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EPI 71: No Plan Survives First Contact With The Enemy

EPI 71: No Plan Survives First Contact With The Enemy

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June 4, 2023

No Plan Survives First Contact With The Enemy

Make a plan. Don’t marry it!

Iteration. That’s what you fall in love with.

You gotta start somewhere. So start.

Make a plan and execute. Find all the pieces, set them up, integrate them.

Test. Tweak as needed.

Not A Plan, Per Se. But My To-Do List, Just for Context re. Work Involved In Creating A Plan

Throw some shit out and start over. Learn some shit doesn’t play well with other shit, even though some of the shit was perfect.

(An old favorite of mine, that last one. It ages you.)

But create a plan and build it.

Just remain loose, knowing that, with time, you’ll learn or experience things that force change.

Sometimes the whole plan has to be tossed.

But the longer you do this, you find the changes become less severe.

Only parts of the plan need changing.

Over time, you’ll get to where, should the whole plan need a redo, you’ll know by then how to do it much easier than when you began all this.

And for some? The plan will be good from the get go and remain that way for a long time.

You’ll never know which camp you fall in unless you start.

So start. Be patient.

Stay loose…detached from outcome. Professional.

Curse and swear, vehemently, when necessary. But briefly.

Then repeat.

You’ll get there.

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Hey, this is Ken Jensen. I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2 thousands. And believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process, was mind blowing to say the least.

Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve show up in my life so you can do the same.

Welcome to episode 71 no plan survives first contact with the enemy. They say something like that in the military. They say it in a lot of places, but being a marine I like I like I like connecting it to that part of my past.

So I have upped my game across the board as best as I can with all the equipment I have on hand. And with all the hurdles that are in my way, as as I try to build the thing that helps you build your thing.

I am recording the the podcast video. I’m doing a video because I started a YouTube channel. Now see now now I’ve been to extracted because I’m looking into my phone which is recording the video.

It makes really nice videos. I can do a lot. I can do some pretty cool editing in it with an app called Focus. I’ve used them before to make my course videos, and I’m looking off to the left. Now I remember where my camera is.

So people on YouTube aren’t watching me look sideways to the whole fucking thing. So I hope I hope I’m doing this right. I hope I’m looking in the right spot. I’m looking for my version of the red dot on the studio camera.

I hope I’m doing it. I’ve been in this fix before. It feels weird to me to not look right at yourself when you’re video recording. And you can’t because then you’re not looking at the the the viewer when they consume the show later.

So anyway, I’m picking a little green dot on the iPhone that the IRS and NASA and all the rest use to listen in when you think your phone’s off.

Just kidding. Who knows if they do? They probably do. They haven’t come and got me for for anything this this so far.

That’s so. Pardon my little aside ramblings. The microphone, I feel I’ve done some of you a disserve it, a service because I mentioned some time ago about the struggles, the mighty, epic struggles.

I was having with the microphone cradle integrity. As I sit here trying to talk to you, I’m getting texts on the phone.

They’re showing up on my computer screen. I’m struggling mightily to remain focused, and as you can hear, I’m failing. So listen, man, If you’re gonna do a show, it doesn’t have to be perfect.

Just do a fucking show. This shit’s gonna happen. My house suddenly got full of people when there had been none for the last 3 days. I got a phenomenal amount of work done. Now the people are back.

The TVs are on. The laughter and the yelling and the talking is all going on in my head. All around me even though I have this soundproofed box of of surviving the apocalypse built around my my desk, it’s not enough.

And and it drives me crazy and makes it really hard for me to focus. But again you’re gonna face the same thing.

I’ve said this before, I think, don’t quote me on this shit, but I think It was the guy who authored war and peace. War and peace had something like 14 kids, and they were all running him while he wrote war and peace.

So if he did that, I should be able to pull off this show. And I wanna read that book 1 day just to do. Anyway, so I’m I’m video recording because I built a YouTube channel.

And my phone is recording the video. I have a separate system that is recording the podcast like always. And the cradle back to the cradle, the cradle is hanging on by a gooey thread. I did not fix it right.

I did not repair it right. I bought the wrong kind of I wanna say, loctite wasn’t loctite. Liquid steel. I bought some different version of it instead of going with the shit that I was familiar with, and I mixed it up wrong.

And now it’s gummy and it’s holding this very expensive microphone in place, but it’s not positioned quite where I need to record perfectly.

But this’ll just have to do. I tried to rig this thing in a few different ways, and none of them really were doing it.

And so we got what we got with that and I’m gonna have to take it apart and clean it right and then get the right shit and and just take another run at this and then it’ll be fine.

Liquid steel is is awesome for what it’s designed to do. It’s awesome. So I just gotta get the shit that I meant to get in the first place and do that right.

So I I don’t know if the video will come out right. I dig it will, and I have a system right now. I think it’s called headliner. Headliner’s been taking my audio files And it it overlays a video which is something very basic.

There’s like a squiggly line like you’re reading Like you’re looking at some kind of viewer screen on some sort of avionics test kit thingamajigger.

Little oscillating lines or or what have you. And that makes a video that YouTube can then accept. And then that’s how my my podcast has been on YouTube.

The the the the YouTube channel I don’t know if that is anything different other than bipolar or excellence. I can’t remember because I’ve been doing so damn much. Let’s all go find out together.

So let’s see. Yep. I called it bipolar Excellence. If you go on YouTube and look up bipolar excellence, look up Ken Jensen. It’s at bipolar Excellence. That’s the name and then of of the show of the channel.

And then my name’s in there as well. I know due to me being too new, even as you punch in the exact thing, there’s chance you won’t find me. I appreciate any of you who dig deeper. Thanks for supporting the show.

So once I’m done recording the phone, I have the the Focus app on the phone, F0C0S and it does really cool shit with a with a video file. I can make it look and sound all kinds of different ways and put in subtitles and whatnot.

And it’s gonna add to my work list, but it’ll be worth it. And as soon as I do that, which is tonight, I should be able to get rid of the headliner app. That thing’s costing me 25 bucks a month, I think.

I’d rather keep that in my pocket. I ain’t rich yet. But it was a godsend because it got the ball rolling and it took all the almost 70 episodes that already existed and put them online.

And initially, I didn’t know I I didn’t have the the the bandwidth to learn 1 more damn the thing online, technically speaking.

So I let that thing load them all up, and then I went back and reviewed what was there and figured out how to edit what it put in place. And then I completely understood it right away and realized I didn’t need that at all.

But it saved me the job of, you know, there’s a nice there’s a better way to make the videos that I I know how to do now. Out of my earlier all my recent episodes, but I’m not gonna bother as too damn labor intensive.

Just gonna go forward. With the new setup I have. And later, I will eventually get an all in 1 rig where everything connected and I don’t have 2 separate systems running this show.

I’ve also got this great big mixing board that I bought many years ago from the podcast answer man, Cliff Cliff Rave Raven’s raven craft, something like that.

Apologize Cliff if you should ever magically hear this episode. He he sold kits and I got 1 of his kits and they now have much smaller little units that don’t eat up as much a desk base and I don’t need this thing.

You can plug like 5 other instruments into it beyond besides just the microphone I’m using.

It’s it’s overkill, but I’ve been using it for many years. It served me faithfully. I just want to I want to simplify wherever possible. So the site did some things in the site.

Let me click over to there. Okay. The catch line now, you’ll remember last week I switched it. I said outsiders. I switched it from trauma survivors to out Siders because I was tired of focusing solely on traumatized people.

I would you know, I did not want to continue drawing solely traumatized people to me. It’s it’s it’s not how we wanna live. It’s not who I wanna work and play with on a regular basis.

If somebody like that comes my way with a really incredible story, that’s different. But you draw to you what you draw to you. And if you don’t like what you get, You gotta figure out how you brought it your way.

I was literally going out and and bringing all these these sad energies my way that didn’t match how I feel about my life now even though I myself have an incredibly sad backstory.

It was decades ago. I’m done. I realized I had to do an even better job of integrating my bipolar disorder, nexus point story.

Into how it affected what I do now. And what I came up with, the new sub subtitle not subtitle catchphrase is beat your fears, gain confidence, create a rock solid plan for growth.

That’s kind of vague, But I looked up some other coaches that I respect highly and they 1 1 of them has 1 word.

I think it just says create. He’s doing fan fucking testing to the tune of 2500000. 0 a year with what he does. So if he can just do a header with his face in 1 word, I think what I just put will do fine.

The reason I I wrote that was I’ve learned from many coaches over the years, you you don’t, you know, unless you’re in a position to do so, you you don’t need to offer the entire sun wind and the moon to people.

They just wanna reach the next step. They they they they give quite a bit just to know what what the next step was and how to achieve it.

They don’t need to win the entire war. So what I’ve realized over all these years of working with people regardless of why I’m working with them or how large or small the project.

And and again including large projects, there is something about my personality that makes people want me to be around And when I leave a project or a job usually, there’s a certain amount of people that are devastated.

I have a spark and an energy and I bring joy to the day and a lot of laughs and motivation and I’m able to navigate rather choppy waters when the time comes in regards to dealing with people who have are having a choppy day.

1 of the guys I used to work under called me is fixer when somebody was really just spinning the fuck out it was my job to go and calm that person down so that project kept moving forward.

This is something that I’d I’ve I’ve noticed about myself no matter where I go or why.

I have a way of making just in general I have a way of making people feel better as they do something tough. Now most people are afraid to even take this the first step.

I deal with that a lot. I have people that are just they’re overwhelmed by the enormity of even putting together something what like what I have here and it is enormous and I’m small fry compared to the monsters out there.

I’m small fry And yet I will tell you this is a ton of work with a lot of somewhat complicated pieces that took me many, many months to learn and integrate, and I’m constantly iterating, repairing, upgrading, smoothing out.

Don’t let that dissuade you. Because now that AI’s here, I’m already finding ways to do shit even easier.

And I’m slowly finding ways to get rid of different things I have in place because now there’s just 1 button, you know, push button ease is coming our way thanks to AI.

I’m loving AI. Let’s hope it doesn’t turn into the singularity before I can at least have 1 very expensive vacation.

Some fucking wear with my wife. The other thing is I help people feel confident about moving forward on a plan and I do that in part. By helping them put together the plan.

I have been exposed to so much done so much, learned so much that there’s very little about anything with any mission, just just in a general sense or pitching a story, building a business, repairing a life.

It’s unbelievable how much I know and you don’t need to know everything.

But when you know as much generalized information as I do, if the direct answer isn’t at the tip of my tongue, I got a damn good idea of where we can find the direct answer because that’s how I’ve built all this.

I bring that to my clients.

Everything I just said. So I feel really good about that catchphrase that I just put in there. And a couple of the guys I’ve been talking about a lot Justin and Dan, they they say something like this is now the age of the generalist.

For years, I was told you got to specialize. They’re saying, no, you’d be a generalist, but then you do specialize in 1 or 2 key skills.

And that’s that’s what I do. I generalize in all the business aspects, all the tech aspects, all the business creation aspects, but I specialize and keeping you calm as we knit it all together.

So what else was I gonna say? I didn’t want to go very long tonight because I got extra work I got to do. The website, okay, the website. So I’ve gone through. I redid the homepage. I’m real happy with what that says now.

