Hello, fellow trauma survivors. This is Ken and this is episode 67. The insane improbability of silver linings. I’m struggling to find 1 in the present just with the act of making tonight’s podcast.

If you could see this cobbled together So as you may recall, Last week, the fucking clip that was barely welded had just a a hint of a welder’s attention in passing somewhere at the factory when they made the fucking thing that holds the the little floaty nest for my microphone so that it doesn’t pick up vibrations from the from the table or motion around it.

That broke free. So I haven’t yet gotten around to getting a new microphone.

I had another 1 at the ready but it’s a different kind of of microphone. It’s It picks up whatever’s in the room. The 1 I’m using here, you’re supposed to talk straight into the end of it.

And I’m kind of looking forward to getting rid of it so that I have more comfort in in speaking. I’ve been looking at podcasts online that have video attached, which I will have soon as well.

And I see some ideas for microphones that I’ll I’ll end up getting But for now, I found I pull III It occurred to me that I can easily fix the clip for the the nest mount if I just go get me some liquid steel, whoop some up, put a little couple dabs on there.

And it would’ve it’s like a weld. Done that those things don’t break. Well, in my shopping spree last night which I’m a terrible shopper.

I really am I find a liquid steel. And they have new versions now as well. And who knows why I didn’t just grab the shit I’m familiar with. I grabbed some of the new shit because Who knows?

It looked like it might be cleaner and neater. So and it premixes it inside 1 container, the old liquid steel 2 tubes of shit, you spurt them out together and then stir them up with a stick, kind of caveman style, kind of analog.

This other 1 I’ve I got was look nice and digital in the new age. Had a couple of tubes that combined into 1 and mixed the things at the same time with a plunger. Yeah. Well, I forgot about the nozzle that went on the front.

I’m thinking about tubes from the old days. I never even put the nozzle on the front. It’s still in the package. I’m squeezing them and 1 half of the stuff comes out without the other half.

And I end up putting that on the on the clip. And of course, that was only 1 half of the formula, so nothing nothing sealed. But I don’t know that till the next day, which was today.

Then I look at my situation and realized what an idiot I was and I put the little nozzle on and spurts some through to make to running right and mixing right and I attached some of that on.

Now that worked a little better but probably I didn’t do a good enough job of getting the the old stuff out of the way first and it it’s it’s grabbing on but nowhere near fast enough.

Should have been done already. It’s supposed to cure in an hour. It’s sort of cured and that was many hours ago.

So I’m like, okay, now I can’t mount the the nest to the boom arm. And I’m I’m starting to get hot. It’s these little things that get me hot, same as everybody else. And it occurs to me I’m like, well, I got that under microphone.

That’s got a nest. It’s just the the sound it it captures isn’t as rich. And lately for some reason something changed I can’t get the sound right on my finished product anyway.

So I’m like what the hell’s the difference? It’ll sound not good in some whole new interesting way when just play with it as we can and I’ll work with it however I can with the tools on hand and it’ll sound it’ll sound good enough.

The information’s the important part. There’ll come a time when I can get these things professionally produced and it’ll be out of my hands anyway. Just keep moving. Like I’m always telling you guys, just keep moving.

So I go find the the condenser microphone, which I bought a long time ago, I’m sure it’s still fine but it does not connect. It connected to my old laptop but it does not connect to my new iMac, the desktop mac.

There’s there’s no fitting to shove the old style USB plug into. And Now now now I’m going thermonuclear in my mind and I’m trying not to scream and yell and holler and and and almost doing it.

At least not at length. And because I can’t believe now I now I don’t have the right hole on the back of the computer. Now a hole’s stopping me.

I’m really starting to spin the fuck out. So I go through all my cables. You know how cables just kinda come to you and you got 7000 of them and you have no idea what they came with or how you collect them. Well none of them worked.

None of them matched. So I ordered a cable. Which will be here Wednesday, which does us no good tonight. So right now, I use the nest from the condensing my phone and I took the I think it’s called a shotgun mic.

I have that sitting loosely in that nest and I’m being careful to not touch the tabletop. And the way it’s designed, the cable that goes into the bottom of the microphone is is it sticks out further then the base for the nest is tall.

So it would hit the table. So I have this whole thing balanced on my morning ritual snack boxes. My dates and my crackers. It man, I’ll tell you what guys, whatever it takes.

Alright? That’s that’s the first lesson. Whatever it takes, just keep your shit moving. It doesn’t matter. In the long run, by the time any some people find me, they will never even have heard any of this old stuff.

This will have become old. You guys will laugh. You’ll be in the inner circle where we’ll laugh about the good old days. When Ken seemed to do this, you know, like he took a brick to the head and but but trooper that he is that he was.

He kept going with his special self Anyway, so this seems to be working. I got the headphones on and I’m not hearing any any movement out of the microphone.

So And as I sit down to get ready to record in my bad cave, which I spent a lot of money on and put a lot of work into to build myself with, dead mass material and moving pads and and a bunch of other stuff.

I hear on motor running somewhere. An electric motor running somewhere.

It’s it’s a nearby freezer in the house and something changed outside the room I did a little housecleaning and something moved that clearly must have eaten up that sound because I’ve never heard that in here before.

Now I can hear the basically it’s a refrigerator. Compressor. I can hear it running. I’m like you gotta be shitting me. That went off all the while I was fixing the microphone. And then as I get ready to hit record, it came back on.

I took a moment to be with that rage that micro rage out burst, no noise, no nothing. I just sat and stood. As I went to open my mouth to record, the town I live in has a fucking fire station, you know, air air siren thing.

I’ve hated it my entire goddamn life. I don’t see the point in today’s days and day and age with cell phones and at the very minimal pagers and you can find people.

Without blasting the entire fucking neighborhood awake with an air siren that can be heard miles and miles and miles. I just don’t care.

I’ve hated this thing my whole life. So, anyway, that’s what that’s what I’ve been dealing with just to get this episode off the ground. There’s other things, but, you know, we’ll have to just call it a call it a raging day there.

Now be the title, the insane improbability of silver linings, I can’t see it right now in regards to what I just shared. It’ll come later. The silver lining I’m mainly going to talk about is what happened recently with my mom’s house.

I shared earlier She cashed in an investment that was supposed to be something that would feed her and take care of medical bills or whatever into old age.

She cashed 1 of those in and it was substantial to pay for what ended up being an overpriced job by somebody that doesn’t know what the hell they’re doing.

It it gone wrong in so many ways and it it’s still happening. It’s gone over time. It’s been a hard thing to live with, and we just keep finding more and more things.

This contractor just doesn’t do right. I’m not gonna say their name. I’m not vindictive that way. I don’t think anything good comes from that. But I definitely won’t forward their name on anybody that might need what what it is they do.

I just ain’t gonna share I learned a long time ago when you talk bad shit about people, it it just comes back to haunt you some way. And if nothing else, it it’s just not a way to move through the world.

As pissed as I am, and there’s the the disc contractor’s given us plenty to be pissed about. As pissed as I am, I do not believe it was done in malice. I just believe they’re not good at what they do.

The the guys that are working here, I believe they’re working at their top capacity, top capability. It’s just that they shouldn’t be here doing anything period. Somebody with a higher skill set should be doing it.

You know what I’m saying? They’re wonderful. We really like these guys. And then I’m at work all the time. I’m not here to oversee something. I know a little bit about everything they’re doing, everything.

I can catch things as they’re going sideways but I’m not here to see it because I gotta fucking eat so I gotta go to work. For now, for now. Work is coming close to being closed out.

So the silver lining in this particular case is what how and when I went to look for help, my same contractor gave us a quote for the roof that turned out to be insane. I didn’t even know till I started asking around.

And I called at first I called a a local Veterans Services Agency and a government agency, and I knew they couldn’t help me. I knew they didn’t have any program that applied to our situation, and they did not.

But they had a private network of local business people and other people who cared about vets and just were at the ready to help vets. In a time of need. So that sprung into action.

I talked about that on the the last episode I think. It got it got big. I don’t feel like covering everything because it has been a lot. Matter of fact, if you go to gofundme dot com and just punch in Ken Jensen.

You’ll see me and with mom around my dad and the go fund me page I built. It explains the whole incredible story that this has turned into. It’s turned into just something so huge and so good with so many people giving so much.

And everybody working in concert to make sure that a a charity got involved and we have to we have to meet certain requirements to receive their funding my dad’s old Army unit kicked in big time and they wanted to help.

