Personal Development

EPI-83: If I Don’t Pick Something Up And Put It Down, Soon…

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August 27, 2023

Without the gym, I start feeling very bad. In all ways. About all things.

So, on a personal level, I simply need to be regularly training.

But to also succeed as a businessperson, I HAVE TO be in the gym!

It’s very simple: healthy body equals healthy mind equals successful life.

Pick whatever form of exercise appeals to you most. Add in some various stretching routines, wherever sensible and apply.

The body and mind are not two separate things.

That’s some fuckery the psychiatric industry got implanted quite effectively in everyone’s minds decades ago.

It’s how they sell pills so well.

That yucky bit of evil aside, there is only the bodymind. One piece. One unit.

On a basic level, the brain is just another ball of meat inside the body with its own biological needs that have nothing whatsoever to do with your thinking and feeling.

And it also does its job better when it’s not tending to various ills and woes within the rest of the body, due to your lack of exercise and more.

But since we here in the Bipolar Excellence world are attempting to build and grow something larger than ourselves, we need to remain aware that the healthier we are, the better able to build we shall always be.

It’s not that you “should” take care of yourself.

It’s you “have to” take care of yourself.

Especially if you’re here with me, asking more of yourself than the common man does on any given day.

Give your chances of success a helping hand buy building with a bodymind that is running in top form.

You can sacrifice here and there, due to unforeseen demands on time energy and what have you.

But keep these sacrificial periods as brief and infrequent as possible.

This will hep you become the thing that others will one day be glad you built.

Transcript

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Hey. This is Ken Jensen. I’d be bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2000s. And believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process was mind blowing to say the least. Bipolar has hidden wood in its strengths.

I’m gonna show you what I mean how they’ve shown up in my life so you can do the same. Welcome to the bipolar Excellent podcast episode 83. If I don’t pick something up and put it down soon, I’m back in the gym.

I just finished my 3rd night of lifting about an hour ago. You’ll probably see me sweating here if you’re watching the YouTube video version of this. it feels to be back in the gym.

It’s important to me. I’ve mentioned it in the past. I’ve had starts and stops since this show has started. Restarted. over the past year since my dad died, little just about a year ago, a little over a year ago.

And everything that that caused within my personal life, settling his estate, helping my mom with, every every major system in the house was failing.

The, the go fund me that I created and all the local help that that drummed up off of that and the charity that kicked in and, you know, I was in the middle of all of orchestrating that.

That was a lot of work. That was months. Some of it, still was taking place up until recently little dribs and drabs of things because contracting things take time.

And took away my focus for working out. At the same time at my day job, there was a lot going on that I was still adjusting to even though I’ve been doing this for a year.

The kind of work I do, I’ve been doing for 5 straight years, and it’s it’s part of how I am as a person anyway.

But the way they wanted it done at this place and how I needed it to be so that I could mentally survive what it is that happens to me at this job, it, and and to give the the corporation what they need.

It it there was just a lot I had to settle out in my head to to make things happen smoothly effortlessly and on autopilot.

I that all kept me from working out as well. So I recently got that all settled and found out I was in a better spot there than I even realized.

And it was time to get back in the gym. My body was getting loud about it in in the main in the main the main way was my knees. My knees were they felt like they were full of fluid and I hadn’t done anything anything to them.

My day job involves a lot of sitting, putting together this show and everything I do online to create content and market and help people involves a lot of sitting.

I’ve never sat this much in my life. Well, let me let me edit that. I haven’t sat this much since I was bipolar almost 20 years ago. And my knees felt like they were breaking.

I had days where I could barely walk, and I knew it was bullshit. I knew my knees were fine. I knew this was the result of inactivity. I have an extensive stretching routine that I’ve done 4 years before I even work out.

Some guys will say don’t stretch before you lift because you want that spring in your muscles because it helps you lift more. I’ve tested this and I agree with them. However, I’m not mobile enough without without stretching first.

I I there’s there’s positions particularly with dead lifting and a couple other things. Even benching, I can’t get in a position properly unless I’ve stretched first, and it got worse.

The older I got So my stretching routine got even more intense. And there’s warm ups I do now that I never used to do when I was younger, and it it feels really good.

And My body is thanking me for doing this. And primarily, my knees feel better. A lot better, and it happened almost immediately. and they improve every day.

The knees, because they wouldn’t bend, I couldn’t do front front thigh stretches where you squat down put your hands behind you, you know, balance on the floor and then and then let your body rock forward and stretch out the the front of your thighs.

I couldn’t get that into a lesser degree. Your hip your hip flexors, I couldn’t get that to happen because my knees would barely bend, period.

To go under load, which is what, you know, you’re you’re in the bottom of a squat position. You’re under the most load possible with your knees at their weakest because they’re fully bent.

I couldn’t do that stretch. So I came up with an idea. I got some lifting straps like you know, on a construction site that they got loops on either end.

And I looped one end of those straps around the main beam in my my basement. And I wrapped the other loop through that loop in such a way that I essentially invented a poor man’s version of the rings and gymnastics.

I run my forearms through the through the bottom loop and grab the straps above, and then I can hold all my way with my hands and in my in my upper body.

And then and then ease my way down into a full squat, which is sick. It’s delicious. I haven’t been able to do that and I don’t know how many months just to get reach the full squad position.

And then lift myself up a little by my arms and and let my body rock forward my lower body and get that stretch on the front of the thighs. I have missed that. Oh my god. and my knees are responding wonderfully.

They’re they’re they’re bending almost all the way again. They still hurt. This isn’t, you know, this ain’t magic, but they responded freakishly well almost immediately, and it gets better every day.

And then with the stretching routine, I’m telling you guys, if you don’t stretch, you’re fucked. You’ve particularly the rear of your body.

If your hands and your calves are too tight, and your back muscles are too tight. You you’ll have headaches. You’ll everything will hurt. Your heels will hurt. Your knee knees, your hips, everything will hurt.

And it’s because all the muscles in the back of your body, which hold you erect, are too tight. You gotta get some stretching in your life some somewhere. and whatever form you can, you’ll only win.

Do it carefully and go learn it online. Look up YouTube and go figure some things out. But I’m feeling really good. And and besides just taking care of myself and lifting, which I absolutely love.

I I love love love the gym. Love it. It’s the one place in life to where no matter what else might be going to shit around me, I’m at peace. The gym not only feels right. It’s church.

It’s meditative. It’s achievement. It’s warier time. It’s the only place I can be a savage. unbridled and get that level of energy out and in use in a way that’s acceptable in public. I lift at home so I can do her I want anyway.

There’s nobody to witness anything. The only the only thing I have to worry about is if if I live too late at night, I’m in my garage. I gotta button up the garage so I don’t link up my neighbors because I’ll get making some noise.

So anyway, I’m back at it. And part part of why I wanted to get back at it was because I knew, When your body runs better, your mind runs better.

That’s part of one of the systems that I the system I wrote about my book, the system I sell on my site, that that’s one of the things.

You want your brain to work better, take care of your body. They’re not separate pieces. That’s where psychiatry and Western medicine get things wrong. your brain and your body are one piece.

The brain in in in a sense is just another organ in the body needs to be treated properly. as the piece of meat that it is with the supporting structures and systems around it being treated like the machinery they are.

So that your brain such you can think right. Just keep your emotions under control and and all of that shit. If you don’t take care of your body, your brain ain’t gonna work right the end.

It’s not even to be argued. So anyway, Another part of why I did that was not just so my brain would work right, but because I want to succeed bigger and faster in my business practice than I am.

And I realized that number 1, everything that happened to me in the last year, it had to happen the way it happened. There was no getting around it, and I didn’t even really fight against it. I wasn’t happy but I knew what it was.

I knew I knew what it was. It it it had to be as it was. And I accepted that sacrifice. I literally said this many episodes back that I was sacrificing my health to a degree because I I didn’t have a choice.

I didn’t have the energy. I didn’t have the time. I didn’t have the will. I couldn’t even think clear to add training in the middle of anything else. The other stuff would have would have not gotten done.

And in some cases, tens of 1000 of dollars were on the line and other people’s lives are wrapped up in mind. It it required full focus. So As all of that’s going on, I’m still doing the work online.

I’m doing this podcast, the newsletter. I added the YouTube videos. I’m doing more on LinkedIn. And I just did a bunch of work on LinkedIn tonight today. I’m very happy. I got all my services put back in place.

They were there once before. I had some thoughts. I chased them down. they didn’t go where I want them to go, and I realized I need to put those things back in place so people realize there’s shit they can buy for me.

There’s ways I can help them. if they don’t consume all the material, which a lot of people don’t, they need to see blatantly immediately, like, oh, he sells this. So I didn’t have that in place.

I just spent a day putting those things in place, and I gotta tell you, I feel better about life. And and and I tuned them up so that they present well And, it’s so funny. I had a to do list over the weekend.

It was a mile long and I only got about a third of it done. Nothing in in nothing is anything complicated, but there’s there’s a matter of how much energy and focus I can put into any any one thing at one time.

And anything online always always takes longer than I think it will if it’s a new thing. This podcast and all the pieces that are connected to it I do it are a known entity. If I kick ass, I can get done in about 2 a half hours.

If if if I’m cruising 3 hours and if things are just not going my way or I’m tired, 4 hours. to get all of this done and out in time so that you guys have it in the newsletter Monday morning.

And and on on all the podcast stations, platforms, I I want it there every Monday. I want it before midnight on Sunday to be already loaded in.

That’s just the thing I picked to do. Now along, along with that, let’s see, the podcast. Now I had no intention of interviewing anyone ever again after that nasty experience I had not long ago that I take complete responsibility for.

I brought that to me. I signed off on it. I lived it. It was horrible. And the other person, the things they did upset me, it doesn’t even matter.

Nobody can get in your head and upset you. You upset you. It’s how you react to shit. That’s totally on you. I built a bad situation, and then I owned the the thing, the horribleness that came to me from that situation.

Fine. I don’t wanna interview any anyone anymore. Right? Well, this gentleman, I’m gonna leave all the facts out until we’re done.

Very, very nice guy, very accomplished person. He’s doing some cool stuff on the side. He’s got a bipolar background as well. just called me out of the blue. Well, he emailed me out of the blue and he wants to be on the show.

He wanted me to interview him. And I was like, yeah, fuck it. I’ll interview him because News is a nice guy, and he’s up to some cool shit too that are that’s separate from just talking about bipolar.

