Hey, this is Ken Jensen. I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2 thousands. And believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process, was mind blowing to say the least.

Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve show up in my life so you can do the same.

Hello everybody and welcome to episode 72. What’s your design human? Before I explain that, oddly titled title, every now and then the word Smith blanks on the words.

For all of those of you that have been sitting at home on pins and needles, with full bladders afraid to leave the the show’s side in case you might miss the the best development of all.

I fixed the fucking floating cradle for the microphone. Where is this stuff? Right in there. I found I was looking for liquid steel.

I ended up not finding some at the store I hit. What did I get? There’s something like liquid steel. Same shit. You take 2 puddings and you score them out of tubes equally. You stir them together. You become something else.

You stick it on the thing, and it it might as well be welded. J b weld. J b weld. That’s what it was. Just as good. Like, a parker car on that thing. Everything else around it’ll break except that well. This stuff is awesome.

Back when I was a blue collar slob, which was half to almost 2 thirds of my life. J b weld is like duct tape. When it comes to welding and you don’t have welding machines, that’s That’s what you end up using sometimes.

So anyway, the the the cradle thing was really pissing me off. Just 1 more thing and a long list of things keeping me from achieving this I want sort sort of a a vibe. So now that’s that’s settled, and I feel a whole lot better for it.

I’m running a little test today on this episode. Within this podcast studio, this studio has mover moving pads It has sound absorptive panels like big wooden and cloth ones professionally made.

It’s also got it’s also got the shitty foam foam, rich looking things that a lot of people use.

They don’t they don’t do a whole lot but they do something. And then there is dead mass I forget what it is. It’s it’s like rubber with graphite mixed in it. It just absorbs sound like crazy.

I have that on the ceiling above me. In the 4 walls around me to keep it quiet in here, keep the rest of my house from invading and from me even if I get excitable from being too loud for the rest of the house.

But it gets very damn hot inside of here without a fan. So I I got a fan going. The fan, it’s like a little bathroom. It is a little bathroom fan. But this thing was like a hundred and 50 bucks.

I got the lowest whisper rating that ain’t what it’s called, but it it makes the least amount of noise compared to a fan that’s not designed to to emit small amounts of noise and it’s still too loud for recording purposes, but I get so damn hot inside here.

I’ve and I’ve been doing interviews lately. You can see and you will see soon because some of these interviews are on on video. I’m just turning red. I’m literally fucking turning red as the show progresses.

Starting to sweat because I want that optimal audio quality. So what I’m doing is I use a software called Hindenburg I believe they what do they call these things, d a w’s, something, audio workstations, I think they call them.

And is software for processing audio. Hindenburg does quite a bit all on its own. And then I bought there’s different plugins that I have, and I cannot remember the name of the company I found. I was using a different company.

I had perfect plugins all set up beautifully company went out of business after a handful of years, and I struggled to find ones that would do the job the way I needed with the budget I had at the time, and now I have a nice stack of new plugins that do the job nicely.

They they address any problem with your sound quality that you might face.

I’m hoping that between Hindenburg’s in inbuilt performance and the plugins that I’ve got rolling that they’ll take out the of that fan. Just for this 1 episode, I’d like not to sweat the debt and boil in my own blood.

We’ll see what happens. This is also, if you’ve been following along, my actual first video podcast episode to put on YouTube. Why first when I said last week’s was gonna be the first?

Well, for the dumbest of reasons, As I was testing my setup, I have my iPhone in front of me on a tripod, and then I have the normal podcast gear set up around me with the the microphone on a boom, the mixing board to 1 side, my rolling recorder to the other side, they’re all tied together.

And in in the I I had never attempted to video record and audio record as 2 separate things at the same time. So in the testing, I’ve got backwards on the buttons, a perfect in particular to 1 of my iPhone.

It has a little a little clock, a little a little count up timer that I forgot to look for, and I recorded the whole damn video talking about how great it was gonna look on YouTube, and there was no video.

And I sat there for about not much longer than a second and a half, just metaphorically eating my own face and feeling like an idiot.

I’ve I mentioned in the last episode, I believe, and many times before, you’re gonna run into technical issues as you build your marketing empire, your marketing your marketing empire and anything to to do with your website, if this stuff isn’t already your innate skill set, and even if it is, shit just goes sideways.