They’ve been wanting to help ever since he died last August.

20 23. Now, he died, or, yeah, it’s 20 23. He died in 20 22 in August. And they’ve been dying to do something for him because he gave so much to so many. It was really an incredible amount of giving he did that was just his nature.

He never wanted anything for anything. It’s just how he moved through today. So these guys, because they loved him so much, have been dying to help any way possible.

And and here I handed them a, you know, a project to do that very thing. So we’ve figured out a plan so far the the charity would only pay for stuff if licensed insured companies were doing the work.

Now in our personal network, we have retired master contractors who can do everything under the sun, a handful of them and most of the guys in this unit, there were mechanics, there were builders.

They did that in the marines. They’re they’re all guys that did stuff with their hands and and some of them own properties and stuff.

They know what they’re doing. They can do everything needs to be done. It’ll be done well, it’ll be done up to code, but they’re not professionals. It’s another 1 of them things.

There’s but, you know, don’t even get me started on on fucking with the government requiring people to have a registration to do the dumbest shit side note, did you know the government just for you to cut hair?

Just for you to cut hair. There’s something like a 6000 hour lab time requirement before they’ll let you cut fucking hair and anybody that cuts hair is already good at it. That’s why they want to do it for pay. So anyway, where was I?

Okay. So the silver lining with the with the house. So we figured out a way to have the charity pay for most most of the big things, the really big things. Because it was more than what we even originally started out with.

The major systems in the house needed to be taken care of. A generator had to be purchased, a whole house generator. Mom mom’s she’s 75. I don’t When I move to where I’m going next, I won’t be close by.

I don’t want her here with a small generator that got to pull out of the shed, hook into the house, pour fuel, switch a bunch of switches off of commercial power onto house power, and do that in the middle of a storm in the dark which is when it’ll happen.

No. I I just want I want when the 1 when the 1 power goes out and new power comes on. Maybe she pushes a button. That’s it. And I don’t want it to be enough to where it’s operating a kitchen light in the fridge.

I want the whole house up and running. I don’t want her to be insecure in any fashion. That’s now being taken care of. Then there’s a bunch of small projects where people are donating oh, everyone’s donating time, time and labor.

Nobody’s charging for any of that, even the stuff that falls out the purview of falls outside the purview of the charity’s requirements and mom’s gonna have a, you know, a completely rebuilt house at this point and sorry to say, once the guys are here, we’re gonna have him come and look at the stuff the first guy never did right and get some things tuned up the way they should have been done in the first place.

And the silver lining part here is if the first guy hadn’t overcharged us to the degree he did. None of this other project thing would have taken place.

And if far outweighs the cost incurred so far of dealing with this other company in time, stress and money. It’s it’s more Their shoddiness has more than than been repaid by the awesome thing that got turned on in response to it.

Now we’re still not happy the the problem is still is still taking place and has yet to be resolved but so much other good, you know, so so many other good things came out of it, it it it literally has been worth the bad things that preceded it.

You’re going to find this same scenario playing out countless times as you try to take your story pro and you have to take your story pro.

If your story is only a book, you might win But as I got taught a long time ago, a book by another company that kicked off my entire adventure that led you to me. The book is just the world’s best business card.

If you, if 2 people, you and someone else stand up in a crowd, you guys the exact same service to sell for the exact same value, but 1 of you wrote a book about it, who’s the audience gonna pick?

That’s what the good of a book is. You might do great with a book.

You might sell a lot of them, but it’s it’s just It it’s it’s not a reasonable win to achieve. The book is a tool to help market the rest of your business. You’re gonna write a book some of you and please do. You you you need to.

But, you know, don’t don’t think you’re gonna Stephen King it off the back of that. That’s that’s rare. Anyway, you’re going to work with software. You’re going to hire hire other third party services to help you do things.

That you think is gonna solve problems, and sometimes they will. But what’s gonna happen in the doing of whatever it is you’re putting together Things are not gonna be what you thought they are.

They’re not gonna mesh well with the things that already existed or they’re gonna they’re going to expose some other condition that needs to be solved that couldn’t be seen until you turn the new thing on.

And it’s gonna fuck up the whole plan and you’re gonna have to redo that part of it possibly to even include using the thing you just bought or you might have to rebuild half or all of your system.

Now that you see better what’s going on.

There’s a constant attacking the problem nibbling away at it, making some moves and then stepping back and getting feedback to see where you’re at and if you’re still right and if there’s a better way to go.

And every now and then, you’re gonna have to let go of pieces of your your plan, your dream, your project that it’s gonna become evident.

There are a problem. They either are outdated or something in use shifted to where this thing either no longer works or it doesn’t work the way you need it to work which is what happened to me.

When I wrote my book and used to be public about helping people fight bipolar.

I don’t help people fight bipolar directly anymore. I give away the system for doing it. And I’ll answer questions with examples from my life about how the the things I I promote help me. I won’t actually help anyone be bipolar.

I don’t want to for a number of reasons. And it’s just not I ain’t doing it. But If I hadn’t have taken that journey, I wouldn’t have become what I am now, which is helping other survivors of any type of trauma.

Take their story, turn it into a business so that both the world can find out about the story and benefit from it and you the creator, the storyteller can benefit for the work.

You need to get paid for the time and effort and expense you’re gonna lay out to share this story.

Even a church has a collection plate. Everything is a business. Everything has a bottom line. A war can stop because there’s no budget to keep fighting it.

Everything has a bottom line. Now you might be able to afford to just pay for things and not care and now you’re just you know you’re just running without truism Well, that’s great.

But then, you know, you and I aren’t gonna work together because I got nothing to add to that.

God speed, but, you know, you you don’t need me. And and that’s fine if that’s what makes you happy but that’s not why you’re listening to me.

And I personally in the telling of my story used it to show how I scaled up, how I now use it as a tool, the telling of my story is not It’s not the thing anymore.

It’s an item within the thing that helped bring the bigger thing to life.

I cannot wait to work with those of you that want to hit the ground running and get out your story big and loud to the world in every way possible in a sensible way in an affordable way And in a way that doesn’t turn you old before your time as well.

There is a way to do that. There is gonna be an expenditure, effort, and energy and an accumulation of stress that is unavoidable.

I haven’t heard of anybody that just sails swimmingly into their bright shiny golden coated future. It’s not a thing. But depending on how things pan out, you don’t have to stress and suffer for as long as others.

Hopefully, with what I’ve learned and what I share in this podcast and where you can see that I’ve been exposed to a lot pretty much entirely about my own hand and I’ve learned a lot of stuff the hard way.

And when you learn things the hard way, that’s when the lessons remain clear and crisp in your head and it allows you to direct others.

You’ll hear a lot of time you hear a lot of times where people say don’t make the mistakes I made and that you can hire me because this is what other people say.

Hire me because then I can keep you from making the mistakes I made. Okay. Potentially, but here I’m here to tell you.

Even with me helping you not make the mistakes I made, you’re gonna make some of them anyway because it’s it’s the part of the growth process of doing this. This. And you’ll make brand new mistakes I never even saw before.

And But I’ll be at your side to help recover and keep moving and make use of whatever whatever whatever bits are left after the initial bomb goes off, I’ll help you make use of whatever we find that’s still usable and still make sense and I’ll keep you going and I’ll keep you motivated the same way other people have done for me.

I’ll never shine you on. I’m never gonna sell you false bill of goods. I’m not gonna tell you this is gonna be easy when it ain’t.

I’m telling you to buck up and get ready for a very large fight about the only thing we really have a the only thing we might be able to mitigate is how bitter it does or does not get. And I’m good at that. I’m good at that.

I’m good at finding the silver linings. I do it all the time at my day job. It’s often just a matter of reframing. You look at the same thing. It’s it’s not that only 10 It’s how they put it. You know, it’s glass half full, half empty.

It’s it’s basically that. You can see the glasses, it’s already half of it’s gone or you can see it as there’s still half of it left. Anyway, that’s it. I’m tapped and I will talk to you guys soon. Oh, okay.

Yeah, let me add this. Please go to Apple Podcast and give me a great big fat huge 5 star review. Write something short and sweet. I need more and more people to find out about me. There’s some cool things happening in the background.

I’m I’m get I’m having people reach out to me to be a guest. And people want to be a guest on my show. That’s starting to pick up some steam and you guys will start hearing about you know you’ll see the direct results in this podcast.