Same as me. You’re gonna really enjoy him. He should be next week’s show. I don’t see why not, but I still don’t wanna interview anyone, but I’m gonna wing that and just talk just two guys talking over coffee and just just just see.

I just wanna know about him. The longer I do anything, except for this podcast.

How do I put this? The podcast is by default against what I’m about to say. I don’t like talking about myself anywhere near as much as learning about other people and hearing what they got to say.

But the podcast starts that conversation. station. You guys get an idea what I’m about, and someday we talk about something. And so I don’t have a choice.

Here, I have to talk about myself. So I do my best to make it useful. as I learned in human design, I am I am not even technically here to help anyone so much as I am to share my life and people can learn from that.

I can share lessons from it. That’s literally how I’m designed to be. In the Colby Index a, I am not designed at all to build anything.

I am pure abstract thought, ideas, the plan. The the the I pull the pieces out of the mist and the fog and turned it into a cohesive tangible plan that somebody else has to then run because I’m done.

I don’t want nothing to do with it. You don’t want me running a thing I just built. I’m a consultant and an advisor and an advisor and a counselor in fashion.

I share all of this because that’s what I learned from Colby in human design as well as my personal experience over the years with a lot of other just real life situations.

You know, I’m gonna share for a moment. There was a situation again. I I needed money really bad and there was somebody that I was doing something with.

And they wanted to hire me to help them build something online, a website, and they wanted to tie it into something they were doing. I knew easily how to do it.

This person was a problem. This was a problem person to anybody that crossed paths with them. but he was willing to pay me. I was on a bind and and I think I needed a tank of fuel for my heater and, I agreed to work with this guy.

I had a partner at the time. He was like, whatever comes out of this, this is on you. And, now the thing is I met with this person and his team, and he had a he had a pretty good handle on what was what already needed to happen.

I just tightened it all up, scaled up the vision, and and clarified some details. I just I’d figured out who on the team was in charge of what clearly delineated who that should be and what they should be doing.

And, we even had we even had a contract And the contract stated that I am simply going to share my advice in these meetings.

There was gonna be 4 of these meetings, and that’s what you’re paying for, and then we’re out. as this guy signed in the contract, he basically, yeah.

Yeah. Yeah. We we’ll we’ll we’ll look into that. He kinda shined on shine me on, if that makes sense, his understanding of what that contract just said. It’s he just refused to honor in his heart. What his eyeballs were telling him.

And I caught that and and didn’t didn’t care. I needed the money. So I went with it. I did not rip them off. I provided everything. I said I would, and it was extensive, and it was beautiful, and wonderful.

When the 4th meeting was done, I was like, that’s it. I’m out. We’re done. This guy thought that I would remain glued to his hip for who knows how fucking long to see this grand vision has come into into being.

So I learned never to take money just to get paid. I don’t care how desperate of a time I’m in or what I need.

It’s not worth it. I’ve spoken about this before. There’s times when you’re dying or something, you gotta do something. for money and and and and come what may. But I’m not in in a spot like that anymore.

And if you’re if you are Think hard and fast before you before you do it. Hard and long, I mean, before you do it because, god, the headaches you you incur from that kind of a decision. You’ll remember my words.

You’ll rule my words. And I did with this guy. He lost his shit. He was a pure fucking asshole of just orders of magnitude beyond, just a day to day asshole. He made things hard and complicated for a while for me and my partner.

And, we basically both threatened him with his life to get him to leave us alone. And He eventually did. And, this was like, my god, I don’t know, 14 years ago or something, but god, what a lesson I learned off of that.

And and again, I served him well. He just wanted something different from me and just believed it would happen if he just clicked his heels to get it three times and wished it to be so.

I caught that and didn’t honor it’s happening to then just take a moment and be like, dude, I’m I just wanna check-in with you because I don’t think you’re reading what I just put down here.

Don’t I don’t think you’re, you want something more than what I just said here. And I would I would like to get really clear about it before we move forward. So anyway, I will never do that again.

If anybody comes my way for help, there’s a process they have to go through to for me to vet them. You have to prove to me why I should even consider working with you. It’s a and I’m teaching you an empowerment thing here.

I don’t want people’s money just to get their money. I don’t want an asshole client or a or a headache or a problem. don’t wanna bite off more than I can chew even if they’re good people and, you know, I think maybe I can pull that off.

I want nothing to do with any of that. I want everybody good on the details. and everybody comfortable with the relationship.

But this is my business. In a sense, I’m hiring you you gotta prove to me why I should take you on and put you in my life. Flip side, I’m then I’m then gonna throw myself, hurl myself at your issue, and help you every which way I can.

But not until you’ve proven to me that I should let you into my world. Again, if you’re building something new, get what I just did there into your mind and soul and heart and body, embrace it, believe it, live it.

You will have a much better time of all it is the faster you can take ownership of your dream the way I just shared with you that I do mine.

You’ll have far less headaches and a whole lot more fun, and you’ll make a lot more money faster. Okay. There was What was the other thing?

I just wanted to throw a tidbit in there. A bonus little bit of nothing. Okay. This this mic arm, this boom arm that’s in front of my face. I can’t wait till I can get the there’s a little desk thing I wanna get.

Like, I see on Rogan and other shows where there’s no boom in my face like this. But until that time, I had to move this boom out of the way to see if I could just whatever to to organize my desk better.

And when I went to move it, the the screw. It’s a screw. It’s a c clamp. And the handle on the end of the threaded bolt came off the bolt while the bolt itself never moved.

I didn’t realize they weren’t one piece. So I figured out how to get the C clamp off, and then I had to once again go to the fine folks over at JBweld.

I should be getting I should be getting kickbacks for this. They should be sponsoring me. I was able to take the the the handle. JB weld it to the to the bolt, the threaded bolt.

And then put the whole thing back together, move it properly, reset it, and it worked just fine. And I shared that because You’re just not gonna believe that the the the tiny shit that’ll frustrate you and get in your ways.

You try to do these things that you’re gonna have to deal with so that your your your show, in this case, goes forward properly, just tonight. There was some little tiny, tiny click I could just barely hear in the headphones.

I’m like, the fuck is that? This thing never did click, and it was electronic in nature. and and subtle. I’m like, that there’s no way that that’s not gonna come through on the recording. And I have no idea what it is.

I, you know, I I barely understand the stuff that I use here. I started playing with some of the little slidey things, and I was able to see who was one of the little slidey things. Apparently, I would guess it’s a former electrician.

There’s a loose connection of some sort. I I guess. And, you know, sometimes it’s on. Sometimes it’s off. And I I don’t know. But but I was You just it’s always gonna be something. If in this case, I fixed that one rather quick.

I gotta tell you, I feel very successful and good about myself as a man in American and a former marine that I found out what the hell was doing that click. It’s been there before, and I just let it ride.

I I don’t know if it’s in the recordings if you can hear it on different equipment, but I was very glad to find it and get rid of it and and, I don’t want anything messing with the quality of this stuff to to the best of my ability.

Okay. I think tonight, I’m gonna end on the little clicky thing. look out for the cool, super cool guest that’s gonna be on next week’s show, you’re really gonna like him.

Really nice guy. Not having not not anywhere near the loud mouth I am or the free of nature that I tend to be as I ramble and get out of control. Very nice, more of a reserved guy, very pleasant.

And I really like talking to him. I think you guys are gonna like listening to him. Alright. There’d be more if I kept digging, but I’m tired. I’ve gotta now process all of this and get to bed. Alright, guys.

EPI-82: Gird Your Loins

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August 20, 2023

Gird your loins.

Protect your psyche’s delicate parts.

Because there’s always hard shit.

And there’s always gonna be hard shit.

How you react, or better yet, how you develop proactively to deal with the never ending hard shit, is what separates the men from the boys.

Two life-altering sources of growth helped me see this clearly, many years ago. And the fact only becomes more true, the longer I march down this personal development road.

It’s not that your problems go away.

It’s just that you become a more highly evolved person, one who has the tools to better handle the problems that would have normally destroyed the old you.

And anyone on the path to growing something larger than themselves is not only going to still have problems, the problems themselves are going to often become more intense.

Call it God or The Universe testing us. Or maybe the deeper version of ourselves testing the shallow. Whatever.

The proverbial shit will still regularly hit the nearest fan.

Can you respond with dignity, grace and poise as the resultant mess ruins your beard for the day?

Or do you let your emotions direct your unnecessarily dramatic response, usually creating more harm than good, in the process?

The pros learned to accept long ago that sometimes, one’s beard will be defiled with one stressful mess or another.

But they simply clean it up while keeping their eye on the larger meaning of it all.

Then react in a rational, measured manner, one which ensures victory for both their beard and all who’ve come to depend upon it.

Transcript

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Hey. This is Ken Jensen. I’d be bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2000s. And believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process was mind blowing to say the least.

Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve shown up in my life so you can do the same. Welcome to bipolar Excellence podcast episode 82. Gerd your loins.

There’s always, there’s more hard stuff to talk about than there is good. and I don’t wanna demoralize or demotivate anybody. But I think that’s the case. I think there’s more hard stuff than than not. I don’t think it’s 5050.

I don’t think there’s a fucking balance. I think there’s hard shit hard shit, and then how much your grace improves and your ability to adapt and your ability to pivot inside a tight moment improves as you deal with the hard shit.

There’s always hard shit. And, you know, now that I said this, I’m glad I did because it makes me think of something I learned from CenterPoint, the meditation service I used to use, which I hope to God.

I will get back to. I will get to it. It had a time limit on it, a time frame, you know, of 6 years. I only did 2 years worth, and I liked what it did to me, and I need to get back to it.

But anyway, One of the greatest things that CenterPoint’s tool Holasync did for you or any meditation for that matter It’s not it’s not that your problems go away or you’ll get so damn smart at dealing with them.

Some problems will go away, and you will get smarter.

You will. to to better deal with some things. But the bulk of it is you learn to better deal with the problems you have to such a degree that they no longer bother you like day 1 did. They’re still there.

But it’s almost like when you were a child being bullied and now you’re a man or a woman, you’re an adult. You if if you had to deal with that same exact bully from when you were a child, could kick his ass or harass.

The problem remained the same. You just evolved into something bigger and better that could handle that same exact problem. So there’s the motivational bit in that.

The reason I bring this up is tonight, tonight, just hours ago, I was doing house cold chores to include getting ready to clean my fish tank. And I’m so excited because, the fish needed it, and we’re very close.

