Hey, this is Ken Jensen.

I beat bipolar disorder in an all natural fashion, back in the mid 2 thousands.

And believe it or not, that’s not even the coolest part of my story.

What I learned through that process and what came next and how that applied to bipolar and why bipolar was ever even part of process, was mind blowing to say the least.

Bipolar has hidden within it strengths.

I’m gonna show you what I mean and how they’ve shown up in my life so you can do the same.

This is episode 65 : “Salt’s not working. Try pepper.”

Funny backstory to the story, I was just telling 10 minutes ago before I erased it.

There is a story of supreme violence that took place in my past on a job where I was essentially a bouncer.

They called me a security guard but I was essentially a bouncer in an emergency room and sometimes their lockdown psych ward.

As I got telling a story which cracks me up to no end, I realized I don’t know where to store share a lot of my stories.

It’s too much. It’s it was too hyper violent and it it proved a point I was trying to make and and there was some very dark comedy mixed in with it.

but it as I got deeper into it, I was like, I don’t I don’t know if this is gonna fly.

I think my more stalwart fans would get a kick out of it, but jeez.

We did some things on that job to protect people that were just they were just out of hand and the fights I got in were out of hand and my life was threatened routinely.

And I didn’t care because that’s where I was at when I had that job and I was better at it than I ever realized I could be.

When I took it I didn’t know if I could do well and I was kind of freaked out and it turned out I was really good at it. I was really good at the violence part.

And damn it, that was a great story and it tied together a lot of the rest of the shit I was gonna talk about, but it just, I don’t know that this would have been the the place to share it.

Anyway, the theme for this whole episode was was one of overwhelm, both good and bad. And even though I can’t tell that story it was an overwhelming amount of violence. It was…everything about that night was overwhelming.

I’ll just say this much. 5 state troopers, each of them larger than me, brought in 1 guy, and it was clear they’d been working quote, unquote, working a while with this guy.

And when they left him with me, I’d been doing a job quite a while at that point. I was I was good at it. There was there wasn’t there wasn’t anything I couldn’t handle.

They were afraid to leave him alone with just me because it was just me. I had a team but they worked the whole rest of the hospital. I worked by myself in the emergency room.

And I was like, no, I got him. And then I did, but we got into it about an hour later, and it was it was epic.

It was epic, and he hurt me. He hurt me real bad. But I won.

And and there was a beautiful segue into the point of what happened that night to what I wanted to say next, and it’s just…the details of the fight and some other things that happened. It it’s just too much.

I don’t feel comfortable sharing in public even though I love telling the story.

So overwhelm.

The latest, overwhelm.

Why am I bringing this up?

My god. That’s that’s gonna be more likely. That’s gonna be your flavor du jour, as you do any of this stuff that I will help you develop and build and grow.

Overall is gonna be a constant companion.

Now let me tie that into my very recent past and why you haven’t heard from me for 2 episodes, 2 weeks.

I didn’t think I’d ever crap out and and not…and miss an episode and I I missed 2 in a row on purpose because I I’ve been spent

I’ve been spent because there’s a

Most of it’s good.

Right now, we found out my mom cashed in her nest egg to pay for her her bathroom rebuild and and and another part of the house needed to be rebuilt and they had to be.

And then in the process, we find out the entire roof is shot and needs to be replaced and she got a massive what do you call it?

A quote. It was it was it was too high to begin with. But she she told me the the next day, it put her in shock.

And the next day, she told me she felt as bad as she did the day Dad died. Just getting this quote after spending

all the thousands tens of thousands she just spent that were supposed to protect her for her future.

So I was trying to tell her I’ll come up with something because that’s what I do. Come up with something. I only get better at it the older I get. I might not get everything I want out of life yet.

Yet.

But I do know how to keep the show moving for myself and others when it’s critical.

And now it was critical.

I knew the roof the roof wasn’t gonna drop in at any time. It wasn’t that bad. It ain’t a shanty. It looks fine from the outside.

It’s just…it’s hurting to a high degree and weeds you don’t see all over the place. It’s a rather large roof and so, anyway, what ended up happening and and and this will take really too long to share all the details.

There’s so many points to be made in what I’m about to say next that I could just keep doing more episodes just just out of pieces of this story but…

I wasn’t sure quite where to go just yet. But I thought maybe we’d need… maybe there’d be a government program for widows.

My my dad did 21 years in army reserves and I figured, you know, there might be something for family of a retired veteran.