That calmed me. I had to be the fixer for myself. Homepages, developing a homepage, is it like is is 1 of the hardest parts of running a website I feel than anything else It’s not even complicated.

It’s how do you say the thing that matters most and the shortest amount of time to grab the people that would actually wanna work with you.

Instantly, dad is not easy to do, but I will say this much. I have a much like anything else. I have a much easier time putting together your message than I do fine tuning mine.

What’s that what’s that’s that’s saying the the shoemakers children have no shoes? It’s it’s always easier to help somebody else than it is yourself. You you all know that.

But I’m really happy with what I did with the homepage and it it it’s the closest I’ve ever come to succinctly and and point on saying what it is that’s in my heart and soul and brain when I’m working with anybody for any reason.

I’m really happy with how it looks. I’m really happy with what it says. I have to do the video tonight. The video on the home page only sorta makes sense now because I changed it.

So I’ll be doing a string of videos tonight before I gotta go to bed to get up for my day job. And I’m just pumped about that. A lot of videos I’ve been the need for videos have been sitting on my list for a while.

And now that I know that I’m gonna get them done, you know, it brings peace to my mind even beforehand. And especially on top of the fact that I rewrote all the it was just areas here and there.

I rewrote the the you page, meaning you, the me page, and I got rid of any mention of trauma anywhere. I could find it. Then I went into my newsletter system at Convertkit, and I had to update some stuff in there.

And right now the reason that happened was I no longer give away my wellness course. If you want it, you gotta buy it. It’s in the courses on bipolar excellence dot com. I do that only because nobody seemed interested.

New people signed up they they they got the, you know, the ability to log in. Nobody used it. Nobody reached out about it and III understand it. I understand it in that when people first meet you wants something quick and easy.

I’ve been aware of this as a marketing, you know, situation. I just know that me personally I always get pissed off when there’s a simple little fucking form or report. It drives me insane and it’s usually got shit in it.

That I knew anyway or I or I knew I knew close enough and didn’t didn’t really help me any. So the thought of getting access to an entire course. I’d be the guide it would go through the course.

It’s been made clear to me that I’m in the the the great empty minority on that front, people seem to just want something quick and easy. So I got something quick and easy in there now. I took 1 of my courses.

I pulled all the headlines out of it that the the main topics just wrote a little bit about about each and I shared 2 2 of the 2 of the tools that need to be in place for me to even help you should we work together later.

These 2 tools changed my life after I beat bipolar disorder, these were the next things that came to bear that once again changed everything across the board.

In a way that made my life so much better and made me understand myself so much better.

I was blown away and felt so grateful that I ever even found him they’re inside this 5 page report. The report itself is it’s helpful. It’s definitely helpful, point you down some roads you need to to be on, you need to be pondering.

If you want to do anything larger than just going to work and and and being part of the rat race, being a wage slave because That’s what I’m still looking for.

I want people that don’t wanna play small. I don’t care what you wanna do, but I want you to go for it.

I want you to play big. I wanna run with other champions. So let’s see. What else did I do? Tuned up some stuff inside the courses. I got all the videos I gotta make yet. I know there was some other there was some other thing I did.

I’ve been terribly terribly busy. There was no. You know what? I’m gonna end up just filling time. I’m not gonna remember what else I was gonna say and we’re pretty much reaching the end of this show anyway.

Let’s see what poignant thing could I leave you with? What what what, Sally sanguine. I’ve always liked Sallyant and sanguine as words.

I’m a words guy. Listen, you’ve heard me talk a lot on this show about what it takes and how hard things can be and that is true. I don’t want you to get bogged down by the thought of that.

Things are hard. It takes what it takes. There’s so and I also have realized about myself. Some of what I’ve struggled with in the technical area, other people’s cruise through.

They absolutely cruise through. I’m like, you know, I took a rock to the head in comparison to them. So you might be 1 of these people if you’re an older person and you haven’t even gotten in any of this yet.

AI’s gonna save your ass. You’re not gonna need to build all the stuff the way I built it. You’re just not. It’s already changing rapidly. So I want to leave you with some hope over the building of these types of things.

I don’t want you to ever feel overwhelmed by it. You’re gonna anyway but my point is you’d keep at it, you keep plugging away If you got me in your corner I’ll keep you going, I’ll keep you motivated, I’ll keep you squared away.

I’ll get you straightened out when you get wiggly. Nothing’s as hard as you as you think it is, nothing’s as hard as you ultimately make it in your own mind because you want this so bad and if you’re working with me.

You better be wanting this so bad because that’s the kind of spirit it’s gonna take to pull off anything that is larger than yourself.

And what is the point of life if not creating something larger than yourself? Because otherwise, not in every case, but in most cases you’re just existing That makes me wanna hurl.

That actually terrifies me. That’s what gives me fear, just existing. Then 1 day you’re either 80 years old and you don’t have it in you to do anything.

Ever again, that’s out of the norm, but you wished you had. That’s a very common fear that they say older people have on their deathbed, or you don’t know.

Something terrible could happen to you tomorrow that removes the option for building something like this and you’re only 26. Do you see what I’m saying?

You don’t know what’s gonna happen moment to moment. You don’t know what options are gonna be taken away from you. There’s gonna be options that get handed to you but they can also be taken away from you. What are you waiting for?

If you’re struggling just to pay your bills, then just consume my free terial because a lot of what I write about for free, I learned about for free elsewhere and fix my whole life. But you need to focus on work.

Once you get a few penny scraped together, you find out what the cheapest part in the first step is that you can take with those few pennies pennies to start making your mark on the world and you go for it.

If you dig through my material you’ll find something somewhere that planes even how to do that.

It’s time people, the world is changing fast, AI alone is going to make the entire world become unrecognizable. I I swear, I think before Halloween, it’s it’s June now. The world is changing incredibly fast.

I still meet people that don’t understand internet marketing don’t seem to understand how to make a business online. They don’t even they some people haven’t even heard of AI. I don’t know how that’s possible.

But, you know, there’s a lot people are ignorant of and ignorant means you’re just not aware. Your world changing before your eyes whether you know it or not, you need to jump on this wave and ride it while it exists.

Because sooner than sooner than later, it’s gonna come crashing into the beach and flatten and all the energy will be bled out of it.

And it won’t be that it won’t mean that you can’t get anything done, but you’re not gonna be able to get big things done as easily as you can right now and in the next I don’t know, 6 to 9 months, the the world’s changing that fast.

This is a boon to creators and those of us that can’t stand the status quo, grab it with both hands hang on and ride this thing into a greater future. Okay, that was perfect. Be well guys.


EPI-70: The Terrifying Reality Of Life Within The Circle

EPI-70: The Terrifying Reality Of Life Within The Circle

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May 28, 2023

EPI-70: The Terrifying Reality Of Life Within The Circle

The search for true focus might take you a minute.

And by a minute, I mean…years. Maybe.

But that’s not quite what I mean to say.

You start with a focus on what it is you want to do, and with who, as best as you can figure it at the time.

Then it gets refined as you get feedback from both the world and your own experiences, inner and outer.

I recently had a talk with a close, dear friend and in it, I blasted out my utter lack of desire to continue working with traumatized people.

Too negative. Too draining. Too pointless per my lifestyle requirements.

I want to only work with people who wish to soar, to climb, to leap and excel!

My friend felt the same but didn’t realize that I’d just had an epiphany.

But up until earlier today, my marketing machine has been aimed specifically at traumatized people and their stories.

Now, I AM fascinated by any great story.

But hanging around the grievously wounded and usually, actively still hurting from said wounding, has been grinding away at my spirit.

And here I was ensuring that I continue to get nothing but more of the same!

Insanity!

I couldn’t see it until I saw it.

Let me make clear: I am NOT against the traumatized!

I just don’t want to build a business around them anymore.

The reason I was even doing so was due to all the marketing training I’d had, up until this point.

  • “Focus on a target market.”
  • “Focus on what you know.”
  • “Focus on your best skill set.”

Etc.

But my newest coaches have been patiently teaching me that, in this day and age, the time of “the person is the brand” has arrived.

It simply means, I market…ME!

I then talk about what matters to me most, while sharing what it is I do best and how I can help others with this knowledge.

Then hire clients accordingly.

(I hope you caught what I just did there.)

So, that’s where I’m at. Revamping a bunch of my imagery and text to reflect this new understanding of who I work with and why.

A place I’ve been more times than I care to admit across the past 10 or 15 years.

But it takes what it takes.

And because I’m me and you’re not, you might just reach a stronger position much faster than I have.

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Hey, this is Ken Jensen. I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2 thousands. And believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process, was mind blowing to say the least.

Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve show up in my life so you can do the same.

Welcome to episode 70, the terrifying reality of life within the circle. This is sort of related to it was an an episode I did some time back called hurting satellites. I think this is is related.

It’s not exactly the same. But I I guess in this case, I had talked about how ideas and facts and resources and and just anything to be considered when trying to figure out a plan from moving forward on anything.

Within my head, it it it’s all it it’s I see it as satellites orbiting the planet that is my mind. And there’s a bunch of them. Some get flung off into space as I pick and choose and then the the the remainder.

The remaining group gets closer, gets tighter, together, and more close to the orbit that is my mind, and eventually it crashes into my head as AAA meteorite of awareness.

That felt ridiculous. That was too I didn’t think deep enough into that, and that was the best I come up with metaphorically right there, and then I have my answer.

And then After a while, let’s just keep with that. The the extra mass I don’t even know. This is the the metaphor is disintegrating.

Help me shit gets flung back out in into space for me to have to sort through all over again and pick and choose and tighten up the orbit there there of and get it all to come back as the next coherent plan to my head.

I’m in 1 of those right now, and that’s how it relates to the terrifying life. The terrifying reality of life within a circle, everything comes full circle. A little while back, I had a website called outsider’s Journey.

For a few different reasons, I I stopped producing on that site. And yet it was right where I wanted to be. I’m realizing that now. Some of the changes that got made since then had to take place.

But but I was on the right track. I had a conversation other day with a friend who who his friendship, I I value mightily. He’s he’s probably the best friend I got right now, and I’m I’m quite happy with that.

And we we rarely get to see each other. But in talking to him, I told him, I said, you know, he’s always wondering what’s going on with my show and and the coaching business.

And I said right now for marketing purposes, more than anything in a way to use the things I’ve been trained in the most and in reality, I’m going after trauma survivors and helping them tell a story and build a small business around their story.

And this is rational, and it’s correct for how the Internet works for marketing purposes. And a lot of coaches would tell you, you know, you gotta focus on such things. You gotta make a clear statement as to what it is you’re all about.

And yeah, you you do but there’s a few things. I’m finding that 1 of my longtime coaches Jason Leister and 2 of my newer coaches, which is Dan Co and Justin c Scott and a few others. They don’t pin down shit.

They talk about their philosophies and how they wanna live their life. And then within their their podcasts and their websites, and their posts on LinkedIn, they may clear what it is they’re they help people do.

And really, it’s just they have their own way of helping people market themselves to the world and create a business off the back of that.

