Bipolar: Life of an Outsider Series
Fighting bipolar opened my eyes to my actual problem!
Trying to fit in and act certain ways were the two biggest reasons (that I had any control over) why bipolar ever showed up in the first place.
I was uncomfortable in my skin well into my 20’s. I offset this with humor, aggressive behavior, drugs and alcohol.
Anything that kept me from ever seeing, or dealing with the real problem.
I can’t make myself be OK with the status quo!
I’m not built to “accept” most of what passes for normal life.
Many are happy with the idea of leading a normal life. I never was. And trying to do so never sat well with me.
Chicken or egg?
Did bipolar make things hard or were hard things making bipolar?
I believe that bipolar has been a low lying issue most of my life.
But I believe the trauma of how I led my life up until my early thirties is what turned it on full force and fed it.
I also believe that bipolar’s arrival on the scene was the only way the better part of me could wake up the rest of me to my incorrect ways.
The old me had to be burned to the ground, in order for the better me to get a chance to see daylight.
To be sure, I’m mostly still the same me as before bipolar rained down its unholy hell on my life.
But I only kept the parts that I truly enjoyed and knew to be pieces of my superpower.
I’m meant to remain “something other.”
And I relish that fact.
This series lays out many of the powerful issues that plagued me most of my life…until I realized they were signals of The Good Stuff just waiting to be discovered.
EPI 33: I Want To Help In A Way No Job Would Ever Allow
EPI 32: My Search For Purpose Draws Harmful People To Me
EPI 31: Self Help / Self-Improvement Systems Not Getting Me Anywhere
EPI 30: I Love What I Do But Could Do More With It
EPI 29: I Love What I Do But Can’t Get Discovered
EPI 28: I Know Where I’m Headed But Need Help Getting There
EPI 27: I Have Faith In Myself But My Closest People Don’t
EPI 26: I Hate What I Do But Can’t Get Out
EPI 25: I Feel Lonely, Misunderstood, Ignored, Disrespected
EPI 24: I Don’t Know Who Needs What I Offer