My fish and I. and I get very guilty about how infrequently I cleaned their tank. So, anyway, and I lost a guy recently, and I’m pretty sure it’s my fault for letting the tanks for too long.

It looks good when I learned the tank can look good and not be good. So anyway, as I was getting through my day, with my my mind pretty much focused on this podcast.

I walked into a I’m just gonna say a family problem, and I’m not gonna supply any details because it’s nobody’s business. But I walked in in the middle of something.

I initially didn’t even know what it was I was seeing because there wasn’t a lot of, there wasn’t a lot of, signals that you’d normally expect for what was actually taking place, showed up soon enough.

And an old wound got reopened. And All the drama and troubles and garbage connected to that wound came rushing to the surface as somebody tried to actively reengage with the thing that called the caused the wound in the first place.

This is exterior. This is external. It’s it’s not It’s not in my immediate family. It’s it’s an outside threat. Things got rather ugly pretty quick. Nothing tragic happened.

Nothing that couldn’t be fixed, took place. And a couple hours later, everything was twistedly all the way back to normal. But the trauma and, you know, the the the psychic damage the hit the family took was done.

And it was all based in large part by one person’s actions who was morally in the right but didn’t understand the larger picture of what was actually happening and why and and and the history connected to it.

So in a sense, no wrong was actually even done. but something that was intended to be good was about to take place that was going to go very, very bad And it was it was traumatic in that sense.

It was a psychic hit. And Like I said, we got through it. No further trauma’s got added to the situation outside of what it already was. and and everything was at least in the immediate sense, put to bed.

Everything’s fine. but I still had yet the podcast. I had yet to even do the frigging fish tank. And I and my clock My clock on the wall is battery driven. The battery was dying.

I didn’t know it. I thought I had hours yet. I have a phone and everything, but in this case, I was simply paying attention to the the clock on the wall. I thought I had hours to go. Nope. That was hours ago that I had hours to go.

I I was already late into the night. Didn’t even realize it. So that was, that was sort of demoralizing because I’m like, well, there goes my sleep and and the podcast, everything involved in all the places that I put it and everything.

I gotta write about it and newsletter and and on and on and on the editing. This is like a 3 hour. This is a 3 hour thing per episode.

And and and as well, I had a plan, and that plan got blown up in my face to no wrongdoing on my part. and you’re gonna find that happens over and over and over the longer you build anything that matters.

You know, when you’re not doing something that really matters, something that’s larger than yourself, something that requires great sacrifice on your part or the need to remain accountable to others in a way you may never have before.

A lot of life, even shit like what happened to me tonight is is it’s easier to handle because is the big thing.

It’s the biggest thing there is. And you have more energy and attention and time to to put into it And it doesn’t hit as as wrong because it’s all there is. If the rest of your life is routine, then that was it.

That was the big deal. When you have a big deal of that sort and yet you have something like this show that I run and everything that’s attached to it and people that need me to show up on a regular basis for a multitude of reasons.

Now the other big deal is, it’s even bigger than it would have been. had it been just the only thing taking place. So the trick is how do you deal with such a thing like this?

And get on with your your your larger responsibilities and, not ruminate over what just happened to the point that it gets in the way of what you’re trying to create, whatever your project is.

Thankfully, my part for more for multiple reasons, this was all manageable.

And I got put into a state, and I don’t wanna carry on about this, but I got put into a state of mind where the old me got brought to the surface because I was being threatened.

I was never gonna act on what was threatening me and I wouldn’t ever.

And I didn’t even come close to. I’m just saying my energy, my mood, you adrenaline, my old training, whatever remaining PTSD I have because I’m pretty sure some of that still lingered.

My defenses come up quick and hard and I start getting solidly into an offense mode of a quite serious and dangerous nature.

I, but I know how to not let that run away from me. Some of you, if you’re following a You knew that there was somebody that did this to me some time ago, on a job site.

Guide had actually caused me to quit the last job I had. I needed to quit that freaking job anyway, but he was the impetus, but it almost happened with him leaving this earth.

And Interesting fun satisfying side note. That was a year ago. That asshole recently got fired from that job as he rightfully should be because he was heart, hurtful and toxic. He got fired. And, yes, I’m pleased with that.

I didn’t hold a grudge. I got through it. I was annoyed about it and whatever, but I was like, then what are you gonna do? You can’t save the whole world. Can’t fight city hall. But, you know, I I really did move on.

I I wasn’t happy about that guy being where still was hurting the people he was hurting, but there was not a damn thing I could do about it. And finally, the system realized whatever and and he went. Yes. Satisfying.

So this thing that happened maybe today was not that. But Doesn’t matter. A threat’s a threat, and my body reacts the same way. And then mentally, I’m aware of the larger picture of what all might happen if this thing should go further.

Not me being on the offense, just the problem itself. And and so that made me get even more defensive because I knew what was coming and I couldn’t started looking like I wasn’t gonna be able to stop it.

And that got me even on more heightened alert because I I knew how bad this could get and why and and what was gonna come. And I was like, I can’t I can’t do this again. And it wasn’t even of my doing.

And, and now I’m making the podcast. you can tell I’m a bit more subdued, but, yeah, I’m alright. I really am. It was it was It was painful in certain ways, but it’s something in in in one respect that had to happen.

And now that it has Should this thing rear its ugly head one more time? Everyone involved is now fully on the on on the same page in a way they were not earlier to So it ended well.

And it was like there was like a lesson hiding within the disaster. So now I’m doing this and and I’m I hope I hope you guys get that I don’t know.

On one hand, the less evolved me would have handled this poorly on a number of fronts and caused more to come out of it than than would have been necessary because I couldn’t control my rage.

And my defenses would have come up even stronger because I hadn’t healed enough yet. So I lash out. I hit first before I can be hit this sort of a thing that I don’t I don’t do that anymore.

And the reason I bring that up is if that’s an issue with you as we’re working together, I got steps to help you get to where I am now to where The raunchiest shit can be thrown in your face in a way that makes you want us do something that you can’t and You know what’s wrong and you won’t, and you’ll be okay with it as I am now.

And I really am. I’m I’m I’m glad that Based on my pathway of of being, I could feel the moments when a tipping point was being reached and I would have gone over the edge and done this and done that and done the other thing.

I didn’t do any of those things. I knew I was at those points and the energy was there And it was huge, but there was never a fear of it actually going somewhere that I couldn’t recover from.

Never. It’s interesting to be taken to the brink like that by your own emotions and have him get that intense, but also know academically from your perspective.

Look that up. Your witness perspective. I knew that this guy was gonna do anything overly stupid besides make some noise.

And rattle and rage a little bit, but, you know, and I didn’t. And I’m proud of that. So the episode title, Gerger Lloyds, that’s a phrase if you’re not familiar.

It’s it’s got to do with putting from from, like, from, like, I don’t know, Greek warrior Greek slash warrior Roman times where you would you would put a protective thing of metal around your waist.

To protect to protect the, the tender bits, twitched your thighs, you gird your loins, you go in a battle protected As you build the thing you’re building, you’re gonna sometimes, sometimes, actually, I think more and often than not, the bigger stretch gonna come from you.

And and what I mean by that is there will be exterior threats that get hurled at you, and the threat can be anything. Use that phrase very loosely. Just anything that can just sink your little boat.

Any number of things are gonna come at you that’s gonna cause you to wanna react offensively and You can’t. A matter of fact, you wanna have strategies in place that you don’t even react. Reaction is the opposite of being proactive.

Proactive is when you have a plan in place for when things like this go wrong, you can respond in a way that’s more healthier, more healthy. And produces a better outcome than if you just react pure emotion.

This is not easy to achieve, and it’s not gonna be a thing of perfection Like, where I got today, it was choppy. It was choppy. The only win that came was when it really, really mattered that I not do the things that I felt like doing.

I didn’t know. And and and then also knowing in my heart of hearts, And my, my my aware of mine, I never would. It’s not even the true fear. No matter what it feels like to me, It’s not real in network chiropractic.

That my chiropractor taught me. It’s it’s a thing of where you can feel the emotions, but you don’t run away with them. They don’t make anything happen. you feel them in full force, but you don’t use them to direct your next move.

And that’s a very healthy place to reach. Most people are nowhere near it. They get an emotion. Then then they react and they do something stupid fueled by whatever that negative emotion was or even sometimes a positive one.

You gotta have some more class. You gotta have more style than that. You gotta have more poise. truly great leaders get just as pissed off about shit.

Same as anybody else, but they don’t show it. and they have a better way of handling it. They’re thinking longer term. They’re talking. They’re thinking bigger picture. They feel the same things.

But they know it’s foolish and destructive to act on the things in the moment. I have not achieve some sort of lofty heights where I don’t feel these things and still get to where it looks like I’m gonna do some stupid.

I haven’t it happens way less. Like, I can count on one hand how many time something like this happens. And I don’t know. Every few years maybe at this point.

It’s just not a thing anymore, but but it’s still in me. I didn’t have all his I didn’t have as much graces I woulda liked tonight or poise our class. when I knew when a danger line was being reached and and I knew not to cross it.

And I also knew I would I would never cross it. And, that’s a satisfying feeling. And in the end, because I didn’t add anything at least in that that one major respect, Everything was fixable soon after.

The problem’s still there, but but in the immediate sense, Everybody directly involved is good. I had more to say, but, you know, that seems so heavy.

I think I’m gonna leave it at that. I want you guys to think about that. As you go through my material, if you’ve ever read my book, you’ll realize the enormity of what I’ve just shared tonight with you about me.

You’ll realize I know some things and how to use these things so that I am no longer the old me while I do this cool thing with the rest of you.

What might that mean for you if you’re trying to something and you’re looking at me as your leader. That’s it. I’m gonna leave with that. Be well.

EPI 77: Makin’ Metaphysical Lemonade

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July 16, 2023

Tonight is directly about bipolar disorder, something I haven’t done in many episodes.

The reason for this has been shared on my show repeatedly.

But something happened that shifted my opinion about the way I’m handling this topic to a more positive perspective.

I learned the hard way to stop trying to save bipolar afflicted people in any direct fashion.

Back when I used to try, the Universe spanked me hard, hitting my sore bum from multiple angles.

After “failing” to help people beat bipolar in the way that I did, I also came to realize that I wasn’t even interested in trying anymore, beyond being a passive receptacle for the system I created to do so.

But bipolar was and still is a key component to my value and what it is I offer to the world.

So the word has remained within my brand.