Even in this case, I I had a face ring that sits around the phone to light up my face nice, fucking thing just wouldn’t come on. Wouldn’t come on. I go on I and there’s and there’s no name on it.

I’m like, okay, well that’s bad. Not don’t even say Acamy or Brandex. I went into Amazon where I ordered it and and found the order. I ordered just 10 years ago, and there was a stack of comments about people.

I used this thing 4 times and shit to bed. I used it 5 times and it doesn’t come on anymore. Alright. So I’m 1 of these lucky few. And so next time around, I’ll get a face a face light ring that is is more dependable than that.

But for now, I’m liking what what my face looks like on the video here. And I use a an app called Focus on my iPhone that does all kinds of magical wizardry to make a video come out right anyhow.

So I don’t wanna beat everybody over the head with all the technical aspects. But again, I’m always teaching what I do in case you want to follow in my footsteps.

And these are the things you might face. Even when the when the video failed to record, I I swear. I was I wasn’t mad even entire 2 seconds. It was like, you just get used to it.

You get used to it and then you you improve. You adapt. You find ways around it. And believe there are there is not lives hanging on the line. There is not a million or even 10000 dollars on the line if that video didn’t get made.

I might feel differently. There was, but that’s not the case right now. Not not for this. And you just get used to it. Still get pissed, but it just doesn’t bother you as much.

You you just like, I’m always always telling you guys just keep moving. Just keep moving. Shit’s always gonna crap out and that’s it. What I wanted to talk about today was the human design report.

I’ve been finding more evidence of people in completely unrelated industries making a big deal out about out of knowing your human design report, knowing a client’s human design report before attempting to help that client because it’s necessary without knowing what’s in that report, most of your advice is gonna be wrong.

It it it’s it’s not that it’s bad advice. It’s just not gonna match that person. And that’s another thing I’ve learned. Everybody that coaches or anything online at all.

All the advice is good if it works for you. Nobody’s really all that wrong. Nobody’s lying to you when it comes to advice. It’s all good advice, but does it match your circumstances? Does it match your personality.

And in this case, if you don’t know your human design report results, you could be so far off the mark with with with your own life as an individual and definitely with helping a client or or anyone you’re trying to help in your life.

Now the reason I say that last part, I had a minor family emergency the other night, and I’m not going to share any details. And this is an ongoing battle with somebody somebody close to me and it matters that we win this battle.

And I had run out of fresh ways to come at this problem even though it’s in my sweet spot and the thing I know the most about And then it dawned on me. I’m always telling I tell my people, there’s now mandatory.

It’s mandatory. If you’re not willing to go fork over. I think it’s all a 39 dollars. I understand if you can’t. But even then, if you can’t afford that, you can’t afford to work with me.

But If you are not willing to fork over 39 bucks, I think it is, to get your human design report so that someone like me can help you properly, we already can’t work together regardless of the reason that that makes you not wanna fork over 39.

I need to know what’s in that report so I can tell you the best advice possible so I can ask the right questions as a coach.

So I can motivate you properly. Well, I’m very aware of this now within my business, and I hadn’t thought to apply it to this situation.

So I didn’t then. If this occurred to me later and I have since got the the report for this person And now I have some very in-depth material to fuel a future conversation with that person.

I will now know better what I’m talking about because I know what’s driving them, and I’ll be able to say the things that that reached them. And that can actually be helpful.

You the human design report and oh there’s 1 other, but I’ll I’ll I’ll save it just to keep the focus on the human design report. That changed my life. It really did. It opened my eyes to certain things.

Well, 1 of the biggest was, as I stay as I stated earlier, I’ve been a blue collar guy most of my life. If not quite 2 thirds, at least half, I am really good at fixing stuff. I have fixed everything except cars.

I’ve worked on factory equipment that is bizarre, complex, huge I have worked on building. I have worked in factories where the entire building including what was on the walls and the ceiling under the floor.

And and and external systems all tied into massive production lines with computer stations every 30 feet varying kinds of systems with robotics and lasers and air and and and hydraulics and high speed equipment.

I was at 1 place that had a machine that spun around a million miles an hour and it was the size of a Mac pickup.

And I hated working on it and if something broke deep inside, it only our skinniest guys could even physically get in it to work on it, which was a relief. But I’m not bragging.

I just I and I was never the best at that. I was always a solid intermediate and then I had a couple shiny areas depending on whatever I was fixing. And I was capable, but it aged me, it depressed me, it angered me, it enraged me.

