What’s Your WHY? (Your Heart)
I mentioned Candace Pert above. Her book, “Molecules of Emotion” was given to me by my chiropractor. It was one of the first tools I found effective for rebuilding my broken mind and spirit.)
· What must you do?
· What can you not stop doing because it feels right, regardless of results?
· Who do you not want to let down?
· What has happened that has made you wish to change?
— What have you realized about yourself or your life?
— What have you realized about the world and your place in it?
· What is the thing that’s bigger than you that gets you out of bed every morning?
· What are you willing to do that’s outside the box to help you answer these questions?
Everything changed, once again, when the contents of this book got into my head. Simon has a way of picking apart your why that makes clear how you can proceed with your grand mission.
He gave a stellar Ted Talk on the matter too.
The thing he says that resonates with me most at this point in my journey is this:
“The goal is not to do business with everybody who needs what you have.
The goal is to do business with people who believe what you believe.”
HUGE difference in perspective! And it both tightens your focus as well as lightens your load.
You really just need to help a small handful of people to get all you want out of life. Just a handful Not the whole globe.
And drawing the right people to you cuts out a ton of frustration. In essence, you’ll only be working with those you like and care for most!
What must Ken do?
I’m 53 (as of 2021) and I’ve been working on something you might call an oeuvre for the past 20+ years.
This site is the table of contents for that oeuvre.
And as grand as it is (if I may be so un-humble for a moment), it’s just the beginning of all I intend to do.
It started as a way to find my path
I’ve been and done many things.
There have been many because I’ve never felt comfortable for very long in any one setting.
I was never able to build a life in the way I wished and the frustration this caused me eventually led to my doom.
Here are just the highlights of what I’ve survived:
- Being informed by my doctor that I had about 6 months to live and that my death would make the papers (“Because you don’t do anything small.”)
- Two comas (One for a few hours. One for two weeks.)
- Two actual deaths (Docs restarted me once. Self restart after they “called it” the 2nd time.)
- Mental illness (About an 8-year journey through bipolar hell)
- Crippling back pain (With careful maintenance, mostly pain-free since 2006-ish)
- Thousands of prescribed pills a year (Only pills I still take are fish oil pills)
- One divorce and one separation (The first reverted to a dear friend, the second decided to remain my beautiful wife!)
- $140,000+ worth of debt (Down to less than $20G as of 2016)
- A handful of firmly rooted addictions (Only lightly worship coffee now)
- Complete economic wipe out (Twice!)
- The loss of my family (I got ’em back!)
- And (just to keep things lively!) a felony rap for alcohol related infractions
I made it past the doom. I survived the doom. And I learned from the doom.
I got clear on what was harming me most about my outlook on life. Then I got to work on changing that outlook.
Hell. I began changing almost everything about myself in order to rebuild my world into one that made more sense; one that better suited what I really wanted out of life.
But I did NOT try to change my essence!
I used the very thing that was tearing me apart to rebuild what I’d lost, as well as build new facets to my life that I’d never had.
Turns out, the Doom was just the result of my misuse of the thing that made me awesome.
I’m an Outsider
I am not meant to do what the masses consider normal. Normal hurts me.
Try and make me conform and I will either implode or explode.
This whole site is my explanation of why that is and how it looks. How I misused this and how I harnessed it for the big rebuild.
And why some of you are going to want to know more.