But how to use the positives of my experience, working primarily with people who’ve never had bipolar, or don’t have bipolar as a key issue in their lives, without drawing those who wish to be “saved”, as often used to happen?

Turns out, I think I’ve finally mastered what that looks like, because the results in my day-to-day are proving that my fears ares simply not materializing.

Now listen: these fears used to be valid.

And they caused me massive confusion and frustration as I tried to straddle the line between my new world and my old, without muddying either with the other’s presence.

Well, it seems, based on the past couple years or so of putting myself out there, that my concerns in this area are no longer a concern.

I can’t tell you how hard this has been on me, nor how relieved I am that it’s over.

But you might face a similar disparity in mission intent, or should I say, commingled mission intents.

How to solve this?

Well, direct feedback from the world is needed. Keep at it until enough data arrives to clearly provide the clarity you seek.

The rest? Quiet time and private talks with those whose opinion you value. Then more quiet time.

Transcript

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Hey, this is Ken Jensen. I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2 thousands. And believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process, was mind blowing to say the least.

Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve shown up in my life so you can do the same. Welcome to the Bipolar Excellence podcast episode 77 making metaphysical lemonade.

Before I forget because I keep forgetting Not only do I have a YouTube channel that I’m still sorting out how to update regularly. I got I got I got videos on YouTube.

There’s also videos of these podcast episodes on their individual pages within my site, bipolar excellence dot com. So if you wanna sit and watch me attempt to do these things well and put a face to the to the the voice.

There you go. They look pretty cool the way they sit on the page, I think. I like and then you can find me on YouTube. Just punch up bipolar excellence. You’ll find me easy enough.

Just another way I’m reaching out to people and let people know, see who it is at saying all these incredibly useless, valid and entertaining things. That can do nothing but help humanity in every way possible, such as my hope.

On that note, the lemons, the metaphysical lemons. Okay. You guys have heard me talk on the show about The struggle I’ve had with the fact that I have bipolar and the name of everything I do.

It’s my it’s part of my brand. And and why because of my bipolar backstory and how I fought with separating hailing the sick, which I don’t wanna do, can’t do.

I’m not qualified to do. You don’t even want me to try. And using my bipolar experience to draw people who are building something big off the back of their story and experiences like I am.

And I’ve mentioned before how no matter no matter what I think or feel, it’s been important to me that people Fighting with bipolar do discover someone like me and the information I learned about it.

So that maybe they got a shot at pulling off what I did or at least get a piece of it which is better than nothing better than just having the illness.

So there’s gonna be no details here that can make anybody uncomfortable. But somebody somebody wrote something publicly that I felt like responding to about how they were feeling bad.

I’m gonna keep it that vague. They were feeling bad about some stuff, and they were considering some things that shouldn’t be considered.

I felt like I had to say something And the funny thing is I have so much to say about bipolar and yet I fear what it might draw my way.

The whole dad thought. Big, you know, in with relation to what I what I said when I opened this episode.

Hang on. I know this drive me crazy. Alright. I had that thought again tonight that fear and that thought. First off, the conversation went well. I got a reply from someone.

We went back and it a couple times and it was really good and they said nice things about what it is I say publicly and how. And it was received and told by them and relayed back to me in a way that matches what I hoped I was doing.

This was very satisfying to me, plus I was glad that what I had to say, help somebody who who is hurting as much as this person is. Again, I’m not trying to save the world or anything but if I can give someone a hand, I shall.

So The fear the fear the anxiety like did I just inherit? Did I just inherit someone that wants me to handhold them through the journey I just told him is possible.

Well, then I mean no disrespect to that person if if they should ever listen to this So this is just this is an ongoing thing I’ve been dealing with for years and I’ve had a lot of experiences in this area that have not been as I liked and and it it led to you know, the the bulk of what this episode’s about.

I’ve come to realize that lately, and I believe it’s because I’ve been working on this in so many fronts.

Nobody’s doing to me what I was worried about them doing. That’s not to say it can’t still happen. But I think for more than 1 reason it’s going just like it went today.

I’m just helping people they’re not kicking my door in for direct help from me with with regards to bipolar. Or anything for that matter, you know, mental, wellness, literal, you know, literal wellness from a place of despair.

Nobody’s really done that to me. The the people I’ve been meeting that that fit this category there there in something that I got out of But none of them are really they’re not pressing the boundary.

They’re not asking for the direct help like I’d worried because I don’t want to let anybody down or mislead them, give them false hope or I I go to great lengths when I word things to let people know.

I’m I’m not not doing that with you.

I’m not even looking to do that with you, but it’d be a fucking sin if I didn’t at least tell you a little bit about what I went through with that and and how I beat it or just to or just to let you know I beat it.

I don’t even I don’t even bother sharing the direct tool, the the 1 tool I have in these events. I I don’t want anybody to think I’m trying to profit from their pain or or use them as a marketing device. III never would.

I won’t and then I never I never would but it’s a tricky little dance trying to help people depending on the context of how you met them to make clear what your intentions are and and just keep everything above board and and again not sit up false hopes.

Which is horrible. So I think I did it pretty well tonight with this person and they were you know, they sent some nice things back in forth with me and kept it short and sweet and I’m just glad I said something that helped.

I know back when I was in the shit with bipolar and I guess I wanna do a little bipolar talk tonight because I never really do on this show.

I guess it’s time for a little bit of that. I didn’t think anything was possible like what I eventually did but even like the edges of a thin sliver of what I did seemed impossible.

What I did which was to get completely well beat bipolar and put it in my past, nobody in charge quote unquote, said it was possible. As a matter of fact, they said it was impossible.

Thank God. I tend to resist authority or who know well, I’d have been dead. If I had just aid with the doctors I would have been dead, but that’s not all doctors. That’s not every case of this thing with this illness.

I know that. I’m just saying that’s what would have happened with I’d have been dead if I stayed with the doctors. My last doctor gave me permission to try anything outside of psychiatry, and I needed to hear it from him specifically.

Because of our relationship and our understanding 1 another, patient to doctor. And he even confirmed I was not like the any any.

I was the only patient out of many hundreds who were like I was that looked at my situation like I did, researched it like I did and came back to him with questions like I did. Nobody else did that.

Nobody. I didn’t notice. I didn’t give a shit. I was trying to save my life and my sanity when he told me that nobody him questions about why his treatment plan which was nothing more than really just fucking pills.

Why that pill? What’s it doing with the other pills? What’s the long range results? Whatever I could think of to ask. I’d ask and I was I was manic frequently back then. So I’d come with a laundry list of questions.

So my brain just fired rapidly constantly nonstop. Sometimes I didn’t sleep for days and never got tired. So when I say questions I came back at this poor man with questions with a capital q.

It blew my mind when he told me nobody else did that. And and I thought he was being like you know rhetorical just just saying something for a fact and I was I was like no 1 he goes not 1.

You’re the only 1. And in my case, he then went on to say and he said, I hate that I hate that for you because you And of all my clients, you are the only 1 who is fully aware of just how completely fucked you are.

You cannot get help from psychiatry. We’ve proven that. You have to do something else. I just don’t know what that is because I’m a psychiatrist. But he said at this point you can try whatever you want because what’s the difference?

You’re gonna diet as the disease in 6 months. In 6 months or less, you’re gonna die by cop. Now whenever I tell this story, people freak out and cringe, they don’t understand a relationship I had with this doctor.

And the fact that a Marine Corps War vet and this is at the VA. Things were more direct and I wanted it that way. I didn’t want any sugar coating.

I didn’t give a shit how bad it was it when whenever a matter of fact, you know something a little side note. When I was bipolar and I couldn’t have felt more scared in a low own. I felt good at the VA because I was around other vets.

I was around the brotherhood in the sisterhood for that matter, but I was with other vets who were fucked up in all kinds of ways and we had that common bond not every vet’s been to war but whatever we’re vets we did something most other people don’t do.

And just being in a VA, at least back then made me comfortable a little bit, made me comfortable talking to this doc was when I was most comfortable and a lot of my symptoms would actually go away because I trusted him.

He didn’t bullshit me. He respected my opinions.

And as I’ve just relayed, I had more opinions than most people and he respected me more because of it. But he said he wished I, you know, he wished I was ignorant of my situation so I could die with some modicum of peace.

Now that again sounds harsh but I’m a marine and he’s a marine doctor. He wasn’t a marine but, you know, he was a doctor of marines.

I just wanted shit straight. That that that soothed me. That made sense to me. That was rational. I had less shit I had a pick through I wasn’t that wasn’t having to like decipher the hidden meaning in anything.

Nothing was subtle. Everything direct. It’s easier to make decisions when shit’s direct. And I wasn’t upset by what he said. I wasn’t up I mean, I wasn’t upset. In the moment, I wasn’t upset so much as like, well fuck me.

Now what? It was kind of like that wasn’t mad at him because he was acting as he always had which was 1 of the few things that brought me peace when I was in the middle of the stormy as part of the illness.

There was about a I can’t remember anymore. There was like a 2 year, 3 year, possibly 4, but at least 2 and 3, 2 or 3 years.

Where this illness came at me like a raging fucking mob like a horde of Mongolian warriors in the tens of thousands and I’m naked, you know, with a rusty fork for defense and they’re coming at me from all sides, they’re tunneling up under underneath me, they’re dropping from balloons above me, all entering my head and raping and ravaging and pillaging my sanity.

That’s what bipolar felt like to me. Plus my body did weird shit was happening. I had sensations that are indescribable similar to a bad acid trip happening in every fiber of my being.

I honestly to this day don’t really know exactly how I survived it. I had a really bad case of bipolar. And before it got really bad it was directing a lot of the show and I did a lot of risky shit a lot of risky shit.

And even before I got sick, there was aspects of me that scared people because I was unpredictable or if I was with the right group, I was the entertaining 1 because I was unpredictable.

But the things I was doing that you couldn’t predict were getting more wild, dangerous and illegal, unsavory.

I went down some roads that should have never been gone down. Met more people were just like myself which is what happens when you do anything in life.

And then we worked on destroying each other faster as a team. Nothing like company. While the while your world burns, We helped each other with the pails of gas we were throwing on each other’s flames.

So I’m starting to see now like number 4 just because that’s in 1 part, it’s how it’s happening. It looks and feels to me like maybe if I continue doing this the way I’m doing it.

I can help bi polar people in a way. I’m not only qualified to do which I’m qualified for very little in this area professionally legally. I’m not you know, I have no certifications.