A brand you’re the brand. And I’ve been absorbing that thought, rehashing it, and kicking it around. You’re the brand. This is not my idea. I got this in particular from Dan Co and Justin c Scott.

III don’t know if Justin says it like that, but they’re buddies in real life and I think they became buddies after finding each other through their marketing efforts They just realized they resonated and they they teamed up.

This is a thing I want to have happen out of my podcast in my marketing. I wanna find other people that just wanna partner with me in some kind of way. Even if it’s just what do you call it? You know, like a mentors group.

I’m blanking on the word brain brain something storm something brainstorming You all sit around and help each other figure out problems to your to to your business and life needs because you, in general, agree with how each other things, even if you’re not doing the same exact thing.

Master Mind Group. Thank you. Master Mind Group. So I had to finish that. I wouldn’t have been able to sleep well tonight.

Part of what I’m doing is to just find my mastermind group. Now I found it quasi so by by talking about the guys I just did and what I learned from and how, but I’m not with these guys in real life.

1 day I might be. Who knows That’s not why I’m saying this. I’m just saying I want 1 of these groups even if it’s just a couple of people. I have something like it in at a lower level in my real life.

But it’s it’s not used for anything other than friendship which is great. But I, you know, I’m talking about going going at at scale building business and back to my friend. I told him because he’s fascinated by what I’m doing online.

He’s fascinated. And I said, you know, dude, I’m getting fucking sick and talking about trauma. I have to deal with it all day in my day job, and I’m I’m I’m fucking sick and tired of it.

I I want a a lighter day. I I know things won’t be trouble free. That’s life. Nothing’s fucking trouble free but I’m directly asking for traumatized people to be in my life, and dead is the opposite of who I want in my life.

I have nothing against traumatized people, and I’m they’re gonna come my way anyway. Particularly, I think, because my shows called bipolar Excellence. This draws a lot of bipolar flavored people my way. Now that’s fine.

And I and I don’t think I can at least not anytime soon get away from bipolar and my title because it is the it is the nexus point of my entire life. It it helps I prove all my other points within context of pre during and post bipolar.

I I don’t think I can get rid of it. And as bipolar people come my way, 1 of the cool things I am finding. This this this is new. I I know some of them know, but I don’t know if all of them do.

But, you know, I don’t I don’t talk about bipolar much anymore at at least as far as like fighting it and dealing with it because I don’t want to. I learned the hard way you draw unwell people who also have no money looking for help.

You can’t build a business off. It has nothing to do with me or them. It’s just not a good business model. And it’s not how I wanna live. I I don’t. I wanna be with champions who are trying to climb the mountain of success ever higher.

I don’t know how high III plan on taking this, but haven’t reached the point where it’s exhausted me yet. And it’s not even like to measure piles of money or anything.

It’s just the excitement of being on large extensive projects that are heading somewhere cool. With groups of fascinating people who just will will not cannot settle for an ordinary life.

That’s what I’m after. I have to have it. So just the other day, talking to my friend, I’m like, III think something just happened and talking to you. I I’m fucking done with with drawing trauma to me.

All they ever talk about is quitting a job I’m on so I can get the fuck away from it. And he actually said, yeah. Me too, man. I’m I’m tired of it. He goes, I want I wanna do something more positive with my life.

I’ll say 1 more time. This has nothing to do with the people who are feeling traumatized. Nothing. It’s just not how I wanna live and I need to make that clear in my marketing.

So recently, I just recently about 20 minutes ago, I finished the beginning of this this latest pivot and all I really did is on LinkedIn, I changed trauma survivors to the word outsiders.

That’s it. Outsideers, the world needs your story, create an online business to share it with others. And then in my about page on LinkedIn, which is linkedin dot com slash I n slash Ken Jensen.

My about page, I only had to change the top of it. I’m not gonna I’m not gonna bore you with a reading that. And change just change the the the the the opening and the and the list that fought follows right under that.

And looking at it, I really love it. It’s it’s what I’ve been doing even as I say I do other things. This list really nails who I’m looking to talk to and why, because I I’ve been doing it.

I just never fully focused on I didn’t focus correctly on this. And I’ve been trying to I’ve been trying to square peg into a round hole the the situation into this podcast.

And I I think I’ve done that well enough. People have responded well to that. They get it. But until just now I didn’t realize how how far off the mark I still was and it was really just by a demographic, a title, 1 word, trauma.

Not doing trauma anymore. If somebody comes my way that fits all the rest of my my needs as a coach and a business person and and it’s it’s based in trauma that’s different If it fits, let’s run with it.

It’s still interesting to me. But I’m not going to draw just that to me any longer.

I refuse And I gotta tell you, look at Anvil fell off my my back when I made this decision, and I thought hard about it. The the intro to the beginning of this podcast, it doesn’t change anything.

I had bipolar and I beat it, which is mind blowing enough for a lot for for, you know, a number of reasons. It’s the the biggest 1 being it’s technically impossible according to the powers that be. But then I say right after it.

That’s not even as part of my story because it’s not. There have been a lot of things happening to me in my my day to day life, my non coaching life where I’ve been picking up on how people respond to me and why.

And also how these people reference my bipolar past in relation to how I am now.

There’s something different going on that I dig. I’m I’m I’m getting perceived the way I want. Just in regular life when I’m not talking to anyone who might be a potential client or or who is an actual client.

And now it’s helping me reshape what I say online so that I can get the correct clients for how I wanna live my life This is all in an effort to make clear to you you need to do the same.

And if any of you have been awesome enough to follow along on this journey with me for any number of months or years.

You’ll know that this is something I’ve been fighting with forever. It’s it’s it’s like an eternal It’s an eternal and eternal battle that I’ve always been struggling with, but getting ever closer to the truth.

What it is in my heart that I wanna do with my life. And now with respect, to the nexus point that is bipolar for me.

Now I’m feeling comfortable. Another lesson to be pulled from this is so many coaches are gonna tell you so many things. And they’re all actually, they’re correct if they work for you. I’ve said that before.

There’s a lot of good coaches that say completely opposite things. I’ve had coaches that were in opposition to each other and I trusted both sides equally, powerfully. This is a thing you’re gonna run into. You probably already have.

And when I found the when I found Dan Co and and Justin c Scott and saw how they pitched their information and themselves and and how they made clear, I am the business, which is I I’ve known this and could not fucking clarify it to my satisfaction online.

Particularly because at my age, I’ve been trying to beat the internet so to speak for decades.

I’ve got too much training in me and, you know, it’s an old dog new tricks kind of thing except I am capable of learning new tricks just not easily if you’re younger.

If you’re listening to someone like me, be like, well, I haven’t lived as long as him and been through all the things and solved all the problems and learned all the shit he’s learned, You’re right, but you also have less to unlearn.

If you if you pay attention to what I’m doing as I go forward, if you follow the whole thing and see how it changes.

If you follow the people I mentioned, they’re all younger than me. This is something that’s been blowing my mind lately.

My my my longest running coach Jason Leister, he I always blank on a website name because he’s pivoted a number of times to growing ever larger and getting ever cooler and ever more purified in his message as well, which which is what I’m doing and in part have learned from him.

He’s at damn it. What do you call himself now?

Sovereign business dot org. I followed him from all the way back when his website was client sucked dot com. He was complaining about how I have all these shitty clients. And and over and and that’s where I felt I was at at that time.

I was sick of what was happening to me with the people I was drawing my way. What they were paying me to do. How little they were paying me how hard I was working and not getting appreciated for it and all this shit.

Eventually, Jason and I both evolved into something more more adult more mature. I’m more aware of your clients like all the life around you is a mirror of your thoughts.

You’re drawing things to you. You’re literally making the world come true the way you believe it ought to be. If you have shitty clients, it’s because you wanted that to be so.

You need to unknit within your heart and mind and soul why that is. So as I started saying, Jason’s like, I don’t know. He’s somewhere around, I think, 15 years younger than me.

10:10 at least. I think it’s a little more in 10. And he’s been helping me for years. I paid him more than anyone else for for actual coaching and his free his free newsletter on sovereign business dot org is something.

If you like me, you need to get him into your head. But again, he’s much younger than me and then I find these other guys on LinkedIn.

They’re far younger than me. I’ve already lived twice as long as them. And and of course, I do know shit as as much money as they’re making and as cool as the things they’ve done in their life.

I’ve done mind blowing shit and succeeded in areas they haven’t even experienced yet. That’s just living. That’s not a I’m better than them or they’re better than me.

But they are better than me in in that. They’ve arrived at some very powerful conclusions a whole lot quicker than I did. That is not something that I need to defend nor should you if you are in this same boat.

These things take what they take. If you should you work with me, it’s mandatory that you get your Colby index a index a, I think they call it report and also your human design chart red.

Those 2 things will explain clear, crystal clear. Why anything in your life has been hard for you as it’s been, and it’s different for everyone’s.

You cannot judge I can’t I can’t see myself as a failure for taking just living 50 years 54 years and and not making anywhere near the money.

These guys dead, I’m I’m coming to value so highly made. Back 1II was still fresh out of the marines decades ago.

It’s but I’m just saying it’s I am shocked. III kinda I can’t get around. I’m I’m shocked that there’s people out there far younger than me that that just they just figure shit out quicker.

But again, I I don’t berate myself. I’m I’m just I’m grateful that I found them. Those 2 guys in particular Dan and Justin because they have a way of speaking that resonates with me mightily. And again, they I’ve come full circle.

What do I wanna be when I grow up? And and it it just it just dawned on between that talk with my friend about being sick and drawn, traumatized people to me, which I was doing up until hours ago, on purpose.

And what these 2 gentlemen talk about with the brand is you. Just be you because no 1 else can be you. No 1 else has the skills and experiences that you have, not in the combination that you do.

Nor had the life that you had that leads to the leads that has led you to the conclusions you now have that help you peep help you to help people the way that you do or will.

I guess another lesson in there is just don’t don’t be down on wherever you’re at in this.

If you’re new based and and you’re you’re you’re thinking your age, you’re thinking lack of money, you’re thinking lack of of technical know how, Software know how. Every nothing matters, man.

You’re where you’re at. And if I’m in your ears, Hopefully for you, that’s the first step of it getting better. Maybe you’re or or I’m bolstering something that someone else that you’ve known for years has told you.

I put my spin on it, and it helps helps you make better sense of it. Dan and Justin, this just to stay with them. They don’t talk anything like I do.

Now I talk a certain way, and depending on the setting, my vocabulary can can get quite extreme. It runs very high. And Dan, at least, like, I’m I just read more of him so I and listened to more of him, but probably Justin too.

Yeah. Justin definitely. Yeah. I’m I’m I’m soaking in it now. Just just on the regular, they operated a much higher level vocabulary used than I do, but I understand it.

I just don’t use it the way they do. And and because they say things the way they do, They’re not even saying particularly except for the brand as you.

They’re not even saying a whole lot of shit I haven’t been saying for years, but they have a completely different way of saying it.

Any much more intricate and detailed way than I ever could, that helps me understand the shit I’ve already been saying. That’s kinda crazy. And I’m nothing but grateful that I found them.

I I hope that I’m that for some of you guys. That would be a nice thing to know. Right? What a nice way to wake up and not and I’ll live your day knowing that that’s happening in someone’s head.