As I build these things. I only get found when the machines are working in my favor. So that’s 1 way you can easily help me put the machines to work in my favor.

Go to Apple Podcasts and go to my find my site, punch in Ken Jensen, punch in bipolar action either 1 takes you to my site, scroll down and past the first handful episode.

You’ll see the review thing at the bottom. Give me a nice review.

If you’re not gonna give me 5 stars, I can’t worship. I’m not supposed to co worship, but don’t give me less than 5 stars. What the fuck does that? I wouldn’t do it to you. Alright, guys. Have a good week. Be well.

Hey, this is Ken Jensen. I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2 thousands. Believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process, was mind blowing to say the least.

Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve shown up in my life so you can do the same. Hello, fellow trauma survivors.

This is episode 64, The Sauce. Now I’ll just reiterate I made a shift away from purely high functioning bipolar people to anyone that survived trauma and has a story and wants to create a business around it.

Or they want to get their story out, and I’m saying a business is 1 of the best ways to do it. You turn turn your story into a machine and that will ensure to most people hear it. A lot of painful lessons learned there.

And I’m really happy that I got to this point. I’m finally free to talk about what I want specifically. In a way that ties together all the pieces of me that I feel matter to you. Man to me. Very selfish about that.

If you’re not happy doing your thing, it’s gonna be a slog. You’re not gonna keep up with it. I’m so used to reiterating myself that I get annoyed, but eventually I shift wherever I must and that’s what I just did and just keep going.

On that note, you’re you’re gonna have to learn to not only have thick skin, but you’re gonna have to learn how to push through.

I tonight, I had already done a fantastic episode that did not cord because the batteries in my voice recorder died even though it has AC power. This was a thing I knew that might happen.

I have no idea why the freaking thing has AC power because it’s appears to only run on batteries and like an idiot. I did not test this before doing a podcast episode. I meant to. I looked up the manual online.

I tried to find out what might matter. I tried to get my answers solved. And I was like, alright. Apparently, we’re good as long as that a season. And the batteries died, I watched the screen go dark, but I was in such a groove.

I told myself, well, it’s just sleeping. The screen sleeping. I knew full well but could not remain aware of it. That this particular device does not do that. It it will sleep but not you’re talking into it when it stays lit up.

I just kept going. And then finally, I realized that screen has been awful dark and realize I hadn’t recorded shit. I flew into a rage and to a degree, I I rage but it ain’t like A true nobody got hurt.

On top of that, There’s a very cool software I found, a service, a SaaS, software as a service that would help me asynchronously coach I didn’t even know that was a thing till I found out about it from another podcaster, Tim Stodz, Tim Stodder.

And He raved about this thing how you could coach people and not have to be on the same schedule. So I put that all together.

It took me weeks of a lot of intense effort, and I got it to how I wanted it. I had to integrate it with my site, which means a lot stuff on my site had to be rewritten to a certain degree so that this this new tool made sense.

And I was just getting ready to go live there’s only a few things I gotta do before I can do my monster push of this this marketing machine I’m about to turn on.

And it’s all I’ve been dreaming of doing because it involves me writing a lot. There’s nothing left to do.

I’ve built everything that needs to be built for this new version of what you offer. That company went under. They lost funding or couldn’t get more funding to keep to keep the company running, so no more SaaS for you, mister Jackson.

I got the news. I thought it was a joke and an email said something rather, you know, abrupt. We’re all done. We’re leaving. We’ve closed.

I thought it was like a marketing hook to get me to open email and read more. Nope. They closed. And I sat looking at that. I was like, I worked weeks on getting that thing right. And now it’s not a thing. That thing is not a thing.

Now what? This sort of thing, if I haven’t done it to myself, shot myself in my own foot, some other something like this happens, and it’s it’s frequent enough on the Internet that you kinda gotta just be ready for it, and then pivot.

So I pivoted found another service almost immediately. That was even better. Even better. The prices were right. And as I got into it, it turns out they’re evolving.

They’re not staying as that service. They’re turning into a new company, keeping that service, but it kinda offer all kinds of new shiny super duper things that that it it’s not currently doing.

And then I looked at the pricing and it’s it’s it’s through the roof for my current standards. The version that they were currently was perfect.

Then they, like, tripled all their rates. And as I I did I then looked around the the Internet. I found a few other different companies doing the same thing, and they’re being competitive with their prices.

I’m like, alright. Well, fuck me. That’s that’s I don’t know what I’m gonna do now. I’ll figure it out. I always figure it out. I got this far. I will keep going. I beat bipolar without meds. I beat addictions.

I should have been in prison, and I didn’t. I beat so many fucking things that this software situation is not gonna be the thing that takes me out. You would like a nice easy coasting ride, but you’re not gonna get it for the most part.

Just know that now, embrace yourself. Gird your loins. So a lot of stress. However, Let’s bring it back to the joy of why I built bipolar excellence dot com.

The sauce. If you go to my website, you’ll see a link in the footer that says the sauce. I wrote this article some time ago and I didn’t know what to do with it.

It felt very important to me, but it didn’t really didn’t fit into the marketing of the site in any way that made sense to him. At least not that I can figure. That happens to me a lot.

I write articles over the years that are are very important, make very important points but but there’s no way you gotta streamline how you run your sites so that people easily understand what it is you want them to do so you can get some more done with them.

You can’t you know, and everything’s gonna feel important to you, but I I really do come out with stuff every now and then that says something so perfectly and is so powerful But it’s 1 of many.

Now what do I do with it? So anyway, I linked it at in the footer, the sauce, and it’s all about my love of conversations which plays a big part of why bipolar excellence exists. I I love stories.

I love reading. I love I love I love a a good script in a movie. I love the telling of a story and what has to be put together? The machines have to be put together to get a story out to the world like making a movie in particular.

I’m I’m really fond of movie making. I don’t do anything with it. I’m just fond of it. And I I like the thought of a bunch of people getting together to bring something to life.

I’m just doing it now with you guys 1 on 1. I need as much as possible to have complex stories being told to me and and me telling mine back, but it needs to be people that can that can meet me on on my level.

Or selfishly, I’d be happy if they had more to say than I did or were better at it just for my own entertainment.

That’s acceptable as well because I love hearing a really good story. And then with my website, I love interacting with the person that has that story and the story itself and seeing what we can turn it into.

Could be where helping people could be something else entirely but I talked a lot in that episode that doesn’t exist about the journey I took with learning about storytelling.

Let me let me recap a few things. Sometime ago, I learned It’s better, you know, you got 2 ears and 1 mouth. Listen more than you talk.

Well, with bipolar and mania and just me, even without any bipolar essence, not talking so much when I people for a lot of my life was very hard. I only got a I only got the hang of it recently last handful of years.

And as a coach, you need people to talk to you more than you talk to them, or you’re just talking to people, you’re not coaching them. So I learned that a long time ago.

But the first thing I found out was when I told my stories, I’ve lived a wildlife When I was younger, I lived a very wild life between the marines alone that was hundreds and hundreds of insane stories.

And then Certain things happened in my twenties that were just over the top, then bipolar, which was completely over the top.

Everything about it was over the top, and it was horrific. These make for great stories. I beat the damn thing and I did so without medication.

That’s a great story. I’ve overcome so many things that and and I keep finding more. And now, like with my forties, and now I’m into my fifties. The intensity the out of control intensity is is no longer a part of anything.

I still have intensity, but it’s it’s more subtle now. It’s more nuance. It runs more under the radar. A lot of it is only what’s going on in my head as I deal with certain things.

And 1 of the things I found when I was younger was when I shared my stories, some people, particularly men, would get depressed if they didn’t take the kind of risks risks I took or made, you know, the same kind of stupid decisions I did that led to misadventures that were just the stuff of legend.

They had chances of doing the same, but they played it safe, they played it smart, or they just didn’t get off their ass and try to do anything.

Whichever way it was, I found out in in certain cases. I was depressing the people I was talking to. They wished it had done something like what I did.

Even when it was, you know, clear, nobody should be doing some shit I was talking about. So once I got a little older, I started realizing that was happening happening, and I started feeling bad for people.

And I love telling my stories. And I was like, well, I can’t do it this way anymore because I don’t wanna I don’t wanna hurt people like that.

And I I can see it’s happening. The other thing so I stopped doing that so much. And then it’s very just egotistical. And once you realize that and I mean, really realize it, you just get grossed out with yourself.