Not for this. Not not for this direct care. I feel like I can be a source of inspiration and hope I got my system. The It takes guts to live well system which is the literal system I use to to beat bipolar. Don’t know if it’ll help you.

Good chance it will not do to many many variables but it’s there in my site if if you want it by polar excellence dot com. I think I think I’ve sorted this out to the degree that I can be of use to to people suffering with that illness.

Without it intertwining in any comfortable way with any of my life to include the part of bipolar excellence that I I am pushing hard to do which is helping champion minded people climb reach ever higher heights on the mountain of success particularly the eclectic ones.

Particularly the ones that nobody believes in. I found that there is strength in having bipolar or our our strengths for a lot of bipolar people. I don’t think it’s every polar person that that would be ludicrous.

But I think there’s a high why I know there is? I know there is. I I haven’t had to share this info in so long. I’m I’m forgetting some of the details I used to have readily available to my forebrain.

By polar people, there’s a higher percentage of us compared to the non bipolar population who are creative. And we’re able to do things mentally for the good that a lesser degree of the regular public can.

What we can do shit other people can’t do. Then it becomes a balancing act between how much of the illness can be used for good and how much of the illness is just destroying us.

It’s it’s tricky and in my case My only goal was to beat the illness. I knew I was creative. I knew my brain, you know, it went places.

In the dark days, I frequently went without my permission and I’d get caught in a loop where half of me would trying to get the other half for me to leave me alone. I couldn’t get my brain to stop working. God, those days were bad.

I’ve said that before, I used to have this ability that was of no use that I can figure out even to this day where I could have 5 random topics popping on my head 1 after the other and a conversation would immediately light up under each topic of me talking to some other aspect of me about that topic, the topics were meaningless to my day to day life.

They were meaningless and and disconnected from 1 another.

And yet these conversations would start and I could hear me talking to someone else, probably the other me, about that topic and it would go deep, fast, tangents would split away from the main topic.

And I would pursue those tangents conversationally with other sides of myself. We’d kick we’d kick it back and forth talking about whatever that topic is.

At rapid speed all in my mind times 5 and I would not I would be clearly aware of all 5 conversations simultaneously. It produced a flood of data in my head that I could feel.

I could feel the pressure the force of the information being hammered away at in my mind. It hurt It was scary. It was mindless and pointless and I could not make it stop and to this day I don’t remember how it would stop.

I I think it would eventually just Peter out probably with me falling asleep. I I don’t know possibly falling into a panic attack. I don’t clearly remember anymore. I just remember I had that ability, which was astonishing.

And I think now if you strip away all the emotional part of what I just said, we’re basically talking about a hyper awareness. Which I still have but not with that pursuing 5 topics at once. None of that exists in my head anymore.

But there’s sort of a flavor of it a memory. There’s something about how I think and how I’m aware of life. Put it that way. That sort of matches those topics. It’s just not as intense or as deep and it’s no longer pointless at all.

It’s got to do more with my awareness of what’s going around going on around me at all times on all levels in many different categories and my ability to then draw conclusions from the connections my mind makes from all that data, but in a way that’s not crazed or or or or or driven like the fucking sluice gates at the bottom of the Hoover dam.

This is much more gentle. This is spread out across times a great amount of time, and and there’s long breaks in between.

It’s just a general vague sort of awareness of what’s going on and it’s I frequently don’t have a goal. I just know something when I know it. But I see details all the time I’m always tracking stuff visually.

Not so much with my ears but visually I do and I do it a lot with people. I watch their body language, the inflection in their voices, how whatever we’re talking about is being received by the world around us who can hear us.

Things like that and it tends to help me say something that’s needed at just the right time.

In a way that other people don’t seem to do. So That was it. I don’t want to talk anymore. I thought that was an excellent episode. I’ll talk about bipolar every now and again but I think now I think I’ve made clear my fears on that.

It’s an an an an an address to confusion as to well then why? Polar excellence if you don’t ever wanna talk about bipolar. I’ve been learning from Dan Koe, and another guy whose name I’m blanking on.

Damn it. It’s right there. But I’ve been learning about how you can do that. You have a main you you have a main topic that’s sort of under underneath the the surface of everything.

But you don’t talk about it constantly. It’s it’s just sort of what routes you in reality and then you can talk about anything else that that matters to you.

And every now and then you talk about the main topic just so that everything is kept within proper context. Everything about me has something to do with bipolar because it just does.

It just does Even though I be bipolar and is not an active part of my life just because it’s not and hasn’t been for almost 2 decades now. It definitely shaped all that I am and how I see life now.

And people that have it once they find out I had it and see how my life is now wanna know more or at the very least I have a way of providing comfort to anyone for any reason because of how I how I heal myself I gave myself comfort.

There’s something that emanates off of me that people perceive when they need it and it can and they they can need it for any reason under the sun.

And I enjoy giving it. I’m just productizing and and turning it into a business within bipolar excellence.

You can do the same with whatever makes you cool and groovy and special and cool and I want to help you with it. That was the final thought. Still don’t have an end phrase. So I’m just gonna say thanks for tuning in and be well.

EPI 72: What’s Your Design, Human?

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June 11, 2023

No matter how much we may both want it, I cannot help a fish climb a tree!

Because it’s not designed to!

Does that make it a bad fish?

Hell no!

But if we don’t know what makes it tick, how it thinks and why, or what it’s built for, we may expect something from it that it can never give!

You’re the fish.
I’m the coach.

Your Human Design Report is one way we see inside of you, to develop advice that actually makes sense for you.

There are others, and I’m going to tell you about them.

But this one really gives you a lot of bang for your buck.

And I can’t…I WON’T…work with you until we’ve secured yours.

I’d be doing you a massive disservice otherwise.

And that would tarnish the otherwise rosy veneer of our relationship.

I simply can’t have that.

And you should really expect more of me by wanting to know these things about yourself, in order to make best use of me.

Transcript

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Hey, this is Ken Jensen. I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2 thousands. And believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process, was mind blowing to say the least.

Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve show up in my life so you can do the same.

Hello everybody and welcome to episode 72. What’s your design human? Before I explain that, oddly titled title, every now and then the word Smith blanks on the words.

For all of those of you that have been sitting at home on pins and needles, with full bladders afraid to leave the the show’s side in case you might miss the the best development of all.

I fixed the fucking floating cradle for the microphone. Where is this stuff? Right in there. I found I was looking for liquid steel.

I ended up not finding some at the store I hit. What did I get? There’s something like liquid steel. Same shit. You take 2 puddings and you score them out of tubes equally. You stir them together. You become something else.

You stick it on the thing, and it it might as well be welded. J b weld. J b weld. That’s what it was. Just as good. Like, a parker car on that thing. Everything else around it’ll break except that well. This stuff is awesome.

Back when I was a blue collar slob, which was half to almost 2 thirds of my life. J b weld is like duct tape. When it comes to welding and you don’t have welding machines, that’s That’s what you end up using sometimes.

So anyway, the the the cradle thing was really pissing me off. Just 1 more thing and a long list of things keeping me from achieving this I want sort sort of a a vibe. So now that’s that’s settled, and I feel a whole lot better for it.

I’m running a little test today on this episode. Within this podcast studio, this studio has mover moving pads It has sound absorptive panels like big wooden and cloth ones professionally made.

It’s also got it’s also got the shitty foam foam, rich looking things that a lot of people use.

They don’t they don’t do a whole lot but they do something. And then there is dead mass I forget what it is. It’s it’s like rubber with graphite mixed in it. It just absorbs sound like crazy.

I have that on the ceiling above me. In the 4 walls around me to keep it quiet in here, keep the rest of my house from invading and from me even if I get excitable from being too loud for the rest of the house.

But it gets very damn hot inside of here without a fan. So I I got a fan going. The fan, it’s like a little bathroom. It is a little bathroom fan. But this thing was like a hundred and 50 bucks.

I got the lowest whisper rating that ain’t what it’s called, but it it makes the least amount of noise compared to a fan that’s not designed to to emit small amounts of noise and it’s still too loud for recording purposes, but I get so damn hot inside here.

I’ve and I’ve been doing interviews lately. You can see and you will see soon because some of these interviews are on on video. I’m just turning red. I’m literally fucking turning red as the show progresses.

Starting to sweat because I want that optimal audio quality. So what I’m doing is I use a software called Hindenburg I believe they what do they call these things, d a w’s, something, audio workstations, I think they call them.

And is software for processing audio. Hindenburg does quite a bit all on its own. And then I bought there’s different plugins that I have, and I cannot remember the name of the company I found. I was using a different company.

I had perfect plugins all set up beautifully company went out of business after a handful of years, and I struggled to find ones that would do the job the way I needed with the budget I had at the time, and now I have a nice stack of new plugins that do the job nicely.

They they address any problem with your sound quality that you might face.

I’m hoping that between Hindenburg’s in inbuilt performance and the plugins that I’ve got rolling that they’ll take out the of that fan. Just for this 1 episode, I’d like not to sweat the debt and boil in my own blood.

We’ll see what happens. This is also, if you’ve been following along, my actual first video podcast episode to put on YouTube. Why first when I said last week’s was gonna be the first?

Well, for the dumbest of reasons, As I was testing my setup, I have my iPhone in front of me on a tripod, and then I have the normal podcast gear set up around me with the the microphone on a boom, the mixing board to 1 side, my rolling recorder to the other side, they’re all tied together.

And in in the I I had never attempted to video record and audio record as 2 separate things at the same time. So in the testing, I’ve got backwards on the buttons, a perfect in particular to 1 of my iPhone.

It has a little a little clock, a little a little count up timer that I forgot to look for, and I recorded the whole damn video talking about how great it was gonna look on YouTube, and there was no video.

And I sat there for about not much longer than a second and a half, just metaphorically eating my own face and feeling like an idiot.

I’ve I mentioned in the last episode, I believe, and many times before, you’re gonna run into technical issues as you build your marketing empire, your marketing your marketing empire and anything to to do with your website, if this stuff isn’t already your innate skill set, and even if it is, shit just goes sideways.

Even in this case, I I had a face ring that sits around the phone to light up my face nice, fucking thing just wouldn’t come on. Wouldn’t come on. I go on I and there’s and there’s no name on it.

I’m like, okay, well that’s bad. Not don’t even say Acamy or Brandex. I went into Amazon where I ordered it and and found the order. I ordered just 10 years ago, and there was a stack of comments about people.