Alright, guys. That’s long enough for been a long day, an interesting day. I did. I worked my brains out and moved my entire podcast over onto YouTube.

It’s it’s in a certain format now. You can go on YouTube and look up bipolar excellence. And eventually you’ll find it. And somebody’s been listening already. I don’t know who haven’t even until just now.

Haven’t even told anybody I’m over there. But there’s a lot more I have to do over there to make the the videos look nice and, you know, marketing and blah blah blah blah. I’m not gonna bother with right now.

I’m I’m focused now on getting into the Justin Welsh LinkedIn to 2 LinkedIn programs that I bought from him and and just doing what he says to do. But I established my presence in YouTube in a way that makes me very happy.

I understand how it works in a way I didn’t until a couple of days ago. I paid first software to get the ball rolling that I’m no longer gonna need now that I know what has to happen.

It’s it’s it’s not a big deal, but I had so much on my plate recently. I I needed something to help me get there. Now I’m there. I get that money back, and I’ll do a better job on what the software was doing for me anyway.

How funny is that? There was something else I did. 0II juiced up all the episode pages on bipolar excellence dot com. I I had I had to clean up a lot of shit.

And make some things clear to every single episode page, and it took multiple attempts as you get doing these things you get a part way in and realize something else then you gotta go back and redo the ones you just did and keep going, etcetera, etcetera.

So over the last 3 days, I had to work on the same 69 pages on my website a few hundred times. And I just sat and banged it out. It’s just drone work. It it’s not it’s not complicated at all.

You fall into a rhythm and you just do it and I I’ve so I’ve been soaking online in my website and YouTube and to a certain degree LinkedIn for the past, I don’t know, 4 days. And I am positively spent Pretty soon here no.

I lied. The podcast that I was a a guest on isn’t gonna be ready till about July. I was scheduled to be on another 1, but that gentleman had problems with something with his with his family and we had a postponed.

That’s common. And then there was very interesting woman I was supposed to interview today and somehow that didn’t come together either. I I got a bad feeling that might have been my fault because this part of my business.

It went fowlow. I was interviewing people around the time my dad died, and then I dismantled everything in that that very trying time. I had to rebuild it all, relearn it, add some new shit, and relearn that.

And I I got a bad feeling. I might have lost I’m gonna lost contact in the middle it at that in a way that might have been my fault. I have no idea, but and I’m not worried about it.

I don’t hang my hopes on any 1 thing happening. I just keep moving. I know that That person will get back to me. I’m not even worried about it. And I I’m very excited to share what she’s all about.

It’s it’s rather huge. That’s rather huge with a capital r. So I hope she still likes me and comes back. And whatever. Even if she doesn’t, like I said, I’m not holding still for any 1 person or event.

I’m just keeping moving and something’s been happening just very recent with my self solidity and my confidence and my clarity on all of this and it starting to feel really good long before the results, the things I’m doing are designed to bring are even here yet.

I’m starting to feel like a fucking I’m starting to feel like an active marine again doing the mission trained me to do in in which I am motherfucking unstoppable in true marine corps fashion.

I am feeling that way before the results I’m striving for are even anywhere close, and it feels fucking good.

Let me tell you. Alright. That’s an awesome note to end on. I appreciate each and every 1 of you that listens to these things and talks to me about it in real life.

If you love me back, go to apple podcast and give me a nice 5 star review, and go to bipolar excellence dot com, and get on my newsletter, and get that free wellness guide while that’s still a thing because I am gonna have to swap that out for something else that makes sense with my my new slightly alter path.

So grab that while it’s there. It’s very very powerful. It’s what saved my life. Alright. Be well, guys.


EPI 69: UFOs and Family Time

EPI-69: UFOs and Family Time

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May 22, 2023
My son Christian and I doing a bad impression of “The Thing With Two Heads” while at the Pine Bush UFO Museum in NY.

Christian and I did our best with our impression of “The Thing With Two Heads“, a classic 1972 schlock horror film.

We were trapped inside the alien abduction teleporter at the Pine Bush UFO Museum in Pine Bush, NY.

Just so you’re clear.

It was a much needed, long time coming, family day for my wife, son and I.

But first, just so you understand the importance of the abduction thing:

Building a project such as mine means sacrificing things like family time and a whole lot of other things, across years.

Nothing worth having comes easy.

I didn’t discuss this in the episode but “work/life balance” means one thing in the beginning and something else entirely as you near the next level.

You don’t want to perpetually remain in this sacrifice mode. You’re losing more than you gain if you do.

My goal is to create a life where I can’t tell if I’m playing or working.

THAT is my definition of “work/life balance”.

Someone who’s committed to living the same way was waiting for me where the abduction pic took place.

And we had a great talk after the tour that led to this:

The Pine Bush UFO Museum owner, Lance Hallowell has tentatively agreed to be on the podcast soon!

He intrigued the hell out of me!

He’s going to bring a nice “out of left field” touch to the podcast and site.

I have many thoughts on why I want to interview him. But I’ll hold off until we actually do it.

Lance is someone who’s chased down a truly unique dream, with substantial hurdles the likes of which, most of us never even have to consider.

And he’s a showman.

It’s gonna be a fun talk.

And people like him are a huge part of why I created Bipolar Excellence!

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Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve up in my life so you can do the same. Hey, this is Ken and you’re listening to episode 69 UFOs and family time.

I wasn’t sure how far how much I wanted to say about what took place this weekend. It was very cool. But I ended up at the Pine Bush UFO Museum in Upstate, New York.

I have a friend who works with me at my day job who’s getting she’s worked there for I don’t know how long and she’s getting ready to quit that job to put a little little hair into her life.

She’s been working 7 days a week for quite some time and She wanted my family to see her, come see the museum and see her while she was still an employee.

She’s really cool. How you doing, Anna? And the museum was a trip. And and the guy Lance Hollowell, who gave the tour to museum owner.

He was a trip. Lance has at least agreed tentatively to be a guest on the show. He’s interested. I have his number. There’s a huge UFO event coming up, then Pinebush here just in a couple of weeks.

In June 20 23, it’s gonna be a thing like they do out at, what do you call it, Roswell. People will come up dressed as aliens and all kinds stuff and I think it spreads out through the town.

It looks pretty cool. I’m gonna try and go catch that event as well. I’m not at a an enthusiast in a direct sense, but it’s an interesting topic. I’ve watched a lot of videos. I’ve watched a lot of documentaries.

I caught the what do you call it? When Bob Lazar, I think his name was his was on Joe Hogan. That was pretty fascinating. And I remember I remember a couple years back that there was some guy that was writing a book about Bob Lazar.

That Joe Hogan interviewed, and that was an incredible talk as well. I’m not saying anything either way. I am willing to stay going on now going on out in the world that we can’t we can’t understand.

We can’t make sense of. And I don’t think it’s good to just dismiss things out of hand. But this episode you know, stay loose. Keep your mind open.

This episode is more about as cool as that was. I got a chance to spend some time with my family. In this case, it was my son and my wife. We’ve all we all work. We work different shifts. Everybody’s embedded at a different time.

Everybody’s awake at a different time. We’re all pushing hard to push my dream forward, and my son does pretty cool stuff all all on his own. And it’s been a joy to watch him just become a young man.

He’s he’s 21 now. He hate that I’m even saying these words, but He’s a good kid. I could carry on quite a bit about him because he’s also a cool person. That had been my 1 requirement of him since he was in the womb.

I used to scream into my wife’s belly, you better come out interesting. And damn, Danny, exactly what he did. I got fortunate. I worked at it. I worked at it. I shaped him, obviously.

But I let my kid become whatever he wanted, and put my most important principles in them which which was to be to be a great conversationalist, to be kind to people, to to work hard intelligently to always grow and to 1 day build something that is yours where you don’t answer to anybody.

You direct your own destiny because you’re in charge of all of it. I’ve been teaching him all that stuff which is all, you know, things that I talk about on this show to you guys.

And he so far has embodied all of them, and I know he’s quietly working on that last thing. I I don’t know what he’s going to come 1 day as an owner.

I don’t know what he’ll create, but he blows my mind with his capabilities, his maturity, his wisdom beyond years. And he’s also a young guy and he screws around me in that fashion, and I just have a really good time talking with him.

I know a lot of parents don’t don’t always get that They don’t always get that with their kids and I feel bad for them.

My kid, I I just like hearing what he has to say as a person and he can make me laugh. For that matter, I do the same to my mom, and she has COPD, and I have to be careful because I’ll get her laughing so hard.

She’s my best audience. And we’re we’re adults now. I’m I’m almost 55. She’s, I think, 75. So we’re free to curse and talk about sex and all kinds of things now.

We we have some pretty good laugh fest together. So there you go, more family. The reason I’m bringing this up is I’ve been working so hard on all of this because I have to.

I it’s it’s the only way I can completely free my wife and I from employment, my kid’s on his own doing whatever he wants, and that’s great. But I want to free us. I am I am freeing us from the yoke of being waged slaves.

I’ve I’ve loathed it my entire working life since, like, probably 11 And I although I’ve learned valuable lessons and you gotta work until you don’t have to, I’ve hated it with a passion my entire adult life, it’s for many reasons, but basically I feel like a slave.

I feel trapped. There’s never enough money.

There’s there’s limitations. Across the board, just limitations and lack. Now that has been turning around for me because everything I teach on this show, I’ve been doing and the situation is improving rapidly.

And I realized a couple of years ago that that was gonna be the case. And I stopped worrying about it even though I was frustrated that the tangible results weren’t appearing just yet.

But I learned enough about everything I share that I my confidence came way up my clarity came way up. My certainty that I was on the right path has has cemented. And I know what I’m doing and why and how it’s gonna go.

And I have I am about to turn on the the greatest part of the marketing machine that will bring more of the people to me that I need to come my way so I can both build what I want.

And help them build what they want because I also want to live vicariously through their projects, meaning your projects.

It thrills me to no end to be behind the scenes as somebody takes something pro that means the world to them and they’ve overcome all kinds of hurdles and self doubt and and lack and through ingenuity and grit and a network of good people and on and on they they make their baby become something that the world 1 day finds out about.

That is the that’s my most favorite story to tell. My own and and those the stories of those who have helped do the same. The it’s it’s a rather selfish part of why I built bipolar excellence dot com.

I I need need to be in the lives of people living as such. Another cool thing happened, I was talking to another young guy, and in this case, like, probably like 30.

And I’m I’m not gonna get in all the details. Another co worker who really caught my interest, and I’ve been trying to to get into an in-depth conversation with him.

And I found a way to do it because we’re all busy. We just we pass, you know, we pass and keep pass each other in the hallways and keep running because we’re very busy helping helping these people that need us badly.

And I finally got a chance to talk to him. We were good, but I just couldn’t get any in-depth talk because Well now I’m repeating myself.

So I finally got a chance to talk to him and I wanna say too much about what God said, but 1 cool thing was I told him, this is the best job I’ve ever had in my life for every reason possible.

Hands down and I hate coming to it every single fucking day and he yells at me. Thank you. We love what we do, but it’s not the thing we love most, and it doesn’t pay what we need. That’s simple. We’re good at it. He’s good at it.