I actually knew there wasn’t, because in my past in my effort to survive as a veteran as a Marine Corps, Gulf War veteran, I have ripped apart the VA system, ad nauseam just looking for anything to help me going back to 20 plus years, probably 30.

And I made the call anyway because I’m like, well, vets are vets. Maybe they know something. I know they got no program for me, which they confirmed. They were they had nothing through the government through their official capacity as this agency, they had nothing.

But they said we have a list of private business owners and others who like to help vets. They’re all local and we’ll put the word out to that to that list, see what happens.

Well, everything happened.

Within 24 hours, my phone exploded, my email exploded, and it’s continued on like that. And what’s what’s tapping now is

The roofs the roof is gonna get done by a contractor who slashed price in half and is working at cost and this this gentleman’s actually even donating cash to his own cause. I don’t even know how that works.

A lot of good people stepped up. My all all off the back of not just helping my mom, but my dad left a legacy

My dad was 1 of the most helpingest people

and kindest

that you could ever possibly have met.

He helped as we learned at his funeral hundreds and hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of people I am not exaggerating

I’m not trying to fluff out the point. It was staggering how many people

how many lives we found out he changed, how many families he saved from the brink of whatever.

And he just did all this stuff in the background. We knew he was doing it. We just didn’t know he was doing it as much as he was doing it. Nor do I know when he even had time to do it.

All these people

wanted to help wanted to help my dad because all these people

like me and my immediate family

are crushed

that my dad is gone.

I said before back in last August when he died. He left a hole in the world.

So

these people all wanna help and so they are. I got agencies calling me and and charities. I’m I’m meeting heads of government agencies and veteran agencies.

I never even heard of.

It’s been quite incredible.

We set up a go fund me page, and I’m gonna tell you right now, Go to go fund me dot com and just punch in Kenneth Jensen.

You’ll see me with my baby beard

arm an arm around my dad’s shoulder. You’ll know it when you see Do what you can. I appreciate you at least poking your nose in and looking.

Nothing’s mandatory. You’re still all my people.

And

the the go fund me is taken off nicely and a lot of other things are growing in the in the background to to help fund the roof.

And there’s other things the house needs. We just picked the roof because it had to be done.

There’s more.

And

it’s looking like

if this goes well,

I think pretty much everything’s gonna get taken care of. We’re not there yet, but it it’s looking really good. My mom

is overwhelmed

by this kind of love and attention.

She she’s fighting hard to accept it.

We all are to a degree but it’s really hard for her. My mom’s a caregiver. She she doesn’t receive it well. And and she just doesn’t know to do it all the emotion and the energy even though it’s all positive.

And she doesn’t feel like she deserves it and we keep telling her it not only does she deserve it because on her end,

she kept me and my dad going. My dad was not always a saint.

There was a growth period in his twenties and probably bit into his thirties

where he needed to do better in life and she she, you know, lived through that and

and then supported all these really cool things he did for decades later. She she did a lot of things at his side

where

he needed to represent.

And then there’s me.

My dad didn’t even come close even though he did a good job.

He did a good job with the fuckery in the lunacy when he was younger.

But he didn’t take it to the Heights

in the poignancy

that I did,

mom helped, you know, she had to deal with that and then save me from it.

And and she also was a big support

for the whole veteran aspect of my life and still is.

There’s things as a vet

that affect you forever.

And I don’t just mean like PTSD and stuff. Just it’s just

I don’t know. You’re not you anymore.

You’re a veteran you and

it matters.

And my mom’s always back that fully.

So we’ve been helping,

mom, myself, in particular, helping her really

really hard to just accept the kindness and the love from the world and she’s getting better at it.

Then there’s the work on her home that was already going on and the work that’s gonna happen is just, you know, you can’t sleep right and there’s always something going on and, you know, our

her world got turned turned upside down for a while. Again, all for good reasons, but you break the routine. She’s 75.

Any of us will get fatigued from that but she’s you know she needs her routine.

We’re getting back to it even as we do all this stuff

then for then for me in my personal life, I got things going on that that turned a little sideways that I wasn’t sure how it handled. I’ve I’ve handled them as well as I could up to this point. Things look good.

But

It’s it’s it’s stressful.

It’s stressful. And if I didn’t know everything I knew that I can help

know that I can share with you guys and help you you know, maneuver and navigate your issues. If I’d had learned all I’d learned, I wouldn’t be dealing with this thing even as well as I have. My my my training, particularly in the last few years, has definitely come to come into play.