I still love telling my stories. I love telling the phenomenal shit. But another tricky thing I learned is there’s a time and a place. A lot of what and and this is a problem for for me, just what do I do with myself?

A lot of what I’ve been about, a lot of what I’ve done and experienced and how I reacted to it, and the people I was with at the time, I there’s no place to really talk about it.

There’s not a group of people who can tolerate the intensity, the aggression, and and the the the ugliness, and the brutality that formed a backbone of a lot of my tails.

There’s just no place for it. I have to be in a similar group of people to share these tales. And luckily, at my day jobs over the last handful of years, I have I have been with these people.

And it’s a pure delight because we go back and forth on just fuckery and disasters and and just these really wild rides that we took that destroyed everything.

Because they’re fun. We it doesn’t matter that they ended poorly or disastrously. The stories are fun and we’re glad we did them. Even knowing full well, it led to our complete and total annihilation of heart, soul, in in real life.

So there’s a place for it, but it’s very specific and I’m frequently not in it anymore. Don’t wanna bum people out with my stories, and then the other thing was, What was the other thing?

Oh, I learned some time ago through business training, coach training, Personal development training. It was coming at me from a lot of ways.

Let the other guy talk. You got 2 ears, 1 mouth. There’s a reason. So For a while, what ended up happening was I I would attempt to let the other person lead. I still do, but I’m I’m better at what happens next.

When I was a little younger, I wasn’t, I can’t stand there doing me me me. And in a lot of cases, I definitely can’t stand I can’t stand there and tell the stories from my my teens and my twenties.

It’s it’s too much. It’s not the right time and place. So I would let the other person lead and try to get them to tell me about them.

Now this isn’t everybody, but this happened enough that it flummoxed me. I I give so many opportunity to tell me all about them, and they’d come back with the the standards.

The things people say when they don’t know what to just so they can keep the moment from becoming more than they care for it to be. Did you, you know, just keep the day moving.

The shit you say to the clerk at the register when nobody means anything they’re saying. It’s just pleasantries because it’s pleasant, but you don’t really care what the other person’s saying.

I would get that. And that frustrated the fuck out of me because they would just they would wrap up awful quick with nothing to share and then it’s back on me. And me has decided not to be a dick and talk about nothing but me.

But what do I talk about if they share nothing? Well, I never solved that per se. I just know that in my search to live the way I want. My world changed in such a way that people like that don’t really come my way anymore.

The people I meet in large part, have something interesting to talk about. Also, I took steps to learn how to find what people say interesting when I don’t think it is or that’s not exactly right.

I I would I would I could tease more of a story out of them. Some people have interesting stories and don’t even know it.

Or I have a way of finding the silver lining. I have a way of finding the gem hiding, you know, under the dirt. And I can make something out of almost nothing when people talk to me and it’s a skill I picked up over the years.

I did it at first to entertain myself. And then with coach training and the jobs I’ve had over the last 5 years, working with people, it’s a way of getting people to open up and you definitely gotta figure out how to do it.

It’s it doesn’t just come overnight. But I got really good at it. I’m awesome at it now.

I know I am. People tell me all the time. It just it just is how it is. But I always try to watch myself because I can just I can just get carried away to whatever degree with my energy and I I don’t wanna do that.

And I’m always telling myself to dial it down and and bring it back to that person. Make your point and then shut shut up and then listen to them.

Now I thrive at pulling more and more out of people. I I that became my entertainment. Just to see how much I could dig out of their heads and then put my spin on it that might be opposite of what they think happened.

Or just the freakish way I look at shit for my own entertainment. I’ll put some I’ll put some hilarious spin on it.

That turns the mundane into the awesome And then when that happens enough times when that happens enough times, more stories do come out of them. You gotta, like, break the ice, and that’s what I’ll be doing with you.

So I didn’t realize that I wrote down article and figured out all the things that I just shared with you how important stories are to me. And they’re they’re and to find someone who’s a competent storyteller. So, you know, that matters.

I I like talking with someone who’s a justice skilled. Because then everything goes up a notch or 2 or 3. The vocabulary rises, the twistedness gets more intense. The bizarre the bizarre angles become more prevalent.

It’s it’s it’s like fencing. It it it just gets it just gets more enriching, and and there’s a higher skill level involved when you’re parrying with somebody on the same level. Now I don’t do to how would everybody wanna that?

I’m thought I’m talking about. That’s with only a handful of people at different times that I know. However, as I build out my business, I know I’m gonna find more of them, particularly among trauma survivors.

Particularly among trauma survivors who want to share their story because there’s something about surviving trauma it does something to us that just gives us a different perspective on everything, and I feel even with the pain involved, whatever kind of pain, We’re more interesting.

We banked through something. We survived. If you come my way, you probably survived something most people don’t. And it does it can be anything.

A health scare a health scare, a mental health scare, a spiritual breakdown something in real life, like your company closed, and what you had to do just to keep your house and to eat. You know, all these things hurt war.

These these are the best stories to me. I like drama more than anything. Not sappy drama, just good, well written drama. And a lot of people have lived it. You can watch it in movies or you can you can go out and find these people.

And those of you that come my way, I’m telling you, you’re gonna be able to tell your stories in such a way that you’re gonna do such such a wealth of good to so many people, particularly whoever’s fighting whatever it is you got out of.

And I I am just Champing at the bit to have the opportunity to to help you pull that off. And then have the conversations you and I are gonna have as teammates and peers as we build your thing together.

I crave it. I can’t wait for you to share yours with mine. With mine, share yours and mine together, share yours with me, Alright. I had to get the what you call it correct before I hang up. Alright, guys. It’s been a long day.

It’s been a long weekend. I’ve achieved quite a bit even with the problems I ran into, technical, and software. There’s a lot going on right now. I’m being pushed to the extreme. And I’m handling all of it. And it has a feeling to it.

I I can’t quite describe. Something’s growing inside of me, energy wise, And even though my life lately has become the most complicated it’s been in quite some time, I’m not exactly happy about that, but somehow it’s feeding me.

It’s feeding me. So I’ll leave with that, and I hope to I hope to develop these kinds of feelings and and and results working with you as well. I know I will. I know we will. Can’t wait to meet you and do it. Alright, guys. Be well.

Hey, this is Ken Jensen. I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2 thousands. Believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process, was mind blowing to say the least.

Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve shown up in my life so you can do the same.

Hello, bipolar prone folk. This is episode 61, The Power and bipolar. I got a short list that I’m gonna address clarifying what I see as the summon of powers on bipolar.

There there are many more. I just wanted to cover a few in in this episode and just keep things moving. I popped out of the other side of COVID.

I don’t think I’m entirely smelling everything as well as I used to. I lost a sense of smell. I think since the last episode, I can’t remember, but anyway, 4 or 5 days worth, I couldn’t smell anything. Nothing.

And then little by little, I could start detecting different different things. And now it’s pretty much all the way back. But I I seem to remember, like, when I’m when I’m when I’m making coffee, I used to smell the coffee in the air.

I don’t really smell that now, and the coffee doesn’t smell as strong to me when I’m making it, and I make French roasted. Which is nuclear strength. So that annoys me. Maybe maybe that’ll improve with time.

But I felt well enough that I wanted to lift weights for 2 days and decided based on past experience when I pop out of an illness I feel better way before I’m well enough to really stress the system.

So I’m leaving the gym alone for couple more days. Maybe maybe till Tuesday.

And I’m looking forward to that. But Well, a big part of what I’m about is is helping people understand that to whatever degree to however many of this this might apply to, there’s there’s strengths hiding within bipolar.

And based on different variables, not everybody’s gonna be able to pin these strengths down. They’re not gonna be able to make any use of them particularly if the illness is just having its way with you.

If the if that’s the case, your primary focus is to just survive the illness. Now I got a number of things going on with how I’m positioning my my services and the ways I can help people.

And I’m just gonna put it out there once. This was something I struggled with, mightily. I I figured out how to beat bipolar without meds. Meds were killing me.

That was crystal clear, confirmed by the doctors who were giving them to me. Not all of them, but some of them, the ones that mattered most, And when I stopped taking all the meds for bipolar, I needed less health related meds.

Everything’s tied together. I don’t wanna go too deep down that trail. I I offer that system and anyone that signs up to my newsletter at bipolar excellence dot com.

