance at one point to talk to Brad Douriff. I was in the audience, but there wasn’t a lot of people. You know, the pretend audience for the video shoot. He was on the edge of the stage, just gathering himself and cooling off.

And we shot the shit for like 20 minutes. I don’t remember a damn thing we talked about. Cause it was all just…. Life. It was like life stuff. It wasn’t me fawning over the fact that he was Brad Douriff and he seemed to take a liking to me. And we were just two guys just talking about things and I thoroughly enjoyed it.

I was on almost no sleep. I was on a 40 some odd hours with no sleep, as it was my wife and my daughter to get to this thing on time. And, and we were beyond exhausted. We were practically hallucinating and that 20 minutes with, with Brad, I was on fire.

I was energized in a calm sense, and I was so honored that I got this chance to be with him. And I built it. I built it.

Because way back when I first started sharing my message of being an outsider and I beat bipolar disorder in an outsider fashion, I started telling the world about that. I got a videographer who was a student at the time, pursuing a career in videography, to shoot a bunch of YouTube videos for me.

They’re gone now, but we shot many, many dozens of ’em. He went on to become a professor at two different colleges and start his own video production company. And it was through him that I got the invite that landed me practically in Brad Douriff’s lap. I got pictures with Brad later, but the, the I got his life story from his girlfriend.

She told me his story for an hour. I would never share what she told me and but it was fascinating and I couldn’t believe… I said nothing. She talked for an hour straight.

I met a guy there who was much older than me, probably in his seventies, who used to work in the garment district in New York city, back when you went in armed to buy dresses.

I was like what? He goes. Yeah. People never seem to understand that about the garment industry back in the day. It was all mob run and gang ruled. And he’s like, you could go in to buy a bunch of clothes. You might not come out. I was like, what?

So all of that came to me because I looked from the outside in, on how to fix bipolar and then worked hard as I could, in any way possible, with zero budget, to share that message. These fascinating people, years later, ended up in my lap.

My point to all of this is if you’re on the outside, always, looking in? Kudos! I do understand that it’s comfortable.

I do understand particularly like with bipolar. It gets very lonely. I could suggest finding my course over at bipolarexcellence.com to show you how I dealt with bipolar. And as you regain your wellness, you won’t feel so lonely. And you’ll learn things about bipolar… stuff I talk about all the time in this podcast… and how to attain them ,to where you may embrace your outsiderness, same as I have.

You might prefer to never go back to trying to be in the thing. you’re outside of. I hope not. The thing is the world is in turmoil right now. It’s 2022. Everything’s a, it’s… the water’s a little choppy out there. People like us are the only ones… because we’re not normal in the best of ways.

We’re not normal. We’re going to look at these problems in a way that everyone else will ignore or overlook or not believe. And we’re going to solve a lot of them.

I want to be at the root of that. I. I just for my own satisfaction, just like when I met Brad and his girlfriend and the guy that did the thing, and I built the kid that the kid that was the videographer, I got him his start.

I got him. I paid him for his free videos by getting him an internship in a professional production company, where I was friends with those people. That is another four years of stories to tell you even what happened because of why I was friends with those people at that facility. And what took place in a facility.

All of this is because. I am constantly on the outside in how I see everything. And I want to be involved. I drew these situations to me. I built them and/or drew them to me. I maxed them out, mostly with no awareness of where they go.

I almost never got paid for any of this ever. And yet my life has been filled with these fascinating moments and events and people and the kind of people and the level of play I’m accessing is getting larger, more important, more impactful.

I want to be a, a bigger player on the world scale because I enjoy it. Not because of the, the more tangible things that come with that, you know, fame and fortune. All right. I don’t care. I’ve had a little bit of ’em, a little bit of fame way back when.

I’m a published author, things really cool things came out of that for a minute and fortune, not, not so much so far, but I’m working on that, but not like I don’t have a list of things I want. I have a handful of things I want. Big house. I want a Jeep. I want my own gym in a barn.

I want a lot of land in the woods. I don’t want to be around any people. I want water nearby. Boom. You just heard my whole list. Don’t care if where I live, nobody knows who I am. Don’t care. I don’t care about any of that.

I don’t buy things so that I can tell to you anybody else look, like I can afford this. I, I hate that actually, but I do want some stuff. I want a better life and I’m building it. But I’m building it by living the life the way I want. And that’s by remaining an outsider and drawing other outsiders to me.

It’s critically important to me that my social circle and work circle is made up of people like you. You’re winning, as far as I’m concerned. You just might be at a phase of this outsiderness that it’s awful damn uncomfortable and lonely.

Hopefully something I say on this podcast or offer on my website will help you mold that into something more positive. And then we can find out what’s actually at the heart of what drives you and just explode it all over the world.

I hope so because it’s going to be yet another awesome story, with another far out person that I either get to tell or just, you know, I just get to live that life. I want to live these lives of you guys with you. And that’s why this whole thing exists. And that’s why I say remain on the outside, looking in.

All right guys. See you on the last episode of this series. (So excited!)


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