I’m good at it. And I’m just glad I crossed paths with him, and we got talking about some more some more serious issues and aligned with in alignment with what this show is about, what my life is about, We didn’t make any plans.

He just helped me he just helped me he helped confirm confirm some things I already knew about my self and 1 of which and this is very critical critically important to me, and it will be to some some of you out there.

I a quick backstory, some of you, if if you’re listening along, you’ve heard about the young man I helped turned into a professional documentary filmmaker.

That is a really fascinating story how that came to being at work even better than I realized somebody had to tell me years later just how well that plan worked.

I didn’t know. I was just glad the kid was making it. And we we’ve been friends for, I don’t know now. I don’t know, 15 years, something like that.

And I was just really happy for him and we’ve crossed paths a few times since, but other than that not not much. Well, because he was in the movies, I realized some time ago, I I love movies more deeply than I even knew.

Meaning, 1 1 of the 1 of the things that made me realize it was I started falling in love with reading the credits at the end of the movie.

I was blown away when it really dawned on me how many people it takes to bring you like a 2 hour blockbuster or even an hour and 20 minute film. It’s it’s sometimes thousands of people and it’s tens and tens of thousands of man hours.

And the project itself could have taken many years to complete from start to finish. Multiple companies are involved. It’s it’s things are global. It’s it’s impressive.

When we sit and blow through movies like pringles potato chips on Netflix or Amazon or HBO, you you really have no concept of what just got handed to you. I mean, in 1 way you shouldn’t, you just wanna watch the movie and whatnot.

Only us only us what do they call us? Video files or something that would really get into this like I’m saying. But for any of you out there building something, you know, it takes a lot of effort, it takes a lot of money sometimes.

And it takes a lot of help, takes a lot of people, takes a lot of planning, takes a lot of patience, and nothing sows up that reality quite quite as well as reading the credits at the end of a movie.

So 1 day it dawned on me. I would really like to know exactly what the hell those credits mean. There’s some crazy terms in there. And I wanted to know officially how a movie got made.

I used to be part of a media facility where I got to see commercials being made. Music videos being made and I was I was privy to various parts of the process but never an entire movie.

I even had a producer friend who was crazy. He man he was nuts. He was fun. Holy shit was he fun. This guy just made small movies for a living, and that was it. And I was like, how the fuck do you get to wear it at your life?

I didn’t realize how that pertains to what I’m saying until just now. So I actually put on a mini film festival with that guy. He co hosted it with me and we showed some of the films he’d produced and some other things that came on.

Came out at that time and and we had a we had a theater full of people and it was a blast. I’d never done something like that before or since. It was just fun.

And So I bought a book that that described, defined, all the things that are in a movie, the the the titles, how the creation of a movie takes place, what the day sheet looks like, what the dailies are, you know, the business of making a movie, not just the artistic side, not even just the technical side, but the business of it and the administrative side of it.

And then I got excited. It was so many things to pick from.

And at that time that I bought that book, which was, I don’t know, I don’t know, 6 years ago, something like that. I was hoping to find my my next career path in the movies. I knew I didn’t wanna act. I’m funny in the right situation.

I’ll give you a heart attack with laughter. But I’m situational. I’m not a stand up comic. I didn’t wanna do that anyway. And so here I am looking through this book about things you can be in a movie. I didn’t wanna be the crew.

I didn’t wanna build anything and I didn’t wanna run cable. I’d I’d done that on some of the video things I’d been part of running cable and unpacking and packing crew or, you know, you’re like a roadie in that respect.

Interesting and fun, but not, you know, not a career that I wanted to develop.

And I read the whole book and by the time it was done, I had gotten almost completely finished with it and there was nothing in there that I wanted to do forever or the things that were close to what I might wanna do, they were just regular jobs and weren’t gonna pay me what I to live the life I wanted, and I started getting depressed before I even finished the book because I felt so strongly about being part of a movie.

Then came the section on what a producer does. Now I don’t remember the details, but it became clear that there are being a producer can mean many things.

You get the plan together, you get the people together, you find the funding, you can help motivate the crew or, you know, you’re you’re you’re kind of swimming between it all, keeping the thing going.

And and you you might have just 1 part to play. You might have many. You either find the money or you have the money in which in which case you are, like, completely in charge, really, it’s your money. That really spoke to me.

All of that. This brings us back around to my talk to my young friend at my job. And when I told him I said he’s into music but he also used to help make student films in college if I under if if I understand him.

And he knew a lot about making movies as well, and he wanted to get back to that even though music, I believe, is his true passion. And I told him just just the basic.

I wanna be a producer and he blew up. He’s like, yes, fuck, gosh. That is exactly what you are, and he named some famous producer names from the music world that I’m familiar with only because they’re famous.

I’m I’m I’m not that deep into music in in that way. When I am into the stories of people who have done interesting things like some of the producers he mentioned, and he’s rattled out all these names.

He’s like, you’re exactly like them. You’re that kind of a person. It’s what you do with this job, just just just floating around in your day.

He’s like, holy shit. Yes. You’re a producer. I was like fuck. Alright? That’s the kind of confirmation a guy wants to hear about when he’s pitching his his life slash career plan.

I knew it anyway, but it was really cool to hear this guy explode over the fact that that’s what I was pretty sure I need to be.

So there’s this podcast. There’s bipolar excellence dot com. There’s courses I sell. On on the on the website there’s coaching I offer. These things will stay in place because you need multiple streams of income.

That’s something I’ve never talked about on this show. You don’t want all your eggs in 1 basket. You wanna you want a few different things cooking along in case 1 of them takes a hit unexpectedly.

You still got 2 or 3 motor and along in the back and while you repair the 1 it just blew up or or maybe you gotta build something completely new for whatever reason. You want multiple streams of income.

So everything I have running now is going to stay running or it will run I have some version of it running, but ultimately what I’m looking to to become is a producer where And and I would I would imagine at this point it it can fit into so many different careers, but movies really do sing to my soul.

Speak to my soul, make my soul sing. There you go. And I don’t know what this is gonna look like. But I know I’m gonna make it happen.

And I feel even I feel even more more confident it can happen that it can happen because when you look at the credits, my god. There’s so many producers producers, executive producers, co executive assistant.

They just goes on and on and on. There are so many ways you can take part in a project. And as I’ve been saying, the biggest thing that drives me through all of this is being part of a project.

So I don’t know how big I can take that. I know I wanna take it as big as I can. If I’m enjoying myself, I will just continue if if there’s a limit that I don’t wanna cross because it cuts in how I wanna live my life.

We’ll deal with that when it comes, but I want in at that level and that’s where that’s what everything I’m doing with you guys and on the website, that’s what’s leading to.

Even these things are just stepping stones to something something larger.

If you’re out there trying to put a dream together and you haven’t even gotten to point of of creating what I’ve created, take heart because because now with AI and in other technology that was already happening on the Internet, it just keeps evolving so fast.

You already can make things like what I’ve made this this this digital empire of mine.

You can make them easier than I made At this point, I I run everything on WordPress, and WordPress works with I don’t even know blocks and shit where you can just, like, pick and and click and a thing happens, and I couldn’t get used to it and it frustrated the shit out of me because I got like 15 years of of using WordPress the way it was initially designed.

And thank God they made a plug in that allows you to keep your your website in the background running in the old fashioned way.

I’m not even bothering to learn the new way. The the other 2 websites I run which is family network chiropractic dot com. And what do we call that?

Peace work outreach dot com. Those are for 2 dear friends of mine and I run their stuff on website the same exact way because I told him I will take care of you guys until Well, period. I’ll take care of you guys period.

No matter what happens, your sites are gonna running. If you don’t need them 1 day, great. It’s over. But as long as you need them, I’ll keep them running. And I help them in in different ways with that.

But I’m not going to build any more websites and if I do it’s gonna be with the new technology like I used with a with another a client actually where we fed in some keywords and hit a button and AI crapped out on 1 page website in 30 seconds while we watched.

Then I spent the next 20 minutes or 30 minutes tweaking it and it basically was a 1 sheeter that had everything he needed on it to do business.

Like that. Things change, things improve, you don’t know how to you don’t need to know all the stuff I’ve been forced to learn.

And if you’re into the coding and the tech, you can still take it to the level I’ve taken it where you’ll have granular control over absolutely everything.

A piece of me needed to know I can have granular control. So that I can rest at night. Having things just the way I want them. A little bit of a perfectionism there but it is what it is.

So having said all that I’ve said, this has been my life and my mind for many years and and finding ways to just spend time with the family has always been hard and we usually couldn’t even afford it.

If we did spend time together, that just meant a movie at home. That’s all we had.

Or we might go out for a meal because we had a lot of lean years. So let that give you heart as well. Things have gotten remarkably better for me in that area and in all areas of my life, everything I’m trying to build and building.

Everything I am building There’s activity happening the lights of which I only used to dream about. It’s happening before my eyes. You’re hearing some of it. That’s not easy to even share all of it, but I’ll find ways to do it as I go.

And Just hang in there and keep going, guys. Don’t give up because if you give up, you give up. The only common denominator between all successful people is they kept going. They never quit.

You don’t have a choice. What are you gonna do? Go back to a life of quiet desperation. You can’t. If you’re listening to me, there’s already a piece of you. I’m sure that can’t accept that. You’re you’re gonna at least die trying.

And that in itself is even admirable because at least at least your you’re not living in ignorance and and you haven’t killed your spirit by giving up because I believe although it would be much better to finally succeed Even if you just keep trying, it means something.

Even if it doesn’t bring you happiness, it means something to somebody who’s watching It’s a form of motivation for people around you.

You never know who cares who who you never know who you care about, who’s watching you and just so proud that you keep going.

It could easily go the other way I know. And I wonder why you don’t just give up on a thing that doesn’t work. But then that’s where you find someone like me or the people the other coaches I talk about.

There is such a thing as trying too hard on something for too long when you shoulda you shoulda pivoted somewhere. That is a tricky dance to figure out when that moment hits. I’ve spoken about it in 1 of these episodes before.

It is very frustrating. But you’ll know when you know, you’ll see something somewhere as long as you as long as you maintain an open state of mind then try to stay loose, not too rigid in your views.

And when you hear something that sort of bumps into like maybe I need to change, you’ll know it when you hear it and that is That is 1 of the shittiest pieces of of advice that is absolutely correct, and there’s nothing you can do about it.

You’re gonna know what you need to know whenever it hits, And in some cases, it’s gonna be way longer than you would like for it to be because that’s what it takes for you to grow into the person to make use of the notification when it finally does arrive.

It takes how long it takes however long. Just don’t quit Alright, guys. Go to bipolar excellence dot com. Sign up for my newsletter. Get that free wellness course while that’s still a thing.

This ain’t some marketing shit. The only reason I put that there was it was the only well formed product I had to give away, and I I didn’t have the patience or the time to build something new.

And it fits with what I’m offering. So at some point, that’s gonna that’s gonna go away. It’ll just go for sale with everything else. And when I got a when I got a minute to address it.

So right now just go grab the thing. It’s a whole damn course. I use it to beat bipolar without drugs. After using drugs for 8 years and getting nothing but destroyed for the effort. It’s powerful shit. It saved my life.