You you I just give you the whole system that I came up with that that allowed me to leave meds behind which as I said, were only hurting me and eventually attain wellness, which wasn’t even AAA thing I dared hope for When I began building the system, I didn’t even know I was building.

I I was just trying to survive. I was hoping for a listening of the severity of the nasty parts of parts of the illness, and I achieve far more than that. But As I was saying, 1 of the hardest things III guess the hardest thing.

And trying to turn me into a brand and business was I didn’t get how to digitize it. I didn’t get how how you take whatever it is about me that people valued the most, and putting it online.

It’s it’s it’s amusing in retro back because now I see it clear as day, but that that’s how that’s how things go. You don’t see it and if you work at it, eventually you see it. That that’s like any problem.

So life coaching became the thing, and that phrase never sat well with me. Something about it was too jeez. I don’t know. There’s an aggressive nature about me that that didn’t seem to match what life coaching was.

And and the funny thing is When people hire a coach, any coach, besides the information that that coaches made clear that they offer, There’s the coach themselves. That’s why any of us hire a coach is do do we dig this person?

Do we trust them? Do we like them? In some cases, you don’t even like them. You just trust them. And you know that it makes sense to do what this person says even if you don’t care for them.

It’s why I started the podcast, Jason leister from sovereign business dot org. He’s 1 of my coaches. He said, what’s your when do you see the biggest bang for the buck when you’re dealing with people?

How do you deal with them? He said, just talking. People just want me to keep talking to them or they want me around to tell me whatever it is they’ve got to tell me.

Then they want my advice or they just wanna talk to somebody that gets it. And it’s, you know, that coaching, that’s therapy.

That’s a a number of things, but it it I I couldn’t see what the hell that was to put online properly for years. I I’ve obviously since solved it, but Point is you’ve got powers as a bipolar person.

You don’t even realize you have. And it’s my opinion that some of bipolar is these powers run amuck. They’ve gone haywire. They don’t have any limitations put on them.

You probably don’t even know they’re a power because they’re just running rampant like Like a bare wire throwing sparks and jumping all around the ground. That’s power when used the right way.

It likes homes. It provides heat. But as that popping around on the ground wire, it’s deadly. It’s the same thing either way. But in 1 sense, it’s in 1 case it’s being directed In the other case, it isn’t. It’s just a raw force.

And that’s a lot of bipolar, just a raw force. It can be loud or it can be disgusting and quiet. I’ve had every version of it they cared to put a title on. Last last time I ever kept track, which has been many years.

There was 5 different main versions. I had all of them at 1 time or another. All of them. The worst being mixed. That’s when you felt just about everything at the same time. The I don’t even wanna get in all of that.

I’m gonna have to find those articles on my old website and and and drop them into bipolar excellence. I will at some point. I’ll do I’ll do podcasts episodes to I’m gonna make a note right here.

The the I’ll do episodes on the types of bipolar, and really all I’m gonna do is share the articles I wrote years ago because at this point, it’s been so long. I only remember high points, and I don’t remember any details.

It’s been too many years. But it kills me when I meet I meet a lot of people that have bipolar or something like it and there’s usually something about them that I find fascinating.

Sometimes they’re aware of it or sometimes they know that other people are aware of are aware of it, but the person doesn’t feel it or can’t see what everyone else is seeing, and I find that fascinating.

That’s a big part of what I offer when when people come my way. The longer we know each other and talk.

Eventually, I’m gonna see what makes you special. Now you may or may not agree, you may or may not want to do anything with what I I help you clarify. But if you’re working with me, let’s just assume you do want it clarified.

This is 1 of my powers. I can see what makes somebody else sparkle and shine. And we gotta backtrack and figure out how do we contain the rest of the illness well enough to you use the sparkly shiny parts.

When it comes to giving advice to anybody about anything, this disannoys me online. Something is simple as go with your gut. That is wise and sage advice and I I believe I believe that 1 thing can apply to anybody.

But as I learned through 1 of my personality I don’t know what you’d even call this. It wasn’t a test so much, but it was human design. My human design report showed that I’m designed totally to live by my gut.

If I I physically feel whether something’s right or wrong for for me to be working on, my my god will tell me. I I will get very uncomfortable if something’s bad.

And I will I will feel very physically good if something should be pursued, and then it becomes a matter of is that just over excitement and I got to check-in with myself in other areas.

But People have a lot of advice for getting anything done at all.

And I’ve learned I’ve learned of methods of pairing down and clarifying what you really should be leading with as you make any decision at all, including as a bipolar person.

There’s 1 test that I know of, Colby, that is unbelievably valuable for anybody to to to know these things about themselves that Colby will make clear.

Colby can be tricked out by bipolar. Or if you’re emotionally or mentally unstable in any fashion, your answers are not going to be they’re just not gonna be correct.

You can get a false reading out of Colby if your your head isn’t somehow more together than then it can be for some of us at different times.

I found them not long not long after getting well enough. At some point, I’m I’m gonna have to take that test once. It was just called a test.

I’m gonna take that test once again. And make sure that it’s as correct as can be because the funny thing is they tell you that tests will always bear the same results no matter what point of your life you’re in.

You can go decades later and take it again. You’ll get the same result.

Unless you were wiggly when you took it at some point, And I’ve I’ve learned enough about myself that I feel that when I took that test, I was in well enough condition because it it mates up with a lot of other things I learned about myself from completely unrelated areas.

But the point is, I I wouldn’t give every single bipolar person the same exact advice because things just aren’t gonna work because they’re against your nature.

How I think you should get advice is is my nature, and that might not work for you.

But I’ve been doing this long enough that I know when it’s time to to pivot to shift my perspective. Based on the feedback I’m getting from you so that we can help you achieve whatever it is that brought you my way.

At least get you closer to it than if you hadn’t met me. So there’s some of the strengths in in me, And in some some generalities I’ve learned about other all of us, bipolar or not.

There is the The energy in bipolar, whether you’re even when you’re depressed, If you have bipolar depression, my god, that’s a beast.

Can’t remember if I’m getting the title right or not, but I I do know that there was a time when my depression was increased and powered by my mania.

I no longer remember I I can’t make that any clear. It’s been too many years. I just remember there’s depression which we all know is bad enough. Severe depression is that’s that’s something special.

And then there’s a form of bipolar depression where the depression has a power to it. My god. What could be crueler? A forceful depression. I would definitely have to find that article to even clarify that more than I just did.

I just I remembered it happened. I remember being aware of it and remembering there’s flavors. There’s levels to depression. And I think I found the worst 1 when when I was at that stage and I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.

But Energy is just energy. If you could figure out how to tap into that power, just the energy of bipolar. My god. What what you could accomplish?

Now there’s a lot of ways to deal with that that I’m not even qualified to to address. So I would I would only address it from the perspective of what I achieved and and through the lens of the people that end up helping me.

And then maybe we figure out how to use your power. In that respect, I don’t know. We’d have to pick that apart and it’s a bit of a dance.

But bottom line, there’s a lot of juice in bipolar. Man, if you could repurpose it re aim it at something else. That would be huge, especially if we’ve got you on a positive growth track.

You have in mind a good thing you’d like to do if only you could figure out what that was or how to go about doing it and then how to tap into that You’d be unstoppable. You’d be like well, you’d be like me.

1 of the comments I got over the years, particularly when people read my book was no matter what happened, you just didn’t quit. You just didn’t quit. And it became clear to me over time as bad as bipolar was.

I kept fighting back against it for 1 even when there was very little left of me as a person as a human There was very little left. My Polish stripped away everything at 1 point.

I was just a shell of despair and fear and rage. There was I I didn’t feel anything else there for quite some time. And I focused on just not hurting anybody unnecessarily physically or mentally.

But I never gave up. I’ve come to understand that bipolar even though that was the thing pummeling me. A part of it Also provided the juice I needed to fight back against it. It took me a while to see that.

I also know that people like us who have or had bipolar When you fight to survive like that all the time and you live with all that pain, Eventually, you’re gonna pick up insights into the human psyche and the way of the world.

How people are to 1 another? Because we are also highly sensitive in nature. I’ve read it before.

I believe it was in Garrett Laporto’s book. The DaVinci method, he called us the Canary in the cave. We sense when there’s a change happening to the whole world before the rest of the world’s even aware that it’s happening.

It’s a Zeitgeist thing. We’re tapped into the energy of of the community, the global community. At the very least, you’ll know it at your local level, I’m sure.