I used this thing 4 times and shit to bed. I used it 5 times and it doesn’t come on anymore. Alright. So I’m 1 of these lucky few. And so next time around, I’ll get a face a face light ring that is is more dependable than that.

But for now, I’m liking what what my face looks like on the video here. And I use a an app called Focus on my iPhone that does all kinds of magical wizardry to make a video come out right anyhow.

So I don’t wanna beat everybody over the head with all the technical aspects. But again, I’m always teaching what I do in case you want to follow in my footsteps.

And these are the things you might face. Even when the when the video failed to record, I I swear. I was I wasn’t mad even entire 2 seconds. It was like, you just get used to it.

You get used to it and then you you improve. You adapt. You find ways around it. And believe there are there is not lives hanging on the line. There is not a million or even 10000 dollars on the line if that video didn’t get made.

I might feel differently. There was, but that’s not the case right now. Not not for this. And you just get used to it. Still get pissed, but it just doesn’t bother you as much.

You you just like, I’m always always telling you guys just keep moving. Just keep moving. Shit’s always gonna crap out and that’s it. What I wanted to talk about today was the human design report.

I’ve been finding more evidence of people in completely unrelated industries making a big deal out about out of knowing your human design report, knowing a client’s human design report before attempting to help that client because it’s necessary without knowing what’s in that report, most of your advice is gonna be wrong.

It it it’s it’s not that it’s bad advice. It’s just not gonna match that person. And that’s another thing I’ve learned. Everybody that coaches or anything online at all.

All the advice is good if it works for you. Nobody’s really all that wrong. Nobody’s lying to you when it comes to advice. It’s all good advice, but does it match your circumstances? Does it match your personality.

And in this case, if you don’t know your human design report results, you could be so far off the mark with with with your own life as an individual and definitely with helping a client or or anyone you’re trying to help in your life.

Now the reason I say that last part, I had a minor family emergency the other night, and I’m not going to share any details. And this is an ongoing battle with somebody somebody close to me and it matters that we win this battle.

And I had run out of fresh ways to come at this problem even though it’s in my sweet spot and the thing I know the most about And then it dawned on me. I’m always telling I tell my people, there’s now mandatory.

It’s mandatory. If you’re not willing to go fork over. I think it’s all a 39 dollars. I understand if you can’t. But even then, if you can’t afford that, you can’t afford to work with me.

But If you are not willing to fork over 39 bucks, I think it is, to get your human design report so that someone like me can help you properly, we already can’t work together regardless of the reason that that makes you not wanna fork over 39.

I need to know what’s in that report so I can tell you the best advice possible so I can ask the right questions as a coach.

So I can motivate you properly. Well, I’m very aware of this now within my business, and I hadn’t thought to apply it to this situation.

So I didn’t then. If this occurred to me later and I have since got the the report for this person And now I have some very in-depth material to fuel a future conversation with that person.

I will now know better what I’m talking about because I know what’s driving them, and I’ll be able to say the things that that reached them. And that can actually be helpful.

You the human design report and oh there’s 1 other, but I’ll I’ll I’ll save it just to keep the focus on the human design report. That changed my life. It really did. It opened my eyes to certain things.

Well, 1 of the biggest was, as I stay as I stated earlier, I’ve been a blue collar guy most of my life. If not quite 2 thirds, at least half, I am really good at fixing stuff. I have fixed everything except cars.

I’ve worked on factory equipment that is bizarre, complex, huge I have worked on building. I have worked in factories where the entire building including what was on the walls and the ceiling under the floor.

And and and external systems all tied into massive production lines with computer stations every 30 feet varying kinds of systems with robotics and lasers and air and and and hydraulics and high speed equipment.

I was at 1 place that had a machine that spun around a million miles an hour and it was the size of a Mac pickup.

And I hated working on it and if something broke deep inside, it only our skinniest guys could even physically get in it to work on it, which was a relief. But I’m not bragging.

I just I and I was never the best at that. I was always a solid intermediate and then I had a couple shiny areas depending on whatever I was fixing. And I was capable, but it aged me, it depressed me, it angered me, it enraged me.

Whenever I fixed something, the the victorious feeling was brief. The relief that this thing wasn’t fucking with me anymore and I could get on with my life was way larger than the feeling of victory.

So my human design report showed that I am somebody that the let’s see. I’m mixing up 1 with the other, but this mattered as well.

It it it it counted in a human design report too. I I am an ideas guy. I deal in the abstract. I I deal in feelings. I deal in my my own feelings lead the way, and I help people best with how how they feel, how they feel about me.

It’s all emotions. And then I can put it to words because I’m I’m more of the the artist temperament in this case, an author, and a speaker.

None of this has a shit to do with turning a wrench. It turns out in that part of things, I’m just I’m I’m capable.

And in some cases, I’m very capable, but III hate all of it. So I stress. Again, I will not even work with you if you don’t get that report first because it’s we’re we’re hamstringing ourselves.

I I can’t give you the best help. It’s impossible. And that’s a system I I know best and it’s very inexpensive to get these answers.

And I will be getting certified in that. I made up my mind, that that’s gonna come in the near future as well. I wanna know this on an extremely deep detailed level. And there’s another system as well.

I’ll talk about that maybe the next episode. We’ll see where I where I feel about, you know, where what I’m feeling then. So right now as I’m looking at this, I realize I’m hardly ever looking at the the camera on my phone.

I like when I’m watching a video to have people make eye contact I’m not always making eye contact. For some reason, I’ve been kinda focusing on my microphone.

Maybe it’s because I’m so fucking happy with my JB weld situation. I still enjoy certain aspects of of fixing things. I like defeating problems. And to note that this thing is rock solid once again.

Not even once again. It’s in better shape than the manufacturer gave it to me in the first place. It just that it really does please me. It’s just these little things please the shit out of me.

So I’m gonna find out where the human design report leads me with with my person. This is of personal nature. This isn’t a client, and I I need to do the best I possibly can. I I would anyway, but you know what I mean.

It’s personal. It’s personal. I’ve gotta get this right. And more than 1 person depends on me to get this right with this person. So we’ll see what happens. I don’t have much else to say today than that.

Get even before you work with me, If you want your life to get better, if you wanna know where you should take your energies and your focus, your attention, if you wanna find out what your energies are and and what your skill set might be for real.

Start with your human design report.

I use Cripes. It’s Chetan Parkin, CHETAN, Parkin is PARKYN. And his wife’s name is Carla Eastwood. Shatin is British and he is a blast. There’s a there’s a bounce to his delivery of anything he’s saying.

And he delivers the the the darkest of news with the sunniest of dispositions. He he is he’s 1 of the coolest people I ever talked to because I paid to have him go into great depth and tell me all about my report.

And I’ll share this much. There was a moment. This this is kinda it it’s alright. I’m alright sharing it. There there there was a moment as he was going through my chart chart report.

He said there’s something here about your father and I threw out a couple of assumptions based on everything that already talked about up to that point as to what I thought my father might have a part to play in in in my my chart reading and my life.

And he kinda just shut that down. Just said, no.

And and and and he he trailed off. He trailed off, and we left that topic. I knew that that was something important. I didn’t obsess over it. I was actually rather excited, but I didn’t miss what just happened. Something just happened.

It was it was only a couple years later that my dad died, and I can tell you that what has happened to me since my dad died and in the months to the build up, you know, before he died, I had to evolve and change in so many ways that I I did not want to.

I had to grow as a part and I had to grow as a man. I had to grow as a father. I had to grow as a son.

I had to I I had to grow in in every way to support the family around me. And I had to take my dad’s job as far as the the rock of the family. And this is not like, oh, great. It’s my turn or I’ll show y’all nothing was nothing.

I it was just it was just my awareness of responsibility, and I always I knew the older I got. It’s I think it’s gonna be me that that does this. And because it has to be, and it became that.

And there was at 1 point, something happened in my head and not an event. It was a feeling. It was a kind of pressure and it was an awareness that I cannot remain exactly the same as I am and and pull this all off, at least not well.

And my life, my dad died last year in August, and my life has got has become unbelievably complex in more ways than I even saw coming, and actually a lot of them are for good reasons.

But managing the complexity has required something of me. I really don’t believe I’ve faced I don’t believe I face something that’s formidable since I actively attacked bipolar almost 20 years ago.

And took the handful of years, it took me to put that system together that you can find in a course on bipolarexcellence dot com. Listen on overlooked at. I have not faced something as formidable as that till now.

There’s been all kinds of problems and issues like like all of us have but not in the the not in in in the the web filled sphere of of totality that it that that has become my life.

Have I had this many interlocking problems hit me at once on a scale of of of this sort with an intensity of this sort and with The importance attached to a lot of the outcomes, should I not do things well?

In the middle of it all, This bipolar excellence was and still is evolving as I do it.

And I have to be somebody who can keep up with all of that and manage it well without, you know, without my brain cracking all over again like it did 20 years ago.

Now that’s not a thing. I’ve been stressed out, fatigued. I am not taking care of myself physically.

Figures my throat’s gotta do this now. You know what? I might have a little cup of coffee. I am I am pushing myself to the max, and I’m only partially taken care of myself. That had been something I wanted to talk about.

I’m not gonna go on about that. Just you’re gonna see over and over even from me. What you’re trying to do is not gonna work as well as as it would if you took care of yourself holistically.

Well, I also know that there’s a price to be paid. This is another thing you’ll hear from any coach over any reason at all. There’s always a price to pay to make it to the next level.

And what I’ve realized is with everything that’s going on in my life, I cannot take care of myself physically and to a degree mentally the way I want at all until the majority of these non business related problems are solved and they almost all are.

I guess something I gotta solve at my day job. Which is coming right around the corner that’s gonna make this all tremendously easier for me. And as far as the business I do this as I’m able whenever I have the energy and the time.

When I was a younger man, I could bang away at this if I was awake the end. I could just go and go and go. Well, for 1, I’ve built it up to a size now. That I don’t need to go and go and go.

I just need certain things to be fixed. I am right on the cusp of this even becoming a routine endeavor. What what the daily tasks are to feed this thing and get it out to the world and help people.

It’s funny because the coaching part is the easiest part. Working with clients is the easiest part. All this other stuff it’s it’s draining. And but I got it. I like where my head’s at. I’m handling. I’m maintaining it.

And I have I got a gut feeling on how what the time limit is that I can push this hard while not living as well as I need to in order to do any of it. Before I’ll cross a line, and then I’m gonna have to look hard at my health.