Whenever I fixed something, the the victorious feeling was brief. The relief that this thing wasn’t fucking with me anymore and I could get on with my life was way larger than the feeling of victory.

So my human design report showed that I am somebody that the let’s see. I’m mixing up 1 with the other, but this mattered as well.

It it it it counted in a human design report too. I I am an ideas guy. I deal in the abstract. I I deal in feelings. I deal in my my own feelings lead the way, and I help people best with how how they feel, how they feel about me.

It’s all emotions. And then I can put it to words because I’m I’m more of the the artist temperament in this case, an author, and a speaker.

None of this has a shit to do with turning a wrench. It turns out in that part of things, I’m just I’m I’m capable.

And in some cases, I’m very capable, but III hate all of it. So I stress. Again, I will not even work with you if you don’t get that report first because it’s we’re we’re hamstringing ourselves.

I I can’t give you the best help. It’s impossible. And that’s a system I I know best and it’s very inexpensive to get these answers.

And I will be getting certified in that. I made up my mind, that that’s gonna come in the near future as well. I wanna know this on an extremely deep detailed level. And there’s another system as well.

I’ll talk about that maybe the next episode. We’ll see where I where I feel about, you know, where what I’m feeling then. So right now as I’m looking at this, I realize I’m hardly ever looking at the the camera on my phone.

I like when I’m watching a video to have people make eye contact I’m not always making eye contact. For some reason, I’ve been kinda focusing on my microphone.

Maybe it’s because I’m so fucking happy with my JB weld situation. I still enjoy certain aspects of of fixing things. I like defeating problems. And to note that this thing is rock solid once again.

Not even once again. It’s in better shape than the manufacturer gave it to me in the first place. It just that it really does please me. It’s just these little things please the shit out of me.

So I’m gonna find out where the human design report leads me with with my person. This is of personal nature. This isn’t a client, and I I need to do the best I possibly can. I I would anyway, but you know what I mean.

It’s personal. It’s personal. I’ve gotta get this right. And more than 1 person depends on me to get this right with this person. So we’ll see what happens. I don’t have much else to say today than that.

Get even before you work with me, If you want your life to get better, if you wanna know where you should take your energies and your focus, your attention, if you wanna find out what your energies are and and what your skill set might be for real.

Start with your human design report.

I use Cripes. It’s Chetan Parkin, CHETAN, Parkin is PARKYN. And his wife’s name is Carla Eastwood. Shatin is British and he is a blast. There’s a there’s a bounce to his delivery of anything he’s saying.

And he delivers the the the darkest of news with the sunniest of dispositions. He he is he’s 1 of the coolest people I ever talked to because I paid to have him go into great depth and tell me all about my report.

And I’ll share this much. There was a moment. This this is kinda it it’s alright. I’m alright sharing it. There there there was a moment as he was going through my chart chart report.

He said there’s something here about your father and I threw out a couple of assumptions based on everything that already talked about up to that point as to what I thought my father might have a part to play in in in my my chart reading and my life.

And he kinda just shut that down. Just said, no.

And and and and he he trailed off. He trailed off, and we left that topic. I knew that that was something important. I didn’t obsess over it. I was actually rather excited, but I didn’t miss what just happened. Something just happened.

It was it was only a couple years later that my dad died, and I can tell you that what has happened to me since my dad died and in the months to the build up, you know, before he died, I had to evolve and change in so many ways that I I did not want to.

I had to grow as a part and I had to grow as a man. I had to grow as a father. I had to grow as a son.

I had to I I had to grow in in every way to support the family around me. And I had to take my dad’s job as far as the the rock of the family. And this is not like, oh, great. It’s my turn or I’ll show y’all nothing was nothing.

I it was just it was just my awareness of responsibility, and I always I knew the older I got. It’s I think it’s gonna be me that that does this. And because it has to be, and it became that.

And there was at 1 point, something happened in my head and not an event. It was a feeling. It was a kind of pressure and it was an awareness that I cannot remain exactly the same as I am and and pull this all off, at least not well.

And my life, my dad died last year in August, and my life has got has become unbelievably complex in more ways than I even saw coming, and actually a lot of them are for good reasons.

But managing the complexity has required something of me. I really don’t believe I’ve faced I don’t believe I face something that’s formidable since I actively attacked bipolar almost 20 years ago.