That practically makes you a soothsayer. You’re a visionary at the very least. You can see the future, so to speak. You learned how to use that for the good, for profit, my god. The life you would have and the people you could help.

Because even as I help you guys, we’re not each other. You’re gonna bring specifics to the to the situation that I I don’t have, never did have. Don’t even want. And you’re gonna help your people if I can just help you.

That’s a big part of everything I’m doing here. We think outside the box. We find new avenues of growth. We find new sources of power. Outside of us and within us, and then there’s utility.

When you think outside the box, 1 of the things you do is take a shit sandwich and turn it into a tasty steak. You flip things on their head. You take them a new way, nobody ever knew.

Roughly speaking, you’ll use a screwdriver as a chisel. You repurpose information and perspectives. You repurpose energy. Even emotions, you can take very bad situations and make them good just as I’m attempting to do with you.

That was all I had on the strengths list, but I just wanna make clear to give you a little bit of hope if I can. Not all of bipolar is bad. It’s just an aspect or 2 or 3 of your personality and your physical being that’s run amok.

It could be a spiritual thing. I don’t talk about that a lot because I never really knew how because I wasn’t sure where I stood on on that because I’m sort of I’m more eastern than anything else.

I I with the little I understand. For all I’ve read, I haven’t gone super deep.

But with the little I understand, I I’m more of a Buddhist than than anything. I’ve got a real aversion to structured religion and tell you how much, and I won’t go any I’m not gonna go down that rabbit hole of a discussion.

But again, when I look at my life in total, what I’ve overcome, things that happen to me now that I’m still overcoming, not bipolar, just life stuff like the rest of us.

And the way that I seem to never see things like people around me And I’m glad for it.

It just constantly confirms there’s something special about bipolar people. If we can just find it and use it well. If we can tease it away from just the experience of the illness itself, and look at it a different way.

You’ll find you’ve got more going on for you then then you probably realized I I guarantee it because if you’re just sick, well, there’s just the sickness and it sucks.

And the shit’s gotta end. And that’s it. And I agree with you when the illness is all powerful, nothing matters. And that’s why I say, even in my in my free course I mentioned, you don’t want me coaching you out of this illness.

That’s something that picks up my head because I said that, And most people come to me looking for help with the illness.

I will definitely still coach you. If I feel you’re, you know, you’re hurting more than anything else, not looking to grow. And that that’s not that’s fine.

That’s what you’re at. It’s not it’s not a crime. It’s not a bad thing. I would recommend you look for a therapist. You can use a therapist and me as a coach simultaneously. It it depends on where you’re at.

You know, I’ll know when I bumped into something when I bump into something that’s not my area, and I definitely don’t wanna do any harm. By thinking I can fix your bipolar. I mean, I’m that’s just stupid to even say out loud.

That’s not what I’m offering. I offer a way to do it that worked for me And even just certain pieces of the system I created worked very well for people, just 1 or 2 parts. Well, alone the whole thing I whipped up.

So if you’re coming to me for help with bipolar, I most definitely will talk to you about that, and and I will just be sure to make sure we stay focused on what I know worked for me. You do it that what you will.

We take it from there. Some of you are gonna realize like I did years ago, there’s way more to the illness, there’s way more to yourself. Then then you’re currently experiencing or or You’re not living up to your potential.

I’m gonna help you figure out what that is and what to do with it, should it interest you. But I’m just gonna leave you with that, you know, just that final review thought of.

You’re stronger than you realize. If you’ve had the illness for a while and you’re still here hearing my voice, I commend you because just get a little emotional even thinking about it for you, and what I overcame.

Just surviving bipolar should get you some kind of a a metal.

The the un afflicted will never understand. That there are types of bad feelings that are worse than all the rest. And unfortunately, we’re in the minority of the of the population.

So not too many people are familiar with it, but also unfortunately, I think that percentage is going up. This is a bad thing in that it sucks that people out there suffering with it.

It’s a good thing because think to what I said about the Canary in the cave. I think for a lot of you, The only reason bipolar’s rearing its ugly head is because you’re waking up to a need for change.

Definitely on your own personal level, but there could be something going on in the world around you to whatever scale.

That a piece you wants to address and doesn’t know how, and that is not working well for you, and it’s scrambling your head a little bit.

Or possibly a lot. If any of that resonates, would you? Head over to bipolar excellence dot com at the very least Sign up for my newsletter so that you get that course.

It’s a whole damn course. It’s not like here’s the free cheapy version. Now give me a hundred dollars and I’ll give you the rest.

No. You’re getting all of it, and it’s it’s a it’s a dim It’s a big enough course that you’ll get your money’s worth, but it’s not so big that it’ll blow your mind and just scanning it.

Just scanning it. Gives you the key things you need to know. You don’t even gotta consume everything I provided. That everything I provided will definitely help, give you context. You’ll get to know me better.

Pick at that as you will if you don’t feel like going through everything but I’m telling you if you just scanned the the the title of each lesson in the course, you’ll have what you need to know. You can just act from there.

I do so much look forward to the day I work with some of you because I don’t like regular life. I can’t stand employment. I love the unique. I love to be surprised by people that are doing cool stuff that nobody knows about.

And you’re my crew. You’re the people I want to hang out with. This isn’t just about business. It’s how I want to live. I’m doing it. I want more of it. I want you to come with me. Alright, guys. Be well.

Hey, this is Ken Jensen. I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2 thousands. And believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process, was mind blowing to say the least.

Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve shown up in my life so you can do the same. Hello, bipolar prone folk. This is episode 59. Brother Bruce and I ain’t looking for no trouble.

I came across well, Bruce Lipton, I get his newsletter. I’ve read a couple of his books I’ve watched a lot of his videos and 1 of his most recent videos is in is entitled cancer is a symptom.

So I’m gonna get back to that in a second. First some updates. There has been a lot going on in my personal growth, business growth, and development of systems behind the scene to drive everything else I just talked about.

I recently found a tool called volley, and I’m going to use it in all that I do for coaching.

Coolest thing about volley is I don’t have time really to coach as much as I want when I want, it’s impossible. I’m still working a day job that I’m fighting valiantly to leave behind me forever after.

But it’s still there for now, and there’s just not enough time to schedule you know, concrete days and times to meet with people to coach, I can at a premium That’s a little different.

But I don’t even wanna do that all that much if I don’t have to. And I think for my clients, You don’t either.

Who wants to be stuck to a schedule? There’s a time when you wanna you’re gonna want, and it’s gonna be necessary to do an actual back and forth, a conversation. That’s fine and that that’s offered within what I do.

But there’s gonna be more times when you just need an answer to something or an opinion. Just some some feedback that does not require an actual conversation and that’s what Valley does.

Valley lets us communicate the same way people do via text, and text is even part of it. You can do videos and this ain’t an ad for volley.

I’m just excited I’m just excited that it it it gave me some freedom back in my life, and and for a lot of you and yours as well. It lets you do text, video, and even audio, and it lets you share files.

And it can be used in such a way where you can charge somebody for time and that only that only counts on their end as you use up time to leave whatever message you do and this does not include file sharing.

That’s free. You you buy a certain amount of time, I answer, and the time only gets bit into when you’re creating your end of the conversation. It can also be set up to where there’s no time.

I have that as as an offer as well where you can It’s just open ended. You pay a monthly fee, and it’s just open ended. And on that monthly fee thing, this brings up the topic of human design.

Human design, for those of you not familiar with it, you were where you were born and when created there was an energy taking place then that directs the rest of your life from there on out.

When I had my human design report read to me by Chetan Parkin, I was blown away by how much nothing he shared with me could be argued with. It couldn’t be picked apart where you could find, like, yeah, but what about this? It could not.

And my life got displayed to me in such a way as to why anything is like it is, it it it just couldn’t be argued with. It it it just blew my mind. And I’ve been aware of what’s in my chart ever since and that was a few years ago.

I’m not gonna get into what my chart said but that ties into 1 thing he made clear to me. I am not here to even service anybody. I’m not. My main goal in life is to live it to the fullest and then report back to the world what I found.

Now, of course, I do help people and, of course, that’s even part of my chart. But the way I do it, the way Chitan explained it to me is I meet with people, and then they tell me whatever.

I observe all there is to observe. I asked the right questions. I get the right I get the right information provided by you before we even meet. To where I can then come up with a like a prescription, basically.

And then I’m out. Now that’s roughly speaking. I’m not out out. You still have me. But I’m not here to hold anyone’s hand and constantly walk them through every little thing they face in their day.