But when I’m reaching that point, I’m willing to pay that price. I’m not happy about it, which pushes me a little harder and because I want I want back in the gym. I wanna eat better.

I want a bunch of things that I’m not doing right now. But Whatever I became up to this point to do what I’m doing is enough. And then I got a little bit more left than me to give to over the top and that is currently happening.

I just got interviewed by another another gentleman for another coaching podcast and I’m waiting for that to be be published so I can share it with you. But in that podcast, which I don’t have the details in front of me now.

But I got worked. This guy worked me. I had to come up with answers I wasn’t expecting to come up with and think thinking away, I wasn’t used to thinking and it it it it made me tired, but the interview went very very well.

But it also opened my eyes to some things. Of course, there was things I wished I would have said. That’s always the case with this. Every single episode, there’s shit I wish I would have said.

There’s things I forget entirely or or thoughts I don’t finish that had something really awesome if I’d have said 1 more thing. You know, that that you you’ll don’t go crazy with that when when it’s your turn.

Don’t worry about You just do the best you can and it’s gonna be fine. But and talking to the last interviewer and he was interviewing me, about my coaching in my life.

I made another decision of of where I could tighten something up and I ended up saying it in the new video on my home page on bipolar excellence dot com.

He that the process of talking to him and trying to deliver what he needed, fine tune my thinking, stilled my thoughts down into a clearer path that I was able to say in that video.

And now So, I mean, even as you’re doing the thing, even as you’re with other people, even as you’re succeeding, you’re still learning.

You’re always gonna learn. You should learn till you’re in the box or demented, and I hope for your sake, it’s in the box first.

You should be learning till the day you drop. That’s my goal. I mean why not? So anyway, I can’t think of a more gray way to end than that and that wasn’t even as grateful as I’da liked. Let’s all just listen.

I’m gonna leave you with this. Alright? As you go to sleep tonight after listening to this episode, so just feel warm and fuzzy in your heart like I do knowing knowing that it’s a very good thing that the j b weld worked on the cradle.

Alright everybody. You all be well out there. Can’t wait to work with you.

EPI 67: Eddie Pepitone: The Insane Improbability Of Silver Linings

EPI-67: Eddie Pepitone: The Insane Improbability Of Silver Linings

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May 7, 2023

Ken Jensen, Eddie Pepitone, Dorian Roberts: Mahoney’s 2023

I don’t truthfully know how I can shoehorn my night with Eddie Pepitone, my friend Dorian and I, into this episode’s message.

And I don’t think I care!

I just wanted to use this pic before I forgot about it!

HA!

(It’s my island! Braveheart reference!)

Here. have some more Eddie!

As you learn, ponder, assemble, rearrange, gain feedback, f*** up, and all, there will be silver linings galore.

They come about more often the longer you apply yourself to The Mission.

They will often not be immediate. But sometimes they will be freakishly fast after something you thought just ended the whole program!

My point here is, when everything breaks down, blows up or lands you in some awful situation you never saw coming, you are frequently experiencing what will later be seen as some of your largest sideways victories.

Everything you do will result in fights you don’t always win.

It’s only later that you discover had you won EVERY fight, you’d have lost the entire war!

These lessons can only come with time.

Patience, self-grace, retrospection and introspection will eventually reveal these things to be the gifts they always were.

Knowing this, as you build, takes the sting out of the losses when the silver lining is nowhere to be seen.

Trust me on this and you’ll get better at spotting the silver long before it ever hits.

It becomes a feeling. And it helps you survive the hard shots more easily the longer you go.

You just sort of come to this…understanding…with yourself and your process, to where even the sh***iest moments have a shimmer of goodness around their edges that you can already see coming.

Did that all just make sense? I hope so. I’m working on overtime here.

Transcript

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Hello, fellow trauma survivors. This is Ken and this is episode 67. The insane improbability of silver linings. I’m struggling to find 1 in the present just with the act of making tonight’s podcast.

If you could see this cobbled together So as you may recall, Last week, the fucking clip that was barely welded had just a a hint of a welder’s attention in passing somewhere at the factory when they made the fucking thing that holds the the little floaty nest for my microphone so that it doesn’t pick up vibrations from the from the table or motion around it.

That broke free. So I haven’t yet gotten around to getting a new microphone.

I had another 1 at the ready but it’s a different kind of of microphone. It’s It picks up whatever’s in the room. The 1 I’m using here, you’re supposed to talk straight into the end of it.

And I’m kind of looking forward to getting rid of it so that I have more comfort in in speaking. I’ve been looking at podcasts online that have video attached, which I will have soon as well.

And I see some ideas for microphones that I’ll I’ll end up getting But for now, I found I pull III It occurred to me that I can easily fix the clip for the the nest mount if I just go get me some liquid steel, whoop some up, put a little couple dabs on there.

And it would’ve it’s like a weld. Done that those things don’t break. Well, in my shopping spree last night which I’m a terrible shopper.

I really am I find a liquid steel. And they have new versions now as well. And who knows why I didn’t just grab the shit I’m familiar with. I grabbed some of the new shit because Who knows?

It looked like it might be cleaner and neater. So and it premixes it inside 1 container, the old liquid steel 2 tubes of shit, you spurt them out together and then stir them up with a stick, kind of caveman style, kind of analog.

This other 1 I’ve I got was look nice and digital in the new age. Had a couple of tubes that combined into 1 and mixed the things at the same time with a plunger. Yeah. Well, I forgot about the nozzle that went on the front.

I’m thinking about tubes from the old days. I never even put the nozzle on the front. It’s still in the package. I’m squeezing them and 1 half of the stuff comes out without the other half.

And I end up putting that on the on the clip. And of course, that was only 1 half of the formula, so nothing nothing sealed. But I don’t know that till the next day, which was today.

Then I look at my situation and realized what an idiot I was and I put the little nozzle on and spurts some through to make to running right and mixing right and I attached some of that on.

Now that worked a little better but probably I didn’t do a good enough job of getting the the old stuff out of the way first and it it’s it’s grabbing on but nowhere near fast enough.

Should have been done already. It’s supposed to cure in an hour. It’s sort of cured and that was many hours ago.

So I’m like, okay, now I can’t mount the the nest to the boom arm. And I’m I’m starting to get hot. It’s these little things that get me hot, same as everybody else. And it occurs to me I’m like, well, I got that under microphone.

That’s got a nest. It’s just the the sound it it captures isn’t as rich. And lately for some reason something changed I can’t get the sound right on my finished product anyway.

So I’m like what the hell’s the difference? It’ll sound not good in some whole new interesting way when just play with it as we can and I’ll work with it however I can with the tools on hand and it’ll sound it’ll sound good enough.

The information’s the important part. There’ll come a time when I can get these things professionally produced and it’ll be out of my hands anyway. Just keep moving. Like I’m always telling you guys, just keep moving.

So I go find the the condenser microphone, which I bought a long time ago, I’m sure it’s still fine but it does not connect. It connected to my old laptop but it does not connect to my new iMac, the desktop mac.

There’s there’s no fitting to shove the old style USB plug into. And Now now now I’m going thermonuclear in my mind and I’m trying not to scream and yell and holler and and and almost doing it.

At least not at length. And because I can’t believe now I now I don’t have the right hole on the back of the computer. Now a hole’s stopping me.

I’m really starting to spin the fuck out. So I go through all my cables. You know how cables just kinda come to you and you got 7000 of them and you have no idea what they came with or how you collect them. Well none of them worked.

None of them matched. So I ordered a cable. Which will be here Wednesday, which does us no good tonight. So right now, I use the nest from the condensing my phone and I took the I think it’s called a shotgun mic.

I have that sitting loosely in that nest and I’m being careful to not touch the tabletop. And the way it’s designed, the cable that goes into the bottom of the microphone is is it sticks out further then the base for the nest is tall.

So it would hit the table. So I have this whole thing balanced on my morning ritual snack boxes. My dates and my crackers. It man, I’ll tell you what guys, whatever it takes.

Alright? That’s that’s the first lesson. Whatever it takes, just keep your shit moving. It doesn’t matter. In the long run, by the time any some people find me, they will never even have heard any of this old stuff.

This will have become old. You guys will laugh. You’ll be in the inner circle where we’ll laugh about the good old days. When Ken seemed to do this, you know, like he took a brick to the head and but but trooper that he is that he was.

He kept going with his special self Anyway, so this seems to be working. I got the headphones on and I’m not hearing any any movement out of the microphone.

So And as I sit down to get ready to record in my bad cave, which I spent a lot of money on and put a lot of work into to build myself with, dead mass material and moving pads and and a bunch of other stuff.

I hear on motor running somewhere. An electric motor running somewhere.

It’s it’s a nearby freezer in the house and something changed outside the room I did a little housecleaning and something moved that clearly must have eaten up that sound because I’ve never heard that in here before.

Now I can hear the basically it’s a refrigerator. Compressor. I can hear it running. I’m like you gotta be shitting me. That went off all the while I was fixing the microphone. And then as I get ready to hit record, it came back on.

I took a moment to be with that rage that micro rage out burst, no noise, no nothing. I just sat and stood. As I went to open my mouth to record, the town I live in has a fucking fire station, you know, air air siren thing.

I’ve hated it my entire goddamn life. I don’t see the point in today’s days and day and age with cell phones and at the very minimal pagers and you can find people.

Without blasting the entire fucking neighborhood awake with an air siren that can be heard miles and miles and miles. I just don’t care.

I’ve hated this thing my whole life. So, anyway, that’s what that’s what I’ve been dealing with just to get this episode off the ground. There’s other things, but, you know, we’ll have to just call it a call it a raging day there.

Now be the title, the insane improbability of silver linings, I can’t see it right now in regards to what I just shared. It’ll come later. The silver lining I’m mainly going to talk about is what happened recently with my mom’s house.

I shared earlier She cashed in an investment that was supposed to be something that would feed her and take care of medical bills or whatever into old age.

She cashed 1 of those in and it was substantial to pay for what ended up being an overpriced job by somebody that doesn’t know what the hell they’re doing.

It it gone wrong in so many ways and it it’s still happening. It’s gone over time. It’s been a hard thing to live with, and we just keep finding more and more things.

This contractor just doesn’t do right. I’m not gonna say their name. I’m not vindictive that way. I don’t think anything good comes from that. But I definitely won’t forward their name on anybody that might need what what it is they do.

I just ain’t gonna share I learned a long time ago when you talk bad shit about people, it it just comes back to haunt you some way. And if nothing else, it it’s just not a way to move through the world.