And took the handful of years, it took me to put that system together that you can find in a course on bipolarexcellence dot com. Listen on overlooked at. I have not faced something as formidable as that till now.

There’s been all kinds of problems and issues like like all of us have but not in the the not in in in the the web filled sphere of of totality that it that that has become my life.

Have I had this many interlocking problems hit me at once on a scale of of of this sort with an intensity of this sort and with The importance attached to a lot of the outcomes, should I not do things well?

In the middle of it all, This bipolar excellence was and still is evolving as I do it.

And I have to be somebody who can keep up with all of that and manage it well without, you know, without my brain cracking all over again like it did 20 years ago.

Now that’s not a thing. I’ve been stressed out, fatigued. I am not taking care of myself physically.

Figures my throat’s gotta do this now. You know what? I might have a little cup of coffee. I am I am pushing myself to the max, and I’m only partially taken care of myself. That had been something I wanted to talk about.

I’m not gonna go on about that. Just you’re gonna see over and over even from me. What you’re trying to do is not gonna work as well as as it would if you took care of yourself holistically.

Well, I also know that there’s a price to be paid. This is another thing you’ll hear from any coach over any reason at all. There’s always a price to pay to make it to the next level.

And what I’ve realized is with everything that’s going on in my life, I cannot take care of myself physically and to a degree mentally the way I want at all until the majority of these non business related problems are solved and they almost all are.

I guess something I gotta solve at my day job. Which is coming right around the corner that’s gonna make this all tremendously easier for me. And as far as the business I do this as I’m able whenever I have the energy and the time.

When I was a younger man, I could bang away at this if I was awake the end. I could just go and go and go. Well, for 1, I’ve built it up to a size now. That I don’t need to go and go and go.

I just need certain things to be fixed. I am right on the cusp of this even becoming a routine endeavor. What what the daily tasks are to feed this thing and get it out to the world and help people.

It’s funny because the coaching part is the easiest part. Working with clients is the easiest part. All this other stuff it’s it’s draining. And but I got it. I like where my head’s at. I’m handling. I’m maintaining it.

And I have I got a gut feeling on how what the time limit is that I can push this hard while not living as well as I need to in order to do any of it. Before I’ll cross a line, and then I’m gonna have to look hard at my health.

But when I’m reaching that point, I’m willing to pay that price. I’m not happy about it, which pushes me a little harder and because I want I want back in the gym. I wanna eat better.

I want a bunch of things that I’m not doing right now. But Whatever I became up to this point to do what I’m doing is enough. And then I got a little bit more left than me to give to over the top and that is currently happening.

I just got interviewed by another another gentleman for another coaching podcast and I’m waiting for that to be be published so I can share it with you. But in that podcast, which I don’t have the details in front of me now.

But I got worked. This guy worked me. I had to come up with answers I wasn’t expecting to come up with and think thinking away, I wasn’t used to thinking and it it it it made me tired, but the interview went very very well.

But it also opened my eyes to some things. Of course, there was things I wished I would have said. That’s always the case with this. Every single episode, there’s shit I wish I would have said.

There’s things I forget entirely or or thoughts I don’t finish that had something really awesome if I’d have said 1 more thing. You know, that that you you’ll don’t go crazy with that when when it’s your turn.

Don’t worry about You just do the best you can and it’s gonna be fine. But and talking to the last interviewer and he was interviewing me, about my coaching in my life.

I made another decision of of where I could tighten something up and I ended up saying it in the new video on my home page on bipolar excellence dot com.

He that the process of talking to him and trying to deliver what he needed, fine tune my thinking, stilled my thoughts down into a clearer path that I was able to say in that video.

And now So, I mean, even as you’re doing the thing, even as you’re with other people, even as you’re succeeding, you’re still learning.

You’re always gonna learn. You should learn till you’re in the box or demented, and I hope for your sake, it’s in the box first.

You should be learning till the day you drop. That’s my goal. I mean why not? So anyway, I can’t think of a more gray way to end than that and that wasn’t even as grateful as I’da liked. Let’s all just listen.

I’m gonna leave you with this. Alright? As you go to sleep tonight after listening to this episode, so just feel warm and fuzzy in your heart like I do knowing knowing that it’s a very good thing that the j b weld worked on the cradle.

Alright everybody. You all be well out there. Can’t wait to work with you.