That starts to drain me. So I’ve set up my system to match how it is. I function as a person, my coaching system, when you hire me, And it’s to honor how I work best, which is what you want.

You want that in me. You want me working my best to help you with whatever problem you’re up against. So I was really excited because Vale then gave me that freedom.

I originally had a 5 month package plan set up for my my highest level clients, and that 5 months thing never sat well with me. Different coach suggested I followed at and I didn’t have any other template to go with it time.

But the thought of having somebody that I was, you know, that I was beholden to someone for 5 months straight, never sat well with me, And then I realized, like, some people are they’re just not gonna need that 5 months.

Some will. Some will need more.

And, you know, we can make that all happen whatever way we have to within my my services, but I just didn’t wanna be tied down like that. It really bothered me. And Vale showed me a way out of that, offered me a way out of that.

Again, you can have my time at a at a, you know, you can have more direction, more direct contact with me, but it’s gonna come at a premium cost. That’s just the reality of things.

So while digging around in Vale, 1 of the templates for coaching that got offered was a lady named Amanda Horvath Amanda helps people create YouTube videos and then market them to build whatever business it is you’re building.

I would highly suggest checking her out. A lot younger than me.

She appears to be somewhere around 30 if I had a guess, a lot of energy, a lot of exuberance, a lot of kindness, a lot of fun, and her videos are really fun to watch that to to even the free stuff that she offers to help you explain why anything is like it is with how she teaches the way to do well and market on YouTube.

Well, 1 of the things she offered through Vale that she made very clear in her introductory video was she relies heavily on the on a person’s a client’s human design chart as a way of helping them move forward as she coaches them.

Now I had had a similar thought.

I was I was I had even clearly outlined it yet in what I do, not that there’s much to it, but a number of strength tests that I took and personality tests clarified what I was all about to help me get to here.

And it’s an ongoing thing. You always understand these things more the longer you live and you get feedback for just living. You you come to better understand what it is these different tests meant.

I’ve gone for quite some time in certain directions, on a slightly skewed understanding of what 1 or 2 items from some of these tests made clear to me, And after I got enough feedback that this isn’t quite right, I could finally see what was right?

How I wasn’t that far off.

Just took a perspective switch, and then things got better for me. As I help you guys, there’s a handful of these tests. There’s gonna be at least 2 in particular. One’s Colby and one’s the human design chart, which is not even a test.

The human design chart, you just give when you were born and and where. That’s it. Colby is very easy to do and there’s no tricking it out. There’s no failing it. It it just is gonna describe how you are the end.

There’s other tests that that would matter, but if I had to just pick 2, it’d be those 2. Colby in particular, Unlike all the others, it shows how you act in certain situations regardless of any other factor.

This is how you tend to go in certain areas, and they measure 4 different areas in particular. And it’s not right or wrong. It’s just how you are. How you feel about it doesn’t matter. How you think about it doesn’t matter.

You simply do things in this way and there’s nothing you can do to fight it. It’s how you are. When I know those things, when I know what the human design chart says and when I what Colby has to say about how you do things, how you act.

That makes coaching you a whole hell of a lot easier. Because now I’m not gonna suggest things that would fight against what those 2 other things are telling us about you.

Because my own life and and testimonials from others have shown me. There’s no getting around them. You can’t fight these things. It’s how it is.

If you fight them, you’re either gonna fail or you’re not gonna seed as easily or as quickly. So when I saw that she led with that, Amanda, when she led with the she’s like, I won’t even work with you until we do your chart.

I was like, hell yeah. That’s what I wanna do as well. So just be ready for that whenever you and I get get talking to 1 another. So that happened. Then there’s been a lot of talk online, in my case, particularly on LinkedIn.

About AI, chat, GPT, and others like it. So I bit into a course and I don’t have all that information in front of me, but I bought a course that teaches me how to find things to talk about using 1 of these new artificial intelligences.

And and I did a little back and forth with the creator of that course and learned some things just about business and life that were helpful before I even used his course.

This is going to be I’m gonna do a merge. I’m gonna merge what this guy teaches and uses. I’m gonna merge it with what I’m learning through Dan Co’s organization that I joined and haven’t even had time to dip into yet.

There’s a whole community he has behind a paywall of people like me and people much further ahead of me all helping 1 another to succeed based on what it is that Dan Dan’s philosophy about living, which I dig the hell out of.

I suggest finding Dan Co, K0E, on YouTube, if you really wanna get serious about getting somewhere with your life, I like how he pitches, how he how he feels life is and why.

And then there’s another guy Justin Welsh who got me into how to create messages on LinkedIn for marketing purposes that are valuable, that that catch people’s eyes, but are also valuable to lead them to my my website to get my newsletter, which is to kick off to everything.

All 3 of these guys talk about similar tools and systems and approaches. They’re all connected to 1 another. And I’m gonna merge the info from all 3 into how it is.

I collect information, how I share information, and how I help you guys. So that’s what I was working on for the last week, week and a half straight. And then some really, but it got really condensed over this last week.

I’ve been learning like crazy. It’s been like college in my office. So all of that happened, which has me very excited, then I had to redevelop portions of my website to match the new tooling that I’ve decided to use.

So I’ve been deep in all of that. And I’ve also managed to return to working out and sticking with it.

Now, I had sacrificed gym time because I don’t have the juice, the time, the energy, or the ability to handle the stress of doing all the learning I was doing and working out.

Now 1 of the things I teach is you have to work out to be able to do all the learning into blah blah blah.

Well, it’s a dance. It’s a balancing act that I don’t even stick to a hundred percent. But as someone who absolutely loves, and I mean loves being in the gym and hurling weight around.

I like metal in my hands. I I love everything about the gym. I was dying inside on a soul level, you know, let alone fitness level by not being in the gym. So I’m back in it again. I feel fantastic.

And part of the reason why I’m back in it is because I’ve wrapped up a lot of learning and come to conclusions and and built templates and have created a lot of stuff out of everything I’ve learned to move my cause forward and to be of higher and better use to you guys.

And so there’s been a settling that allowed me to find the energy once again and the time to be back in the gym. And I I feel fantastic about that. So all of that happened. There’s more but I’d like to get back to brother Bruce.

So Bruce slipped in. When he said cancer is a symptom, this matches what I discovered on my own about bipolar. I’ve been saying for almost 20 years now that for I think for most people, I’m gonna say most now.

I used to say some. Now I think it’s most. I think most of us bipolar is a is a symptom of an even larger problem that’s much harder to pin down.

And at its at its root, we’re not living life the way we should. Either directly by eating poorly or really bad habits that are just disintegrating our ability to live well.

Or we’re ignoring whatever the whatever the spiritual part or or whatever whatever the destiny of our makeup is requiring us to do.

We’re probably unaware of it. We’re ignoring it. Or if we know it’s there, we don’t know how to go about building on it and using it. And the better part of us is that war with the lower part of us.

Higher mind against lower mind. And the higher mind isn’t gonna back down. And if the lower mind resists too strongly, as it did for me, In my case, bipolar was the result. There are other reasons why you’d have bipolar.

But I came to understand all that even before I’d ever find out about Bruce Lipton. So his words, his his teachings, came you know, like like, it came full circle. He validated what I only felt intuitively.

And what I had learned oh, what’s that word? I got rid of tip of my tongue. But it’s when it’s not scientific. You can just see a thing keeps happening the way it is and then, like, that seems to be the way it is.

So that’s what came to that’s what that’s how I came to understand by pulling away I have and speak about it the way I do. And then Bruce is 1 of the people that backed it. There’s another doctor related, doctor Eamon.

Dr. Eamon found out that there could be things wrong with your brain that can create a lot of these problems too including bipolar and my and my point and he has a way of of of coming out of it or lessing in it greatly.

But he’s another doctor like Bruce.

They’ve been around many decades. Nobody believed in the beginning now they’re highly accepted as truth tellers with scads and oceans and reams and warehouses full of proof that what they talk about is true.

They both are saying there’s other reasons why a thing exists and these things, in our case, bipolar, are not just because there’s something wrong with your brain or and a balance of chemicals.

Any of the things why they say bipolar is, Ken and probably are true But then the way Western medicine approaches it, which is to treat the symptoms not to cause is a disaster.

At best, at best. You’ll find some sort of happy middle ground so that you can go about leading your life and not be, you know, filled with trauma and and these horrible symptoms, which III get it.