As pissed as I am, and there’s the the disc contractor’s given us plenty to be pissed about. As pissed as I am, I do not believe it was done in malice. I just believe they’re not good at what they do.

The the guys that are working here, I believe they’re working at their top capacity, top capability. It’s just that they shouldn’t be here doing anything period. Somebody with a higher skill set should be doing it.

You know what I’m saying? They’re wonderful. We really like these guys. And then I’m at work all the time. I’m not here to oversee something. I know a little bit about everything they’re doing, everything.

I can catch things as they’re going sideways but I’m not here to see it because I gotta fucking eat so I gotta go to work. For now, for now. Work is coming close to being closed out.

So the silver lining in this particular case is what how and when I went to look for help, my same contractor gave us a quote for the roof that turned out to be insane. I didn’t even know till I started asking around.

And I called at first I called a a local Veterans Services Agency and a government agency, and I knew they couldn’t help me. I knew they didn’t have any program that applied to our situation, and they did not.

But they had a private network of local business people and other people who cared about vets and just were at the ready to help vets. In a time of need. So that sprung into action.

I talked about that on the the last episode I think. It got it got big. I don’t feel like covering everything because it has been a lot. Matter of fact, if you go to gofundme dot com and just punch in Ken Jensen.

You’ll see me and with mom around my dad and the go fund me page I built. It explains the whole incredible story that this has turned into. It’s turned into just something so huge and so good with so many people giving so much.

And everybody working in concert to make sure that a a charity got involved and we have to we have to meet certain requirements to receive their funding my dad’s old Army unit kicked in big time and they wanted to help.

They’ve been wanting to help ever since he died last August.

20 23. Now, he died, or, yeah, it’s 20 23. He died in 20 22 in August. And they’ve been dying to do something for him because he gave so much to so many. It was really an incredible amount of giving he did that was just his nature.

He never wanted anything for anything. It’s just how he moved through today. So these guys, because they loved him so much, have been dying to help any way possible.

And and here I handed them a, you know, a project to do that very thing. So we’ve figured out a plan so far the the charity would only pay for stuff if licensed insured companies were doing the work.

Now in our personal network, we have retired master contractors who can do everything under the sun, a handful of them and most of the guys in this unit, there were mechanics, there were builders.

They did that in the marines. They’re they’re all guys that did stuff with their hands and and some of them own properties and stuff.

They know what they’re doing. They can do everything needs to be done. It’ll be done well, it’ll be done up to code, but they’re not professionals. It’s another 1 of them things.

There’s but, you know, don’t even get me started on on fucking with the government requiring people to have a registration to do the dumbest shit side note, did you know the government just for you to cut hair?

Just for you to cut hair. There’s something like a 6000 hour lab time requirement before they’ll let you cut fucking hair and anybody that cuts hair is already good at it. That’s why they want to do it for pay. So anyway, where was I?

Okay. So the silver lining with the with the house. So we figured out a way to have the charity pay for most most of the big things, the really big things. Because it was more than what we even originally started out with.

The major systems in the house needed to be taken care of. A generator had to be purchased, a whole house generator. Mom mom’s she’s 75. I don’t When I move to where I’m going next, I won’t be close by.

I don’t want her here with a small generator that got to pull out of the shed, hook into the house, pour fuel, switch a bunch of switches off of commercial power onto house power, and do that in the middle of a storm in the dark which is when it’ll happen.

No. I I just want I want when the 1 when the 1 power goes out and new power comes on. Maybe she pushes a button. That’s it. And I don’t want it to be enough to where it’s operating a kitchen light in the fridge.

I want the whole house up and running. I don’t want her to be insecure in any fashion. That’s now being taken care of. Then there’s a bunch of small projects where people are donating oh, everyone’s donating time, time and labor.

Nobody’s charging for any of that, even the stuff that falls out the purview of falls outside the purview of the charity’s requirements and mom’s gonna have a, you know, a completely rebuilt house at this point and sorry to say, once the guys are here, we’re gonna have him come and look at the stuff the first guy never did right and get some things tuned up the way they should have been done in the first place.

And the silver lining part here is if the first guy hadn’t overcharged us to the degree he did. None of this other project thing would have taken place.

And if far outweighs the cost incurred so far of dealing with this other company in time, stress and money. It’s it’s more Their shoddiness has more than than been repaid by the awesome thing that got turned on in response to it.

Now we’re still not happy the the problem is still is still taking place and has yet to be resolved but so much other good, you know, so so many other good things came out of it, it it it literally has been worth the bad things that preceded it.

You’re going to find this same scenario playing out countless times as you try to take your story pro and you have to take your story pro.

If your story is only a book, you might win But as I got taught a long time ago, a book by another company that kicked off my entire adventure that led you to me. The book is just the world’s best business card.

If you, if 2 people, you and someone else stand up in a crowd, you guys the exact same service to sell for the exact same value, but 1 of you wrote a book about it, who’s the audience gonna pick?

That’s what the good of a book is. You might do great with a book.

You might sell a lot of them, but it’s it’s just It it’s it’s not a reasonable win to achieve. The book is a tool to help market the rest of your business. You’re gonna write a book some of you and please do. You you you need to.

But, you know, don’t don’t think you’re gonna Stephen King it off the back of that. That’s that’s rare. Anyway, you’re going to work with software. You’re going to hire hire other third party services to help you do things.

That you think is gonna solve problems, and sometimes they will. But what’s gonna happen in the doing of whatever it is you’re putting together Things are not gonna be what you thought they are.

They’re not gonna mesh well with the things that already existed or they’re gonna they’re going to expose some other condition that needs to be solved that couldn’t be seen until you turn the new thing on.

And it’s gonna fuck up the whole plan and you’re gonna have to redo that part of it possibly to even include using the thing you just bought or you might have to rebuild half or all of your system.

Now that you see better what’s going on.

There’s a constant attacking the problem nibbling away at it, making some moves and then stepping back and getting feedback to see where you’re at and if you’re still right and if there’s a better way to go.

And every now and then, you’re gonna have to let go of pieces of your your plan, your dream, your project that it’s gonna become evident.

There are a problem. They either are outdated or something in use shifted to where this thing either no longer works or it doesn’t work the way you need it to work which is what happened to me.

When I wrote my book and used to be public about helping people fight bipolar.

I don’t help people fight bipolar directly anymore. I give away the system for doing it. And I’ll answer questions with examples from my life about how the the things I I promote help me. I won’t actually help anyone be bipolar.

I don’t want to for a number of reasons. And it’s just not I ain’t doing it. But If I hadn’t have taken that journey, I wouldn’t have become what I am now, which is helping other survivors of any type of trauma.

Take their story, turn it into a business so that both the world can find out about the story and benefit from it and you the creator, the storyteller can benefit for the work.

You need to get paid for the time and effort and expense you’re gonna lay out to share this story.

Even a church has a collection plate. Everything is a business. Everything has a bottom line. A war can stop because there’s no budget to keep fighting it.

Everything has a bottom line. Now you might be able to afford to just pay for things and not care and now you’re just you know you’re just running without truism Well, that’s great.

But then, you know, you and I aren’t gonna work together because I got nothing to add to that.

God speed, but, you know, you you don’t need me. And and that’s fine if that’s what makes you happy but that’s not why you’re listening to me.

And I personally in the telling of my story used it to show how I scaled up, how I now use it as a tool, the telling of my story is not It’s not the thing anymore.

It’s an item within the thing that helped bring the bigger thing to life.

I cannot wait to work with those of you that want to hit the ground running and get out your story big and loud to the world in every way possible in a sensible way in an affordable way And in a way that doesn’t turn you old before your time as well.

There is a way to do that. There is gonna be an expenditure, effort, and energy and an accumulation of stress that is unavoidable.

I haven’t heard of anybody that just sails swimmingly into their bright shiny golden coated future. It’s not a thing. But depending on how things pan out, you don’t have to stress and suffer for as long as others.

Hopefully, with what I’ve learned and what I share in this podcast and where you can see that I’ve been exposed to a lot pretty much entirely about my own hand and I’ve learned a lot of stuff the hard way.

And when you learn things the hard way, that’s when the lessons remain clear and crisp in your head and it allows you to direct others.

You’ll hear a lot of time you hear a lot of times where people say don’t make the mistakes I made and that you can hire me because this is what other people say.

Hire me because then I can keep you from making the mistakes I made. Okay. Potentially, but here I’m here to tell you.

Even with me helping you not make the mistakes I made, you’re gonna make some of them anyway because it’s it’s the part of the growth process of doing this. This. And you’ll make brand new mistakes I never even saw before.

And But I’ll be at your side to help recover and keep moving and make use of whatever whatever whatever bits are left after the initial bomb goes off, I’ll help you make use of whatever we find that’s still usable and still make sense and I’ll keep you going and I’ll keep you motivated the same way other people have done for me.

I’ll never shine you on. I’m never gonna sell you false bill of goods. I’m not gonna tell you this is gonna be easy when it ain’t.

I’m telling you to buck up and get ready for a very large fight about the only thing we really have a the only thing we might be able to mitigate is how bitter it does or does not get. And I’m good at that. I’m good at that.

I’m good at finding the silver linings. I do it all the time at my day job. It’s often just a matter of reframing. You look at the same thing. It’s it’s not that only 10 It’s how they put it. You know, it’s glass half full, half empty.

It’s it’s basically that. You can see the glasses, it’s already half of it’s gone or you can see it as there’s still half of it left. Anyway, that’s it. I’m tapped and I will talk to you guys soon. Oh, okay.

Yeah, let me add this. Please go to Apple Podcast and give me a great big fat huge 5 star review. Write something short and sweet. I need more and more people to find out about me. There’s some cool things happening in the background.

I’m I’m get I’m having people reach out to me to be a guest. And people want to be a guest on my show. That’s starting to pick up some steam and you guys will start hearing about you know you’ll see the direct results in this podcast.

As I build these things. I only get found when the machines are working in my favor. So that’s 1 way you can easily help me put the machines to work in my favor.

Go to Apple Podcasts and go to my find my site, punch in Ken Jensen, punch in bipolar action either 1 takes you to my site, scroll down and past the first handful episode.

You’ll see the review thing at the bottom. Give me a nice review.

If you’re not gonna give me 5 stars, I can’t worship. I’m not supposed to co worship, but don’t give me less than 5 stars. What the fuck does that? I wouldn’t do it to you. Alright, guys. Have a good week. Be well.