What Have You Overcome So Far? (Your Accomplishments)
· List all your victories, large and small.
I linked above to a PDF of articles I wrote in the late 2007-2008, after I’d been successfully managing bipolar for about 2 years or so. Gives you a nice idea of what I went through, what I was still going through, and what I’d gained from my improvements. They focused on the actual experience of healing from bipolar.
· Note any patterns to end or to capitalize upon.
As you’re reflecting on all the ways you won at life, can you see recurring events? Thoughts? Perspectives? Reactions from the world?
· Which ones make you the proudest?
The link above focuses on the personal growth victories I’d achieved in relation to bipolar. All the ways my life got better from my attempt to defeat this illness. What I’d learned academically and how I directly enacted these lessons in certain areas.
– Fluff out the entire story of those
–Define who and what you were
–Define the specific hurdles
–Define your attitude and state of mind
–Describe how the world treated you
· Which ones do you wish you handled differently?
The above link takes you to the article I wrote about my transition from how I first attempted to help bipolar people to how I do it now. Brutal learning curve.
With a bipolar life, there almost have to be moments you wish you could edit or take back. DO NOT BEAT YOURSELF UP OVER THAT!
Instead, use them as the learning tools that they are. When you make a mistake, it tells you something important. Find what that is in each tragedy, minor or large. Use these insights to make better decisions moving forward.
· Which ones came after receiving forewarnings you wish you’d paid attention to?
The link above takes you to an article about the time I worked with the most fascinationg, driven, intelligent, hilarious, manipulative, egomaniacal madman I’d ever known.
Mania, anyone? I found that mania often led to constant moments of putting the cart before the horse. Zero impulse control. Foot in mouth disease. Improper humor used at inopportune times. Questionable actions of every sort imaginable.
With respect to this section, I said “YES” far too often and far too easily, particularly if the project or person heading it fascinated me.
To be fair, this is simply part of how you do research to find out where you want to go. But I did it way too long with way too many insane, yet intriguing personalities.
I also martyred myself too much.
I gave more than anyone else involved, while gaining nothing beyond the learning experience. Valuable. Yes. Necessary. I guess so. Probably.
But f*** me did it lead to so much exhaustion, humiliation, embarrassment and defeat when the thousandth rendition of my “shiny bright new future” burned down in flames, yet again, before my very eyes.
And a lot of these choices came right after the Universe had just done its best to stop me before starting. But my energy carried me over the edge.
I still have a taste of this in me all these years later. I catch it much faster now. It’s almost impossible to attach me to your dream in any direct fashion.
I advise. I counsel. I coach. I do NOT partner.
Can you see where you’ve done the same and how you might have zigged instead of zagged?
Power in your favor if you can!