It’s changed other people’s lives and saved lives. I don’t know if it will for you. I can’t make that statement. I just know everything in it is good and helpful. And if you do something in it, your life will get some kind of better.

Go grab that by getting onto my newsletter list. And then we’ll be in touch and you’ll be able to follow my journey a little closer and at some point I’ll have because I will.

I’m gonna offer people on the newsletter, things that I’m I’m not gonna offer to people that have not signed up.

That’s a thing in business that you do. As a way of rewarding those that take, you know, that little bit of extra step with you.

And I’m really looking forward to seeing what I’ll build to meet that need and find the people that really resonate with me because that’s the other reason you do it.

You’re looking for the people that exactly resonate with you so that you can 1 day work together and have a good time and make a pile of cash doing so.

You sometimes can become lifelong friends if if nothing else Everything is just better and the way you always wished it could have been.

That’s all that everything I’m doing is built to do. I will teach you how to do the same. Alright, guys. Be well.


EPI 68: Struggling With The Fish

EPI-68: Struggling With The Fish

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May 14, 2023
This is Ken’s actual fish. No, he has no name. He’s simply my guy. His buddy is behind him. My other guy.

The fish in question is the Zuppa di Pesce I just had at a great restaurant for Mother’s Day with my wife.

The day and meal left me with no desire to do anything.

Particularly this podcast.

Plus, it’s getting late. As always.

But after I added the video below, attempting to enhance the poignancy of my point, I started waking up!

I’m Not Even Supposed To BE Here Today!

The first time I saw “Clerks” was life changing.

It was clear that “someone new” was on the scene, named Kevin Smith, and that I loved him and all his friends.

There was nothing like this movie prior to its arrival.

It sang to my soul!

I remember I had just quit drinking but was still tripping and smoking weed.

So I got to see this high, an incredible gift in itself!

I’ve since seen this movie a bunch of times and all the rest of Kevin’s movies too.

But all these years later, what I’ve come to really enjoy are his interviews.

I love understanding how his mind works and what drives him.

(This is a theme in my every day life, on the clock or off.)

He’s a creator, like me, but more artistic than informational.

Yet I’ve learned so much from him.

The thing I’ve embraced the most is leading with my true persona. My attitude. My perspectives. My style. My language.

No apologies.

And he always put in the work.

He thinks about fucked up things and usually turns them into something decidedly funny.

Or sometimes he builds things that are incredibly dark.

But he always builds.

Yet he apologizes for very little.

This is that “authenticity” you hear so much about.

It’s also integrity.

I like being me, just the way I am, even though I’m constantly trying to improve.

But my attempts to improve do not include watering down what I know makes me shiny to those with whom I resonate the most.

I’m a lunatic, at times, who knows things and cares.

I’m using that mix to help others tell their stories, adding to mine in the process.

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Hey, this is Ken Jensen. I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2 thousands. And believe it or not, That’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process, was mind blowing to say the least.

Bipolar has hidden within its strengths, I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve shown up in my life so you can do the same.

Welcome to bipolar Excellence episode 68 struggling with the fish. So that was an odd thought that popped into my head.

I went out tonight. It’s it’s mother’s day 20 23. May fourteenth, and I went out for a nice dinner with my wife. We don’t have the time or matching schedules enough usually to do that very much.

And even though we had the time because of the unusual schedules, 1 of us hungry, the other 1 isn’t. So it was nice. We had a nice meal I had Zupa Depeche.

And after all these Zupa Depeche was in me and with the setting sun and the coming war day, I completely lost my will to do anything else for the rest of the day and this podcast had yet to be done.

And that seems to be the way this always will be until I finally retire from my day job, and this won’t be such a struggle for me. Ever the struggle. That’s why I titled it this way.

It’s a fight to put this work in and to keep putting the work in and it has to be done. I I got what happened. Something happened in a few episodes back, and I missed a couple weeks, and it was unavoidable in that respect.

I had nothing left. I was busy with other stuff in my life. Whatever it was, I said I talked about it in that last episode. A couple episodes back.

I don’t even remember which 1, but There was no way and I did not care. I was spent on every level. Tonight is the normal spent. The spent where I just wanna mellow out and do some Netflix before I gotta go to work tomorrow.

God, I can’t I cannot stress. I cannot stress to you listeners how joyful I’ll be when I earn my way out of out of that job and it’s a great job. I’m just not an employee. I never have been.

Nobody should be unless they’re doing it to soothe some ache deep within their soul or you’re at some point in life where you need a job to learn something that you could then 1 day turn into your own business company or service.

I’m not saying you don’t work. I’m just saying you you don’t less people need to be an employee than they realize. That’s what I’m saying.

You’re gonna You’re gonna always work and I think for a lot of people they don’t want the responsibility of being a boss. I know that for a fact actually. I don’t know plan is. They don’t like work, but they don’t know what the plan is.

They don’t hurt responsibility. Life is a lot simpler when you can blame someone else for all your problems. And I’m not that guy. I need to be in charge of my day and I relish it and I want it.

I don’t have enough time to enact all the cool ideas and write about the stuff that pops into my head that I could go on about at length that would be helpful to you in an in an in an enjoyment.

Is that a word? Enjoyable to me to share. So anyway, back to the fish. So that was it for the fish. It it was just me trying to find the gumption to do my job, that being this podcast.

So in the process, I I went and found a clip on YouTube about the movie clerks. I’m not even supposed to be here today. In this Cipes, I’m forgetting I’m forgetting his is Randall and the other guy’s name.

I I I’m blanking. III should be struck down by the movie gods for blanking on on his name. But he’s complaining because he had to come in to work on an off day because somebody else no showed.

And then these 2 buddies argue it out in the in the the mini mart about the other ones, inability to take responsibility for his life and and a bunch of other things.

I put a like a little 30 second clip on on episode 68 on bipolar excellence dot com. It’s funny. If you get the if you get the newsletter, you’ll see it in there as well.

So I’ve always wanted to throw this in. The little clerk the the little clerks I’m not supposed to even be here today. When I first saw that movie, because now we’re gonna talk about that because it matters.

Clarks, when it came out, which was in the early nineties, I can’t remember what year exactly, but when it came out, it was a game changer in movie world.

Nothing like it had ever been made before. Or if it was, it never gotten major play. This was back before the Internet. This was back with VHS tapes. Shit.

I remember beta tapes were still a thing back then. And, you know, you had to be fortunate enough to find certain things. And if they were really underground, you had to know a guy who knew a guy to to find copies of of anything cool.

I kinda missed that little side rant. I kinda missed that because the the the satisfaction of finally getting your hands on the copy is something you’ve been trying for weeks months to find.

There was nothing like it. Now now you can find you can easily find anything you want.

I like that too. I really do. But I do miss the adventure and and the achievement and the victory of finding a copy of something that you only heard whispers of through through side conversations with other people.

I miss everything about the video store and all of that. But anyway, clerks makes me think of all of because there was a video store involved as well.

It’s 1 of the best movies ever. Please go see clerks. So I’m reading on a page I wrote before I made this year episode and what what clerks led to for me. Beyond the enjoyment was I eventually got to know the world of Kevin Smith.

He went on to do bigger and better things and then he he that was a little indie flick and black and white made with, you know, no money and a bunch of local people and friends helped out in the neighborhood.

Which in self is awesome. That’s something I really love about making a small movie that the community can pull and get pull together like that to help the movie makers’ vision come real.

I still love that to death. And I aim to be on projects like that soon. I have been, but it’s been a long time since I’ve done so actively.

It’s 1 of the coolest thing to be in rooms with people like this making a thing come true that probably isn’t gonna make any money or if it does, it’ll be very little, but everybody’s committed to seeing this thing being brought to life.

I I love that so much. I had I had a strong taste of it for a while, and then my life changed and I got I wasn’t back in it.

I wasn’t in it any longer like I used to be. I want that back. That’s part of why I do everything I do now. So I’m watching all of Kevin’s movies.

He, of course, got better with age and he got into other genres and did some really twisted stuff, some really phenomenally interesting stuff. He made some good traumas. Not everything he made was gold but whatever.

Then as I evolved as a human and just wanted to do more with my life, I started finding interviews of Kevin Smith or with Kevin Smith and I liked how he spoke about why his life was like it was and why he did anything like he did.

And it was plainly evident he could give a shit about what anybody thought about what he said or or anything. He’s just gonna Kevin Smith and you can just fuck off if you’re not cool with that.

Oh my God do I love that? The You could say it takes balls but people that really lit lead their lives that way, it it it’s it’s frequently It’s not even balls.

They’re just not bending and they don’t care. So I emulate that most of the time but it’s something I’ve struggled with wondering as I put my message out there.

I I definitely can be too much too soon to new people. Sometimes you gotta get to know me. You gotta get your head around where I’m coming from. It’s some of it’s weird, some of it’s way too aggressive.

Some of it’s very sick and twisted. I’m all of these things but I can I I have no attempt to not be deep? I have no desire to not be these things. I want to improve how I wield these facets of my character, definitely.

But I don’t want them to go away because I enjoy shit out of them. I want to enhance them and use them well, use them better, and draw the other people like that to me.

Or if not exactly like me because as I’ve found, I draw people that are like a hundred percent the opposite of me in every way imaginable, but me being me gives them something they need to pull off whatever it is they’re trying to pull off.

Then I throw some advice around what have you. I have found over the years in very sometimes unique ways, there’s something about having me in your life when you’re trying to get something done.

That people the right people, they gotta have me. They gotta have me. Way back before I started this not only this podcast, but the 2 that came before it that are since long gone.

I remember asking my coach at the time, Jason Leister. He is at sovereign business dot org. Go fall in love with him. You’ll thank me 1 day. He’s 1 of the best people. I told him listen, Jason. I don’t know what my thing is.

All I know is every job and I’ve had every job under the sun, most of them are not related to 1 another, but at every job people seem easy and willing to drop all their problems in my lap and they wanna They want my opinion.

They want answers. They wanna know what they can do about them. I know there’s that. And then I also know that wherever I am I tend to be 1 of the sparks. If not these bar, depending on the size of the organization.

I seem to be the guy that adds some pizzazz to the day and gets everybody else motivated and fired up just being a Luna Luna ticking saying the the fucked up little off off hand remarks I make that I’m I’m awesome with in in a in a conversational setting.

I just know right what to say when and it’s it’s some of it’s just twisted as hell and it’s always perfect and it’s frequently used in a way that takes care of people.

It’s how I am. I can’t sit and, like, say it as I’m talking about it here.

It happens while I’m talking to people. So there’s that when I’m when I’m present, everyone’s more excited and happier and motivated. And I know that when I leave a job which has happened over 50 some odd times now.

I leave a trail of tears in my wake. People are just dirt they When I find people that I used to work with at any of my former jobs, I’ll get some kind of comment like it just wasn’t the same after you left.

Or everybody still talks about that shit you did or in some cases other people quit too. That’s happened more than once too.

Once I left, I don’t know. It it caused the vacuum that no 1 else was comfortable with, and and it it’s it’s literally happened on about 4 different jobs I was at where the people just left right behind me.