My work life has

at my day job,

which directly impacts how well I do this with you guys for the better.

That has gone kind of wild and I have some of my clients that are in the middle of explosive growth

all directed by me

I’ve I’ve I’ve created some things to where they’ve gotta keep up with me, and I gotta keep up with them.

And the odd thing about the job I do is even when it’s going great which it usually is either okay or great. There’s not too too much really hairy negative although it can hit.

It’s draining because you got to be present and I mean fully present and to be fully present all day long is exhausting.

I didn’t know that until I had to do it like this. And it’s not exactly where I belong. It it there’s a therapeutic

angle to it, whereas I’m a coach.

I can be fully ex fully focused, fully present with someone. But if I’m rallying them on to get them up the rest of the way that hill,

that’s exciting to me. That fuels me.

This even though I enjoy it and I’m more than happy to help these people and I like all my people,

it drains me

because it’s just not it’s not It’s not a correct fit. It’s a similar.

It’s similar but it’s not a correct fit.

But anyway, as you all know, I’m bringing out to a closed as soon as possible anyway and it’s it’s gonna be fairly soon. Things are working out well.

So I’m dealing with that.

There are people I don’t wanna I don’t wanna get too close to the truth and, like, put anybody out. There’s other people in my life that are going through stuff.

And I’m trying to help them too personally

and they’re up against some pretty solid problems and I care about them deeply

and I’m doing everything I can to help them and of course I would.

But you know,

I’ve been piled upon lately. This is not a bitch or grip a complaint of moaning what was me. It’s just not it’s just life

Lot of shit all came at me at once and then that’s why I disappeared for the last 2 episodes.

Going forward, I’d always thought of this. I just never got around to it.

I’ll have some

I’ll have some evergreen content that no matter when you hear it, it’s not it’s not bound to current events in any way. It’ll just be helped stuff. I’m gonna record a pilot o’s

and preset them to when I know that I’m not gonna make an episode.

I’ll be able to slide those in by just editing in the episode number, and then you guys won’t be left hanging, and it’ll be good shit.

I do my best to make sure I keep giving you good shit.

And then I had in my notes here.

I’ve been learning a lot lately.

I’ve been learning a lot.

I’m tearing through a lot of what Dan Cole creates.

There’s a a man named Justin c got that just released a long form newsletter. He just sent it to me. He’s a friend of Danko’s. They’re very similar people.

And Justin wrote something that like sung to me at on every paragraph

and he said things that were so important to me And it’s all stuff I say to you, but we’re different people.

It his stuff was

more highly detailed, more formatted,

more clearly laid out and it was massive in scope, all in 1 newsletter and I just felt like my life changed reading it. So if you find Justin c Scott,

that’s 1 of the guys that shaped how I’m moving forward.

There’s there’s Jason Leister

Jason’s my oldest mentor.

He’s younger than me by more than 10 years,

but I’ve been following him the longest and he

he has changed my life more than once. I’m spitting these names out because

all of them are doing things lately that are

I’m getting pretty revved up just seeing what my guys are doing and figuring out how to put it into what I’m doing.

And

I hope you’ll do the same with me. What I’m about to say next, you soak in somebody’s words

their messages in whatever fashion long enough

you eventually start putting together putting the pieces together in a way, you will not even if you’re really good at it. It it keeps the same information

as you grow, takes on new meaning.

And and I’ve been in a sort of a

like a a learning

patch. That’s that’s just

I can almost taste it. It’s like I feel myself getting

smarter,

more knowledgeable.

It’s exciting.

So again, a lot going on in my head. In connection with that,

there is a woman named Amanda Horvath.

She does YouTube videos.

I have a YouTube channel fully built with no no videos in it yet. I plan on releasing like short

short material in there. Who the hell knows? It’ll start short just like it start filling it up and then I’m gonna go long form at some point and then podcast, there will be a video component in there.

That’s totally gonna happen. Whenever how I can grow 2 heads and 4 more sets of arms and pull it all off in the midst of else I’m trying to do but it’s gonna happen.

Reason to bring up Amanda,

she just went through something recently and I only found her recently But I dig her energy and what she’s all about.

She’s focused massively on

creating videos properly for for YouTube for for business purposes and for life fulfillment purposes.

And another cool thing is she’s big on human design which I’m gonna make mandatory

and and what I’m doing. Now that I heard her say it, I’m like, yeah, I’m doing that because I I wanna do anyway, but I was I was I

was leading I was I was what’s the word?