That is a thing to be strived for. But I’m saying if you stop there, There’s a very strong chance you’re missing a much larger point.

I’m saying if you can get stable, use that stability to dig even deeper in to why anything in your life is like it is. And I think you’ll find your bipolar lessening even more.

Now what Bruce talks about is man, his book I’m not going to even attempt to say it the way he says it because I can’t. But find his books And I got a link on my on my website for episode 59.

Just look for episode 59, and there’s a link to to Bruce’s books that’ll clarify this much better. But, basically, the body is an org is a a group of cells, trillions of cells that are all talking to 1 another.

It’s not 1 thing. It’s a community that matters. The the the the reason why anything in our body and minds is like it is, has to do with the environment.

The environment’s impact on the cells. The cells don’t necessarily think for themselves, and I and I think what he was what he says is actually genes.

Genes don’t turn on by themselves. They’re like a light switch on the wall. They’re just there until you put your finger on it and push them. Just because you have a gene doesn’t mean you’re gonna have a thing.

And he made a big case for that with with cancer. It’s a factor, but it does not turn on by itself. Something has to turn it on. Something in the environment impacts the genes and turns them on. He says, 1 of those things is belief.

And this is something I felt strongly about long before I had any proof. Basically, if you believe a thing is so, you will go out of your ways consciously and subconsciously to find proof that you’re right.

We all do this. It’s a bias thing that we all have. If you believe a thing is not so, you will go just as hard at it for the same exact reason to disprove that it that it is the way people are saying it is when you don’t agree.

That was me and bipolar. I was forced into this perspective. I simply wanted my prescription medication like everybody else and for the pain to stop because it was colossal and horrible and just the worst.

Just the fuck and worst and it needed to stop and needed to stop. I never really believed it would. When I began my journey, I was just hoping things would lessen.

I was hoping the load would light and somehow combined with the death sentence I got from my very last I a psychiatrist stating we cannot help you. Western medicine can’t help you. Psychiatry can’t help you.

You need something else. So I came up with something else. You’ll get all of that. If you sign up for my newsletter at bipolarexcellence dot com, you’ll get the something else in full without reservation, no charge.

So another thing that Bruce speaks about is energy. There is there is no such thing as matter. Matter is a concept in our mind that helps us understand the world around us through our 5 senses.

It’s not actually a thing. If you think about it, There’s things they known they now know are smaller than than atoms, but everything’s made of these little bundles of of energy.

I believe that’s the quanta. Which is which is where they get quantum physics from. If you wanna know about spirituality and and why life is like it is, learn about quantum physics.

You will see parallels absolutely everywhere. It’s mind blowing. So everything is energy, and our beliefs act on energy. And then it becomes what we call matter or our case, anything else in our world, what we believe comes true.

Frequently we don’t know what we believe or we believe that we believe things weren’t aware of. That’s your shadow material. They talk about that a lot at center point with Bill Harris, who’s no longer with us.

But he spoke a lot about the shadow material that runs your life a long with the programming you received up to age 7 that you no longer are aware is still driving the show.

So Bruce is saying, what we believe affects the energy of things and then it becomes a problem. That’s a very crude, poorly poorly stated version of what Bruce is actually saying. Please check him out.

Separate from what I’m saying. But I was saying about the atoms and energy If you look at an atom, the model of an atom, you got the little ball at a nucleus, and then way far away from it as the electron spinning all around.

In reality, there quite some distance from the nucleus.

There is nothing between them in the nucleus. Nothing. Nothing at all. There’s the nucleus and then way and then nothingness and then a little electron spinning around it to however, you know, however many electrons.

On top of it, the electrons spin so fast that when you push on something, it feels like something’s there because there there there’s always electrons present to push back against your touch.

So you feel what we then call matter. Again, if you were to slow it down, you’d find that most of the time there’s nothing there. On top of that they’ve been able to prove that electrons go away.

They just disappear while being measured and reappear in their assumed orbit orbit somewhere else, and scientists have no idea where they go, what the other place is that that they then come back from.

So for the most part, except for the nucleus, everything that makes up anything is almost nothing.

It’s almost completely nothing. There’s very little actually here beyond energy. And your belief directs that energy. So what I’m gonna end on is I only knew this intuitively.

I learned a lot a lot of the science years, many years later in some cases, I felt strongly enough that because nothing could help me in western medicine, I was not anti western medicine.

It just had been proving proven scientifically by the results experienced in my own life.

It was not only not working. It was making me worse. I found a way to get out of that and I had to, like I said, I didn’t even know I would get out of it.

I just I was just trying to survive. My only goal was to survive and not die horribly insane. And as I started getting better, I would have been alright just with getting a little better.

Because that’s how bad my symptoms were. Just to have them not be so strong was a godsend. Thing is, things just kept getting better. Why? I believed that if I stuck to my guns and listened to the new people that were helping me.

And and matching the stuff I knew about health from before I ever got bipolar, I knew that if I hung in there, I might just pull off some sort of recovery.

It be started becoming clear to me the longer it went on. I didn’t fully believe it.

I always lived in fear of the other shoe dropping for years actually. But after the first year, I realized I could finally throw away that hundred pill bottle of Clonapin that I had, like, a safety blanket that I never took.

I figured if I had if I really had a bad enough breakdown, at least the Clonapin would would ease that fear ease those fears.

Those those incredibly intense fears. And I had those moments. I just refused to touch the clonopin. And slowly but surely, the these these events, these panic attacks, really.

They they became fewer. They they came further apart farther apart. It was longer in between bouts and when they hit, they weren’t laughing as long. And eventually, they weren’t hitting as hard.

And then over the over the next so many years, they were they they rarely showed up And then when they did hit, I had developed even more coping skills to learn how to let them happen without getting emotionally wrapped up in them, which allowed them to move through me even faster.

They’d hit once or twice a year and only last 10 or 15 minutes, whereas they used to hit almost every day and could last up to 3 or 4 hours at full blast.

I did all that because I believed that there had to be a better way because I what else could I believe? There was no going back to what the rest of the world relies on when they have bipolar problems.

There was nothing for me. I had to gut it out and believe that I could get through this somehow, and it definitely wasn’t easy, and I definitely made a lot of wrong turns.

But I stuck with my plan of I am going to pull this off no matter what. Because I have to. The belief I had in the beginning was almost like a quasi belief because I didn’t really know.

I just didn’t have a choice with time and amassed wins in the form of wellness in less and less problems in my life that could be related to bipolar, then my leap my belief started become a thing that I’m like, no.

This is this is what the fuck I’m about, and I’m doing this. And then everything just got better and better and better as far as bipolar went.

I had I had a hundred other life problems like all the rest of us do. But bipolar crumbled. It crumbled in the face of my plan. So I’m gonna end with if you do everything I say.

Does that mean you’re gonna be bipolar free? Hell, no. For some I think for some rare few, like myself, as as time is proven to me. Yeah. It might be enough. But you’re gonna be in the in the the the the the rare.

You’re there’s you’re gonna be in a minority. But for the rest of you, I will say that should you follow the plan I offer, there is a strong chance. That at least the thing will become more tolerable.

I I feel safe saying that because what my system is about is really nothing more than a very intense way of giving your body and mind exactly what they need to simply run right as as a machine.

After that, you build on spiritual and when in whatever else. I have think more things to say about that in courses on my site.

But What I offer is simply to make this machine run right, and I got many years of being a mechanic and a technician on all kinds of equipment and systems under my belt And as a technician, my that’s how my system was birthed.

I looked at myself like I looked at any machine, any complex machine I ever fixed. And some were quite complex. And I figured out a way to make things better.

That’s that’s a very reduced in a brief brief story of what actually happened, the system that I’ll give you actually took me about 2 years to test and put together. So that was a bit of a long 1, but I feel I feel strongly about this.

What you believe comes true, And Bruce Lipton will give you a much clearer and in-depth explanation of why that is, and he’s been around, he’s been teach this meth message.

I know it’s more than 30 years, possibly 40 at this point. I feel really good putting Bruce Lipton into your life.

Should you act on my advice and go check him out. Okay. Blessedly now. I gotta I gotta doodle around a bit on my website and get some protein drinks in me, and then I’m going to Lyft.

And my god, I’m so little girl skipping down the lane to go get a lollipop happy. It is utterly ridiculous, and I can’t wait. Alright, guys. Talk to you soon and be well.