Hey, this is Ken Jensen. I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion back in the mid 2 thousands.

And believe it or not, that not even the coolest part of my story. What I learned through that process and what came next and how that’ll lied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of the process?

It was mind blowing to say the least. Bipolar has hidden within its strengths. I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve shown up in my life so you can do the same.

Hello, bipolar prone folk. This is episode 60. You’d I can’t even do it any justice. I can’t go go very long tonight. We’re gonna I I got the COVID.

I got the COVID pretty solid. I had it back before or anybody else did it. I was 1 of the cool kids that got it months before it ever made it to the news. That was a whole funny story. I don’t feel like getting into it right now.

I’m too sick, but this whole you you hoot. That was even worse. So in the marines, we used to yell. You you just pictured out louder and far more masculine. And aggressive, and it it signified motivation.

Let’s go do this shit. Well, as time progressed, no you only ever used it sarcastically or ironically. Nobody actually ever used it. To motivate anybody to do anything, at least not in my crew.

When you would use it, particularly was when you had a god awful hangover. And you’re on death door step from that or or or just any other time the marines and our job in particular had us suffering to a high degree.

You’d look at each other somebody somebody go, you could usually say it in an unenthusiastic way because we were all dying. My job in particular was basically construction work.

There was technical aspects to it that was not so demanding on the body. But when When the construction work part hit, it hit hard and it could sometimes go for weeks, and we worked in all stream forms of weather there were.

My job, in particular, was used as a punishment for people with less pain filled jobs to get their heads right. They come to us for 6 months and then go back to their job, you know, with an understanding that it could be worse.

Their punishment, my job. I had a friend, Tom, I joined the marines with. He ended up staying in. I think I think he might have done 22 years.

He had a way of making me laugh like nobody else could, and I I remember. And he was my drinking partner from high school. And we just continued that for the first couple years. We were in the marines even though we got separated a lot.

We we got we got put on either side of the coast, but we cross paths every now and then the marine corps ain’t that big. And I always remember him, particularly when I hang around.

How are you doing today? He kinda croak it out. And we suffered by our own drinking hands a lot. The reason I bring up this fun little anecdote from my marine corps past is so I got the COVID.

And it’s had I’ve had it coming up on a week now. I’m gonna guess. And it’s not it it it I’ve only had it twice, so I’m still learning the the the whatever, the symptoms.

And I just slept, like, 14 hours today. I woke up at 1 point after hour 10, And I could’ve stayed up, but I decided if I went back to bed, it would probably be magnificent and it was.

And I ended up doing lucid dreaming. You’re dreaming, but you’re aware of it. Part of you is awake. And I had the most far out illness driven dreams It was it was actually it was highly amusing, entertaining, fun, and interesting.

I remember at 1 point, for no reason that I could ascertain. Some of you older kids out there, you might remember from the eighties.

When computers were were brand new and they would do 3 d illustrations that were all lines, lines connecting points, and there’d be like people’s heads and whatever.

And I had a vision of that of of sort of a rectangular box with another rectangular box kinda lowered off the end.

And for some reason, in my dreaming mind, That was the totality of reality for me. There was nothing outside that box. Regardless to the fact that I’m outside viewing the box, which means reality extends to the viewer.

That’s not how I saw it. Everything about me and reality in its in its the whole totality was was in that box. And my dreaming mind said, yeah. That’s exactly right. And my my waking mind, I was witnessing all of it.

All of that knew that this was horse shit and yet what fascinating horse shit it was. So anyway, I’m having like fever dreams. I don’t know. All kinds of weird stuff happened in those second that second half of sleep that I got.

So, anyway, I didn’t realize I was gonna crash as hard as I did. Today when I was planning the podcast today’s Sunday, and I’m I’m squeezing this in in the final hour. But I made an episode a a couple back about commitment.

And this is almost like a part 2 to that. I don’t remember what I said in that 1 beyond idea of the thing, but 1 of my coaches jason leyster of sovereign business dot org I’ve been with Jason the longest of any coach I’ve ever had.

And 1 of the things he teaches is for most people, nobody routinely regularly shows up in their life.

Nobody. So he said, as you’re building a business, if all you did was show up the same time that’s been agreed to every time, you’re ahead of everybody else that won’t do that.