I’m not gonna sit here and say I was holding the whole company together, but it’s kinda weird how many people left at each of these places.

In 1 case, it was 55 0. And everybody that I crossed paths with in the in the the the few years right after it all said. Don’t know, man. Something about after you left, that was something happened.

It just wasn’t the same place. I’m sharing all of this because as I started to say about Jason Leister, I asked him I don’t know what the fuck it is about me but I have this impact on people and I don’t I don’t know how to define it.

And I don’t know how to digitize it. I don’t know how to put it on the Internet.

I don’t know how to make money from it. I don’t even know a hundred percent what it is. I’m a great companion. I do a certain amount of crowd work like a comedian. I seem to be a counselor and I’m also a coach.

I’m also a visionary. I’ve helped other people build stuff who’ve gone on to do better than me faster and I was nothing but happy. I said, what What am I? And he was like, well, let’s start with your impact.

What’s your greatest impact? I said it seems to be while people are talking to me. He’s like, then podcast. You need to be on a podcast. That’s how you guys are hearing from from me now. That talk with Jason was many years ago.

And the funny thing is As I’m sitting here talking to you, I do get into a flow state rather quickly and I like executing the act of creating a podcast well, but I’m not even fond of making podcasts.

I’m not. I’m fond of the conversations they will 1 day lead to as you listen to this and decide you wanna work with me.

This this is the price I pay among others to help bring you to me whoever you are to help you understand me and to help you decide yes or no if I’m the guy that that you need to be working with next.

I do it as well so that the wrong people are pushed away.

I don’t want to see them. It’s nothing personal. We just don’t match and I don’t I don’t want to work with anybody that doesn’t want to work with me. I have actually done that in the past and it is a it’s bad juju.

It it never ends well. And I don’t want that. So I build all these things I bill build so I can find the people. I can help the best and enjoy doing so. Enjoy doing it with the most.

So That’s all I got. This one’s gonna be short. More things have been happening. There’s a lot of stuff going on in my my world with my mom’s house, I I put up a go fund me page if you punch in Ken Jensen on go fund me.

You’ll see me with a baby version of my beard with my arm around my dad. If you wanna something there.

I appreciate it. If not, or if you’re looking to build something and reach out to the world, go check out how I built that go fund me page just for copywriting tips and and to see how somebody shares a story online.

It’s not my best work. I kinda just cranked it all out rather quickly as it came about.

But I did edit things as I built I I did want them to be a certain kind of done well a certain amount and it’ll give you an idea of really that’s that’s that’s like a that’s like a a low cost quick lesson on on how you might reach out to the world.

Not exactly true. Go for me page but the words I use and the way I position things and the way I use headings and bowls and images and the words I choose in a way I I use them in the order they’re in to tell a story.

There’s a lot you can pull from that go for me page. If you wanna help my mom, well I love you.

Go do so, please. If not, that’s fine too. Okay. Let’s cut this 1 short because I I am fried and I am still absorbing a lot of whatever is in Zoop at the pest and I’m tired. Alright, guys. Go to bipolar excellent dot com.

If you haven’t in the past and and sign up for my newsletter and you will get my free wellness course I get a feeling it someday. More likely, I’m gonna evolve to the point that it doesn’t make sense to give that course away.

If you need to know how to live life better, heal from hideous things no matter what your problem is and succeed a little a better life. That’s a nice foundational piece for you to have in your arsenal.

Go get my it takes guts to live well course while I’m still giving it away. And tell me someday if it helped you that would be really cool. Alright, guys. Have a good night. And be well.


EPI 67: Eddie Pepitone: The Insane Improbability Of Silver Linings

EPI-67: Eddie Pepitone: The Insane Improbability Of Silver Linings

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May 7, 2023

Ken Jensen, Eddie Pepitone, Dorian Roberts: Mahoney’s 2023

I don’t truthfully know how I can shoehorn my night with Eddie Pepitone, my friend Dorian and I, into this episode’s message.

And I don’t think I care!

I just wanted to use this pic before I forgot about it!

HA!

(It’s my island! Braveheart reference!)

Here. have some more Eddie!

As you learn, ponder, assemble, rearrange, gain feedback, f*** up, and all, there will be silver linings galore.

They come about more often the longer you apply yourself to The Mission.

They will often not be immediate. But sometimes they will be freakishly fast after something you thought just ended the whole program!

My point here is, when everything breaks down, blows up or lands you in some awful situation you never saw coming, you are frequently experiencing what will later be seen as some of your largest sideways victories.

Everything you do will result in fights you don’t always win.

It’s only later that you discover had you won EVERY fight, you’d have lost the entire war!

These lessons can only come with time.

Patience, self-grace, retrospection and introspection will eventually reveal these things to be the gifts they always were.

Knowing this, as you build, takes the sting out of the losses when the silver lining is nowhere to be seen.

Trust me on this and you’ll get better at spotting the silver long before it ever hits.

It becomes a feeling. And it helps you survive the hard shots more easily the longer you go.

You just sort of come to this…understanding…with yourself and your process, to where even the sh***iest moments have a shimmer of goodness around their edges that you can already see coming.

Did that all just make sense? I hope so. I’m working on overtime here.

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Hello, fellow trauma survivors. This is Ken and this is episode 67. The insane improbability of silver linings. I’m struggling to find 1 in the present just with the act of making tonight’s podcast.

If you could see this cobbled together So as you may recall, Last week, the fucking clip that was barely welded had just a a hint of a welder’s attention in passing somewhere at the factory when they made the fucking thing that holds the the little floaty nest for my microphone so that it doesn’t pick up vibrations from the from the table or motion around it.

That broke free. So I haven’t yet gotten around to getting a new microphone.

I had another 1 at the ready but it’s a different kind of of microphone. It’s It picks up whatever’s in the room. The 1 I’m using here, you’re supposed to talk straight into the end of it.

And I’m kind of looking forward to getting rid of it so that I have more comfort in in speaking. I’ve been looking at podcasts online that have video attached, which I will have soon as well.

And I see some ideas for microphones that I’ll I’ll end up getting But for now, I found I pull III It occurred to me that I can easily fix the clip for the the nest mount if I just go get me some liquid steel, whoop some up, put a little couple dabs on there.

And it would’ve it’s like a weld. Done that those things don’t break. Well, in my shopping spree last night which I’m a terrible shopper.

I really am I find a liquid steel. And they have new versions now as well. And who knows why I didn’t just grab the shit I’m familiar with. I grabbed some of the new shit because Who knows?

It looked like it might be cleaner and neater. So and it premixes it inside 1 container, the old liquid steel 2 tubes of shit, you spurt them out together and then stir them up with a stick, kind of caveman style, kind of analog.

This other 1 I’ve I got was look nice and digital in the new age. Had a couple of tubes that combined into 1 and mixed the things at the same time with a plunger. Yeah. Well, I forgot about the nozzle that went on the front.

I’m thinking about tubes from the old days. I never even put the nozzle on the front. It’s still in the package. I’m squeezing them and 1 half of the stuff comes out without the other half.

And I end up putting that on the on the clip. And of course, that was only 1 half of the formula, so nothing nothing sealed. But I don’t know that till the next day, which was today.

Then I look at my situation and realized what an idiot I was and I put the little nozzle on and spurts some through to make to running right and mixing right and I attached some of that on.

Now that worked a little better but probably I didn’t do a good enough job of getting the the old stuff out of the way first and it it’s it’s grabbing on but nowhere near fast enough.

Should have been done already. It’s supposed to cure in an hour. It’s sort of cured and that was many hours ago.

So I’m like, okay, now I can’t mount the the nest to the boom arm. And I’m I’m starting to get hot. It’s these little things that get me hot, same as everybody else. And it occurs to me I’m like, well, I got that under microphone.

That’s got a nest. It’s just the the sound it it captures isn’t as rich. And lately for some reason something changed I can’t get the sound right on my finished product anyway.

So I’m like what the hell’s the difference? It’ll sound not good in some whole new interesting way when just play with it as we can and I’ll work with it however I can with the tools on hand and it’ll sound it’ll sound good enough.

The information’s the important part. There’ll come a time when I can get these things professionally produced and it’ll be out of my hands anyway. Just keep moving. Like I’m always telling you guys, just keep moving.

So I go find the the condenser microphone, which I bought a long time ago, I’m sure it’s still fine but it does not connect. It connected to my old laptop but it does not connect to my new iMac, the desktop mac.

There’s there’s no fitting to shove the old style USB plug into. And Now now now I’m going thermonuclear in my mind and I’m trying not to scream and yell and holler and and and almost doing it.

At least not at length. And because I can’t believe now I now I don’t have the right hole on the back of the computer. Now a hole’s stopping me.

I’m really starting to spin the fuck out. So I go through all my cables. You know how cables just kinda come to you and you got 7000 of them and you have no idea what they came with or how you collect them. Well none of them worked.

None of them matched. So I ordered a cable. Which will be here Wednesday, which does us no good tonight. So right now, I use the nest from the condensing my phone and I took the I think it’s called a shotgun mic.

I have that sitting loosely in that nest and I’m being careful to not touch the tabletop. And the way it’s designed, the cable that goes into the bottom of the microphone is is it sticks out further then the base for the nest is tall.

So it would hit the table. So I have this whole thing balanced on my morning ritual snack boxes. My dates and my crackers. It man, I’ll tell you what guys, whatever it takes.

Alright? That’s that’s the first lesson. Whatever it takes, just keep your shit moving. It doesn’t matter. In the long run, by the time any some people find me, they will never even have heard any of this old stuff.

This will have become old. You guys will laugh. You’ll be in the inner circle where we’ll laugh about the good old days. When Ken seemed to do this, you know, like he took a brick to the head and but but trooper that he is that he was.

He kept going with his special self Anyway, so this seems to be working. I got the headphones on and I’m not hearing any any movement out of the microphone.

So And as I sit down to get ready to record in my bad cave, which I spent a lot of money on and put a lot of work into to build myself with, dead mass material and moving pads and and a bunch of other stuff.

I hear on motor running somewhere. An electric motor running somewhere.

It’s it’s a nearby freezer in the house and something changed outside the room I did a little housecleaning and something moved that clearly must have eaten up that sound because I’ve never heard that in here before.

Now I can hear the basically it’s a refrigerator. Compressor. I can hear it running. I’m like you gotta be shitting me. That went off all the while I was fixing the microphone. And then as I get ready to hit record, it came back on.

I took a moment to be with that rage that micro rage out burst, no noise, no nothing. I just sat and stood. As I went to open my mouth to record, the town I live in has a fucking fire station, you know, air air siren thing.

I’ve hated it my entire goddamn life. I don’t see the point in today’s days and day and age with cell phones and at the very minimal pagers and you can find people.

Without blasting the entire fucking neighborhood awake with an air siren that can be heard miles and miles and miles. I just don’t care.

I’ve hated this thing my whole life. So, anyway, that’s what that’s what I’ve been dealing with just to get this episode off the ground. There’s other things, but, you know, we’ll have to just call it a call it a raging day there.

Now be the title, the insane improbability of silver linings, I can’t see it right now in regards to what I just shared. It’ll come later. The silver lining I’m mainly going to talk about is what happened recently with my mom’s house.

