Bipolar: Life of an Outsider Series
Fighting bipolar opened my eyes to my actual problem!
Trying to fit in and act certain ways were the two biggest reasons (that I had any control over) why bipolar ever showed up in the first place.
I was uncomfortable in my skin well into my 20’s. I offset this with humor, aggressive behavior, drugs and alcohol.
Anything that kept me from ever seeing, or dealing with the real problem.
I can’t make myself be OK with the status quo!
I’m not built to “accept” most of what passes for normal life.
Many are happy with the idea of leading a normal life. I never was. And trying to do so never sat well with me.
Chicken or egg?
Did bipolar make things hard or were hard things making bipolar?
I believe that bipolar has been a low lying issue most of my life.
But I believe the trauma of how I led my life up until my early thirties is what turned it on full force and fed it.
I also believe that bipolar’s arrival on the scene was the only way the better part of me could wake up the rest of me to my incorrect ways.
The old me had to be burned to the ground, in order for the better me to get a chance to see daylight.
To be sure, I’m mostly still the same me as before bipolar rained down its unholy hell on my life.
But I only kept the parts that I truly enjoyed and knew to be pieces of my superpower.
I’m meant to remain “something other.”
And I relish that fact.
This series lays out many of the powerful issues that plagued me most of my life…until I realized they were signals of The Good Stuff just waiting to be discovered.
EPI 17: How Do I Become Someone Able To Make My Dreams Reality?
EPI 16: Happy Where I Am But Feel I Am More
EPI 15: My Desire To Change Has Cost Me Everything
EPI 14: I’ve Created Tons Of Material No One Wants
EPI 13: I’m Tired Of Pros And Gurus Telling Me What I “Should” Do
EPI 12: How Do I Build My Future While Maintaining My Present?
EPI 11: Can’t Afford To Attempt To Live My Dream/True Purpose
EPI 10: People Mistake My Enthusiasm For Mania
EPI 9: Every Time I Try To Change, Self Doubt/Old Training Stops Me