I was putting it fourth as an option. It’s gonna be mandatory. Now if you work with me, you’re gonna have to do your human design report as well as your Colby a index a

Those 2 things will clarify who you are to you like no other 2 things in the world ever can, and that would do the same for me so I can help you properly.

They changed my life. And Amanda’s big on human design and she makes all her clients even though they’re coming to her for video production help. They use it as well.

It matters once we know why we are like we are and how we’re gonna operate,

that will change the advice

we coaches give because of course

this way we don’t have to fight upstream.

This way we don’t pick things that we know at work but are impossible for you.

And we need to know more about you to do it right. So Amanda does that which I found cool and also she very recently went to a thing where

If I got this right, she she kinda burned out on just talking about YouTube and wanted to dress more her life.

And she felt like maybe she’d be doing her audience a disservice

and, you know, because they’re coming to her for YouTube stuff.

Now I’ve had these thoughts in the past with what I do. Not exactly that. Not exactly the same as that. But I didn’t struggle with it like she just is now. I’ve just ran with it. I’ve been doing that for years

on any podcast I have just being the third.

And

I just go. She’s just reached that point where she’s gonna just go and just say whatever her guts telling her to say however the spirit moves her sort of thing wherever the muse takes her

I do that anyway because I can’t take structure.

I put it in play where necessary

as as a, you know, I don’t know, guidelines, but after that I I just I just I just run whatever whatever my gut tells me from there.

So she just hit that point and she’s like, she was terrified and then a whole bunch of us wrote in nice things to tell her, no, this is cool. Go for it. And now she’s decided to go for it.

She said

maybe 1 day she and I do a video together, which I’m I told her I’d be more willing too, and I I hope 1 day she reaches out and we do that.

But

it was nice to see somebody

go through that. Something I struggled with some time ago and at different times I struggle with it and and just getting clear on what it is I wanna share, sort of like what I open this episode with Dean Sandity of my former violent life.

It would have proved a good point but it might have been a bit bit overkill in the proving

So

I think that was about all I had. I just want to share those things and then just just

reiterate.

You’re gonna fit you’re gonna get faced with overwhelm.

If you

slowly, carefully, sanely build the right systems eventually your systems will take care of quite a bit of that overwhelm. You’re gonna be overwhelmed while you’re building the systems.

But as you get through them in whatever way it makes sense, they will start pulling their own load. And then at least for a while, you won’t have the over overwhelm.

The funny thing is is once they do well enough,

more work’s gonna happen, more ideas are gonna occur to you and you’re gonna you’re gonna jump into some overwhelm again anyway, because now you can.

You wanna experiment, you wanna split away from things, you wanna do other things in in

in conjunction

with the current things and, you know,

it’s a roller coaster. It’s on and off but

get get yourself ready

for it.

Be ready to deal with it and know that you can manage it that you will get through it, and you must because it’s the only way people like us eventually get our story in front of the right people.

And get rewarded with the kind of life we actually wanna have.

And as I say on my home page on bipolar excellence dot com,

Right now something is happening in the world where

it’s it’s it’s the easiest it’s ever gonna get I think to put your message out into the world

and the world is the most receptive to messages like ours than ever before.

I feel what’s gonna happen is not that opportunities

go away, but at some point,

Some opportunities might go away but I I think in other ways it’s gonna be so easy to do. The market might get

might get flooded

It might thin out a bit because more and more people are gonna end up doing what I’m doing right here and what you might eventually do as well

by default.

World’s going that way anyway.

You If you act now, you’re catching

you’re catching the wave.

I think you’ll be able to do quite well with this for a couple 2 or 3 more years easily

before it gets diluted in some way. The way anything does online, Things are hot and then they’re normal.

You don’t make so much money when they’re normal and you gotta fight harder to get heard when everything’s normal.

Do it now while it’s unique,

and also while the world is

is the most receptive,

We all know the world’s

it’s doing what it’s doing.

That is the key time for people like us with a message, with a unique story,

to be heard because people are getting burned out and they want they want a way out.

For your particular batch of people with your story behind you, your you’re their way out. You just gotta have something online so they can find you. And then they’ll win and you’ll win.

And I’ll win because I need to live half my life through you because all you guys with what you’re doing excite the shit out of me. I guess I’m saying you need to help me win

Alright, guys. That’s good enough as any. I will talk to you next week.

Be well.