I shared earlier She cashed in an investment that was supposed to be something that would feed her and take care of medical bills or whatever into old age.

She cashed 1 of those in and it was substantial to pay for what ended up being an overpriced job by somebody that doesn’t know what the hell they’re doing.

It it gone wrong in so many ways and it it’s still happening. It’s gone over time. It’s been a hard thing to live with, and we just keep finding more and more things.

This contractor just doesn’t do right. I’m not gonna say their name. I’m not vindictive that way. I don’t think anything good comes from that. But I definitely won’t forward their name on anybody that might need what what it is they do.

I just ain’t gonna share I learned a long time ago when you talk bad shit about people, it it just comes back to haunt you some way. And if nothing else, it it’s just not a way to move through the world.

As pissed as I am, and there’s the the disc contractor’s given us plenty to be pissed about. As pissed as I am, I do not believe it was done in malice. I just believe they’re not good at what they do.

The the guys that are working here, I believe they’re working at their top capacity, top capability. It’s just that they shouldn’t be here doing anything period. Somebody with a higher skill set should be doing it.

You know what I’m saying? They’re wonderful. We really like these guys. And then I’m at work all the time. I’m not here to oversee something. I know a little bit about everything they’re doing, everything.

I can catch things as they’re going sideways but I’m not here to see it because I gotta fucking eat so I gotta go to work. For now, for now. Work is coming close to being closed out.

So the silver lining in this particular case is what how and when I went to look for help, my same contractor gave us a quote for the roof that turned out to be insane. I didn’t even know till I started asking around.

And I called at first I called a a local Veterans Services Agency and a government agency, and I knew they couldn’t help me. I knew they didn’t have any program that applied to our situation, and they did not.

But they had a private network of local business people and other people who cared about vets and just were at the ready to help vets. In a time of need. So that sprung into action.

I talked about that on the the last episode I think. It got it got big. I don’t feel like covering everything because it has been a lot. Matter of fact, if you go to gofundme dot com and just punch in Ken Jensen.

You’ll see me and with mom around my dad and the go fund me page I built. It explains the whole incredible story that this has turned into. It’s turned into just something so huge and so good with so many people giving so much.

And everybody working in concert to make sure that a a charity got involved and we have to we have to meet certain requirements to receive their funding my dad’s old Army unit kicked in big time and they wanted to help.

They’ve been wanting to help ever since he died last August.

20 23. Now, he died, or, yeah, it’s 20 23. He died in 20 22 in August. And they’ve been dying to do something for him because he gave so much to so many. It was really an incredible amount of giving he did that was just his nature.

He never wanted anything for anything. It’s just how he moved through today. So these guys, because they loved him so much, have been dying to help any way possible.

And and here I handed them a, you know, a project to do that very thing. So we’ve figured out a plan so far the the charity would only pay for stuff if licensed insured companies were doing the work.

Now in our personal network, we have retired master contractors who can do everything under the sun, a handful of them and most of the guys in this unit, there were mechanics, there were builders.

They did that in the marines. They’re they’re all guys that did stuff with their hands and and some of them own properties and stuff.

They know what they’re doing. They can do everything needs to be done. It’ll be done well, it’ll be done up to code, but they’re not professionals. It’s another 1 of them things.

There’s but, you know, don’t even get me started on on fucking with the government requiring people to have a registration to do the dumbest shit side note, did you know the government just for you to cut hair?

Just for you to cut hair. There’s something like a 6000 hour lab time requirement before they’ll let you cut fucking hair and anybody that cuts hair is already good at it. That’s why they want to do it for pay. So anyway, where was I?

Okay. So the silver lining with the with the house. So we figured out a way to have the charity pay for most most of the big things, the really big things. Because it was more than what we even originally started out with.

The major systems in the house needed to be taken care of. A generator had to be purchased, a whole house generator. Mom mom’s she’s 75. I don’t When I move to where I’m going next, I won’t be close by.

I don’t want her here with a small generator that got to pull out of the shed, hook into the house, pour fuel, switch a bunch of switches off of commercial power onto house power, and do that in the middle of a storm in the dark which is when it’ll happen.

No. I I just want I want when the 1 when the 1 power goes out and new power comes on. Maybe she pushes a button. That’s it. And I don’t want it to be enough to where it’s operating a kitchen light in the fridge.

I want the whole house up and running. I don’t want her to be insecure in any fashion. That’s now being taken care of. Then there’s a bunch of small projects where people are donating oh, everyone’s donating time, time and labor.

Nobody’s charging for any of that, even the stuff that falls out the purview of falls outside the purview of the charity’s requirements and mom’s gonna have a, you know, a completely rebuilt house at this point and sorry to say, once the guys are here, we’re gonna have him come and look at the stuff the first guy never did right and get some things tuned up the way they should have been done in the first place.

And the silver lining part here is if the first guy hadn’t overcharged us to the degree he did. None of this other project thing would have taken place.

And if far outweighs the cost incurred so far of dealing with this other company in time, stress and money. It’s it’s more Their shoddiness has more than than been repaid by the awesome thing that got turned on in response to it.

Now we’re still not happy the the problem is still is still taking place and has yet to be resolved but so much other good, you know, so so many other good things came out of it, it it it literally has been worth the bad things that preceded it.

You’re going to find this same scenario playing out countless times as you try to take your story pro and you have to take your story pro.

If your story is only a book, you might win But as I got taught a long time ago, a book by another company that kicked off my entire adventure that led you to me. The book is just the world’s best business card.

If you, if 2 people, you and someone else stand up in a crowd, you guys the exact same service to sell for the exact same value, but 1 of you wrote a book about it, who’s the audience gonna pick?

That’s what the good of a book is. You might do great with a book.

You might sell a lot of them, but it’s it’s just It it’s it’s not a reasonable win to achieve. The book is a tool to help market the rest of your business. You’re gonna write a book some of you and please do. You you you need to.

But, you know, don’t don’t think you’re gonna Stephen King it off the back of that. That’s that’s rare. Anyway, you’re going to work with software. You’re going to hire hire other third party services to help you do things.

That you think is gonna solve problems, and sometimes they will. But what’s gonna happen in the doing of whatever it is you’re putting together Things are not gonna be what you thought they are.

They’re not gonna mesh well with the things that already existed or they’re gonna they’re going to expose some other condition that needs to be solved that couldn’t be seen until you turn the new thing on.

And it’s gonna fuck up the whole plan and you’re gonna have to redo that part of it possibly to even include using the thing you just bought or you might have to rebuild half or all of your system.

Now that you see better what’s going on.

There’s a constant attacking the problem nibbling away at it, making some moves and then stepping back and getting feedback to see where you’re at and if you’re still right and if there’s a better way to go.

And every now and then, you’re gonna have to let go of pieces of your your plan, your dream, your project that it’s gonna become evident.

There are a problem. They either are outdated or something in use shifted to where this thing either no longer works or it doesn’t work the way you need it to work which is what happened to me.

When I wrote my book and used to be public about helping people fight bipolar.

I don’t help people fight bipolar directly anymore. I give away the system for doing it. And I’ll answer questions with examples from my life about how the the things I I promote help me. I won’t actually help anyone be bipolar.

I don’t want to for a number of reasons. And it’s just not I ain’t doing it. But If I hadn’t have taken that journey, I wouldn’t have become what I am now, which is helping other survivors of any type of trauma.

Take their story, turn it into a business so that both the world can find out about the story and benefit from it and you the creator, the storyteller can benefit for the work.

You need to get paid for the time and effort and expense you’re gonna lay out to share this story.

Even a church has a collection plate. Everything is a business. Everything has a bottom line. A war can stop because there’s no budget to keep fighting it.

Everything has a bottom line. Now you might be able to afford to just pay for things and not care and now you’re just you know you’re just running without truism Well, that’s great.

But then, you know, you and I aren’t gonna work together because I got nothing to add to that.

God speed, but, you know, you you don’t need me. And and that’s fine if that’s what makes you happy but that’s not why you’re listening to me.

And I personally in the telling of my story used it to show how I scaled up, how I now use it as a tool, the telling of my story is not It’s not the thing anymore.

It’s an item within the thing that helped bring the bigger thing to life.

I cannot wait to work with those of you that want to hit the ground running and get out your story big and loud to the world in every way possible in a sensible way in an affordable way And in a way that doesn’t turn you old before your time as well.

There is a way to do that. There is gonna be an expenditure, effort, and energy and an accumulation of stress that is unavoidable.

I haven’t heard of anybody that just sails swimmingly into their bright shiny golden coated future. It’s not a thing. But depending on how things pan out, you don’t have to stress and suffer for as long as others.

Hopefully, with what I’ve learned and what I share in this podcast and where you can see that I’ve been exposed to a lot pretty much entirely about my own hand and I’ve learned a lot of stuff the hard way.

And when you learn things the hard way, that’s when the lessons remain clear and crisp in your head and it allows you to direct others.

You’ll hear a lot of time you hear a lot of times where people say don’t make the mistakes I made and that you can hire me because this is what other people say.

Hire me because then I can keep you from making the mistakes I made. Okay. Potentially, but here I’m here to tell you.

Even with me helping you not make the mistakes I made, you’re gonna make some of them anyway because it’s it’s the part of the growth process of doing this. This. And you’ll make brand new mistakes I never even saw before.

And But I’ll be at your side to help recover and keep moving and make use of whatever whatever whatever bits are left after the initial bomb goes off, I’ll help you make use of whatever we find that’s still usable and still make sense and I’ll keep you going and I’ll keep you motivated the same way other people have done for me.

I’ll never shine you on. I’m never gonna sell you false bill of goods. I’m not gonna tell you this is gonna be easy when it ain’t.

I’m telling you to buck up and get ready for a very large fight about the only thing we really have a the only thing we might be able to mitigate is how bitter it does or does not get. And I’m good at that. I’m good at that.

I’m good at finding the silver linings. I do it all the time at my day job. It’s often just a matter of reframing. You look at the same thing. It’s it’s not that only 10 It’s how they put it. You know, it’s glass half full, half empty.

It’s it’s basically that. You can see the glasses, it’s already half of it’s gone or you can see it as there’s still half of it left. Anyway, that’s it. I’m tapped and I will talk to you guys soon. Oh, okay.

Yeah, let me add this. Please go to Apple Podcast and give me a great big fat huge 5 star review. Write something short and sweet. I need more and more people to find out about me. There’s some cool things happening in the background.

I’m I’m get I’m having people reach out to me to be a guest. And people want to be a guest on my show. That’s starting to pick up some steam and you guys will start hearing about you know you’ll see the direct results in this podcast.

As I build these things. I only get found when the machines are working in my favor. So that’s 1 way you can easily help me put the machines to work in my favor.

Go to Apple Podcasts and go to my find my site, punch in Ken Jensen, punch in bipolar action either 1 takes you to my site, scroll down and past the first handful episode.

You’ll see the review thing at the bottom. Give me a nice review.

If you’re not gonna give me 5 stars, I can’t worship. I’m not supposed to co worship, but don’t give me less than 5 stars. What the fuck does that? I wouldn’t do it to you. Alright, guys. Have a good week. Be well.


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