That’s trying to earn these people’s trust. And he said, just just be there in a way that people know they can depend upon you, even if that’s it’s your newsletter arriving on time or in my case, the podcast.

And he said that that’s gonna separate you from quite quite a lot of competition right there.

And I knew it was true because Now another another thing he said was he goes, you wanna reach a point where you’re so routine, dependable, that if something happens, you don’t show up, You get emails or messages on social or something where people are asking, where are you?

Are you alright? What’s going on? Where’s the newsletter?

Where’s podcast. He goes, that’s when you know your plan’s working. That’s 1 of the ways. So that is part of why I agreed to double down on making sure I always deliver this podcast and and it’s connected newsletter on time.

I want people to feel that way about me. And as I started saying earlier, before I cut myself off, was that’s how I felt about Jason and a few others. When I’m even to this day, when I’m either down, which isn’t a lot.

It’s it’s rare, actually, but it happens. I get stressed out. I get down. I I get wondering when anything’s gonna go the way I need it to go because I various pressures on me, same as anybody else.

But when you’re trying to build something, you have another layer of pressures on you that the common person does not And it’s like you got 2 jobs in 1.

And or sometimes just the comfort of seeing a friend look forward to that newsletter.

I do with his. He writes every day at least 5 to business days. He writes every Monday to to Friday. And he’s the only he’s the only coach I have that I make sure to read every newsletter.

I’ve never not read 1 of his newsletters ever. It’s sort of a decision and agreement I made. First, I like what he has to say. Always. And secondly, it it just I don’t know.

I feel like I’m being faithful to him. If he’s provided me such value without me ever paying him a dime, his newsletter alone has helped me immeasurably and I have hired him to talk to on a handful of occasions.

I have bought a handful of his products over the years. Some were rather expensive to me at the time, and they were all valuable and worth the expenditure.

I feel like I need to do my part for all the freak help he gives me by at least reading his damn newsletter. I would I would anyway because I want to. But you see what I’m saying?

I want people to view my material the same way. It’s not in an attempt to be adored It’s to know that you’re doing the damn job right. I wanna be there for as many people as I can or or, actually, the the more correct way to say it is.

For the people that look at me 1 day, the way I look at Jason, I want to be that guy. I want to be the Jason to the to you guys. I wanna know that I’m doing the job right for the people that need me and value me most.

It’s not to be valued. It’s not to be worshipped. I I don’t give a shit about any of that. My dad raised me so and he my dad raised me that’s why he goes, I don’t even give a shit if you hate the job, whatever ounce you’re being.

He goes, you’re gonna have that. You agreed to do the job so you do the job well. Look to quit that job, find something to replace it. But while you’re on their dime, you do that job well.

That’s what a good person does. And I’ve I’ve never not looked at work that way. And I’ve hated pretty much every job I’ve ever had barring a handful to include my current day job. It’s You gotta do what you say you agreed to do.

And in my case, that’s to make sure that this podcast and newsletter come out on time no matter what. No. I I’m lucky because if this was if this was a couple days ago, like, I don’t know. I don’t know if I could I couldn’t even talk.

If I talk for more than 2 minutes, I start coughing uncontrollably. So I don’t know. The universe gave me a window. With the understanding that I would take advantage of it. So I am. That’s how that’s another way I look at things.

So anyway, I wanted to be there for you guys in this fashion and to to show you that those of you working with me to build something larger, you’re gonna be viewed same way, and you’re gonna need to show up the same way.

And the the upside is, it it doesn’t take a miracle in most cases to really be valuable to people.

Just show up when you say you will. Most people just don’t have that. So I hope I did that well for you tonight. I’m gonna stop while I can still talk and function at all, and I feel really good that I did this. I really do.

I feel like I’m 10 and my dad should rub my head. I did a good job. But I do. I just it matters to me that I do a good job in all of this. Beyond beyond business money and anything, just People depend on me, and I need to honor that.

And I try to do it and everything I do on bipolar excellence dot com. As well as this podcast and whatever. I’m gonna get off wherever I repeat myself and start coughing uncontrollably.

I appreciate you guys. Alright. Let’s end with that. I appreciate you guys, whoever you are. And I just can’t wait to see the things we will do together. Everybody? Don’t get COVID and be well.